Stephanie Meyers owns Twilight. I just get to play in her world…
Chapter 2
EDWARD POV
I just stood there my knuckles bloody staring at the clock. Victoria was now dressed and obviously freaked out by my outburst. She ran out the door, and a few seconds later Emmett came running in.
"Edward what the fuck dude?" He yelled confused as well.
Victoria did not come back in, and I was just breathing and staring. I couldn't speak. He noticed my phone and grabbed it. He must have come to the same conclusion that I had.
"No Fucking way!" he said throwing my phone clean across the office. It smashed into a million pieces.
I slid down on the floor and put my head on my knees. I had run this scenario in my mind a million times. At first it would have been a lovely sex driven reunion, but the years passed, and the hate and hurt and pain now clouded that version and there was only FURY. I was not prepared for my emotions or the actions that followed those two words. Emmett came and sat next to me.
"Edward, it's going to be okay. We are going to take care of her. Don't worry." He said trying to obviously help the situation, but I was stunned at my outburst.
I had grown to hate her over the years, and anyone would assume I would welcome some type of confrontation or retaliation for the heart ache and pain I endured when she left, but the words that flew out of my mouth even shocked the hell out of me.
"NO Emmett I don't want anyone going near her! You got it! Stay the fuck away from her!" I said seething.
Why the hell am I protecting her? She didn't give a fuck when she left me? I loved her so fucking much and she abandoned me. I am not sure how long I sat there with Emmett not saying anything just sitting when she walked in Jasper trailing behind her.
"Edward, I figured I would find you here." She said sliding down next to me.
"Hey Emmett what do you say we shoot a couple games of pool?" Jasper asked.
Emmett looked at me, and I nodded. I know he would sit here all night long if I needed him to, but I needed to talk to Alice.
He walked out the door and I looked up at Alice.
"I'm sorry; I shouldn't have sent you that text. I should have waited until I saw you face to face and told you, but I swear when she walked in the restaurant and sat down to meet us I didn't know where to put myself." She said.
"What do you mean sat down to meet you? I thought you were meeting one of Jasper's colleagues?" I asked clearly confused as why Bella would be sitting with Jasper and Alice.
"She was the colleague. Bella is a doctor, and according to Jasper a damn good doctor." She told me smiling.
My confusion was now complete bewilderment. My Bella was a clumsy, scared girl who not only would not stomach a drop of blood but literally couldn't stomach it without being sick. Alice must have picked up on my thoughts.
"I know, trust me Edward she is not the same Bella. If she wouldn't have been sitting directly in front of me I would have never picked her out. She is gorgeous and confident and a doctor." She said proudly.
I wanted to be happy for her, I really did, but I just couldn't wrap my head around it.
"What did she say?" I asked her after a few moments of silence.
"Edward, trust me there was so much I wanted to ask her, but she was clearly caught off guard by my presence. I didn't want her to run away again. I just sat there and listened to her and Jazz talk. I couldn't believe that she was sitting there after all this time. It took everything in me to not question her with the thousand questions that have been running through my mind since the day she vanished." She said taking my hand.
"We finished dinner and right before she got in her car, I asked her why she ran away. She was almost in tears and told me she couldn't tell me. Edward, she wanted to so bad. I think she is just scared. I don't want to push her away, but I don't want to push you away either. Family first, you tell me what you want me to do."
"Alice, give me a little while please." I said looking at her not knowing where to go from here.
"Edward, there is something else you should know. The reason we could never find her, was because her last name isn't Swan. It's Dwyer." She said walking out the door.
Dwyer. Dwyer. I didn't know any Dwyer. Did she marry? I was so lost and confused. I stood up grabbed my keys and walked out the back entrance. I got in my car and speed down the road unsure of where I was going, but I knew I needed to get the hell out of here.
BELLA POV
I had just got out of the tub and I was pruned beyond recognition. My eyes were swollen and red from the tears that seemed to stream down my face for the last few hours. It was almost midnight and I had to be at work at six am. I had been lying in my new room, my dad's old room in a new bed staring at the clock when I heard the doorbell. I instantly was startled. I ran to the closet and grabbed the box I had hidden there and grabbed the small handgun that I had purchased while I was living in Phoenix. I was making sure it was loaded when the doorbell rang again. I put the gun behind my back and made my way down the stairs. As soon as I turned the light on by the doorway I instantly wanted to run back upstairs. It was Edward.
It had started pouring while I was in the bath, and it was coming down extremely hard now. I opened the door and he was standing there soaking wet. We didn't say anything to each other. Just stared listening to the thunder and rain pouring on the roof and cement outside. He was just as gorgeous as the day I left, more so. You could see that time only enhanced his looks. He was no longer the eighteen year old boy I left, but a twenty nine year old man. I decided to move to the side so he could come in. I took the gun and slid it into the drawer closest to the door. His eyebrow went up and I could tell he wanted to question it, but he didn't.
"Let me grab you a towel, I'll be right back." I said running back up the stair s to the only bathroom in the house.
Breathe Bella. You can do this. I made my way back downstairs and found him staring at our prom picture. Of course, He was King and I was Queen.
"The way it should have been." He said.
I didn't know what to say or where to go from there.
"Edward." I started and he looked at me, and I held the towel out to him. He grabbed it from me, and for a brief second the electricity flowed and hummed just like it did eleven years ago, and I can honestly say no matter what I said I was prepared for. I had lied because I now knew that no matter what I had to stay away from Edward Cullen he would still be just as dangerous to me as I to him if we got to close.
He took the towel from me as well and began drying himself off. He peeled his shirt off his body and I was stunned there above his heart was my name. He had etched my name onto his skin and I couldn't help but gasp.
He must have realized what I was staring at.
"Oh yea. It's a reminder." He said.
"A reminder for what?" I couldn't help but ask back.
"A reminder to never trust and never love anyone but my family, because all it leads to is heartache." He said sadly.
I couldn't be mad at him. I did this to him. I broke him.
I walked into the living room and sat on the couch, he followed suit and sat on the floor directly in front of me.
"So Alice tells me you are a doctor now?" He asked with an almost normal tone.
"Yes, I am." I responded.
I waited for him to say anything but he just stared at me. I then realized I had the shortest shorts on imaginable and a thin spaghetti strap matching top with no bra. I had never felt more foolish or sexier in my life. It had been years since I had seen him, and I had honestly finally grown into my body. I had curves in all the right places. I had never felt sexy or beautiful enough to be with Edward, but I had accepted that I was good looking to most men. It was a work in progress.
I was thinking this would be cordial given that Edward had been here for about five minutes and we hadn't started screaming or yelling.
"Why are you back Bella?" He said looking at the picture of us on the wall again.
"I don't know." I couldn't tell him the truth.
My words set him off. I knew what I was doing, but I couldn't face telling him the truth. I was a coward, I ran away. I deserved what happened to me. It forced me to come home, and I now had to look over my shoulder every day of my life. It was my penance to make amends.
"What do you mean you don't know? How the fuck do you not know why you came home?" He asked his words laced with venom.
"Edward, there is so much I want to tell you, but I can't. We can't go back in the past. I'm sorry for leaving the way I did." He cut me off standing up.
"Your sorry! Your Sorry! No Bella you have not began to be sorry for what you did trust me. You have no idea what your decision did to me." He was now pacing in my living room.
"I know sorry is not what you want to hear, but I just can't go there right now. You deserve to know why. I promise just not tonight. I can't. Please!" I said begging him.
He noticed a box of stuff sitting on the table and pulled out my diploma.
"Who is Bella Dwyer? Is this why I couldn't find you?" Edward asked me seething.
"I changed my name." I said vaguely. I knew these were not the answers he wanted, but I didn't know how much I could reveal without setting a chain of events in motion that I wanted to avoid at all costs.
He walked right in front of me we were only inches apart. I wanted to grab him and hug him so tight, but stayed still. The energy humming at our closeness. "I see how this is going to play out Bella. I do. Let me just tell you how I see it. You just decided to give up on me all those years ago. Our love wasn't strong enough to keep you. You hated the family business and you couldn't deal, so you ran off. You pushed me and pushed me to leave and when I was committed to you and determined to graduate so we could move away together, you ran. My mother never thought you were good enough for me, she said you couldn't handle our life. I alienated my whole family for you Bella. After you left, I was nothing I was broken. But you know who was there for me? Them. My Family not you. You didn't give a rat's ass about me." He said.
"That's not true!" I yelled back at him.
"Really. You left me a note, a God Damn note Bella. You couldn't even face me. You just ran away. I had no way to find you or contact you. Your dad didn't even know where you went. I looked and looked for you. I ignored everything and everyone. Months passed and finally I realized you weren't coming back. The only thing left for me to do was throw myself into the family business!"
Hearing those words tore my heart out. I knew that my leaving would only make him dedicate himself more to the Cullen Cause, but him admitting it like he was proud was unbearable.
"I think I should leave. I'm sorry I came back. I will talk to Jasper as soon as possible; you don't need to worry about me anymore." I said trying to help the situation. I obviously had caused so much damage, unfixable damage and my presence was only going to make it worse.
He was instantly in front of my face now. He grabbed my arms and I was shocked into place. I could feel him shaking.
"It's what you do isn't it. Something seems to hard or someone tests your loyalty and Lil' Bella packs her bags and leaves. Do you understand what you did to me? Do you know how many women I have slept with in the last eleven years?" He screamed.
I couldn't handle that. I didn't want to know. Please God I don't want to hear this!
"HUNDREDS Bella, HUNDREDS! I lost count. But you know what the sad thing is? No matter who I am with, no matter what is going on there is only one face I see. Yours! It's like I can't get you out of my head. I love you and I hate you so damn much. What the hell do I do with this, huh Bella? You walk back in town stirring up all this shit, and you can't even give it a few days to settle before you want to leave again?"
I wasn't prepared for his words or his next action.
He grabbed me and kissed me. He pushed his mouth onto mine and my lips molded to his. His tongue seeking entrance into my mouth and I welcomed it. He was a needy kiss. It's like I couldn't breathe until his mouth was on mine. His scent was the exact same. Just as quickly as it started it ended.
"I'll see ya around Doc" He said grabbing his shirt and walking out my door.
I could still feel the heat from the kiss burning my lips as I heard him get in his car and drive off. I made sure to lock the door and set the alarm. I grabbed my gun and made my way back upstairs. I climbed into bed, and finally fell asleep dreaming of Edward Cullen.
EDWARD POV
I had been driving for over an hour in the horrible weather. I was determined to not chase her. I told myself I was driving to my parent's house, but somehow I ended up passing their street and headed straight to the familiar house that I visited so long ago. I had to know if that's where she was staying. It had been almost a year since anyway lived there, but when I pulled up and saw the light upstairs I knew she was home. I felt almost compelled to get out of the car. I walked in the pouring freezing ran like a man possessed to her door. I waited a minute and finally got the courage to ring the doorbell. I had to see her.
I waited another minute and rang the doorbell again. The light flicked on and I finally noticed her. She opened the door and we just stood there. Not speaking. There were no words to express just how gorgeous she had become. Bella was exquisite. She was wearing the smallest shorts and tiniest top and it fit perfect against her now curvy body. I grew instantly hard at just the sight of her. She moved to the side, and I took that as my que to come inside. I saw her tiny hand and saw a flash of silver and realized she had a small hand gun and was picking it up into a drawer. Bella was never fond of guns. I couldn't help but wonder what made her have one on her. Just another question into the mystery that is this Bella. The look on my face must have given away my thoughts; Bella seemed to have realized what I was thinking without asking.
"Let me grab you a towel, I'll be right back." She said running up the stairs and I couldn't help but stare at her ass for a second while she ran up to the second story to the only bathroom in this house. I walked into the living room and instantly saw our picture. We were happy here.
"The way it should have been." I said mostly to myself. She was now standing next to me looking at the same picture, obviously having heard what I just said.
"Edward." She said looking at me now. She held the towel out and I grabbed it from her. My hand barely touched hers and it was like someone was electrocuting my heart. It was like time stood still, I couldn't believe after all this time she still had that effect on me. This was not good, not good at all.
I began drying myself off, and realized my shirt was a lost cause I peeled it off and heard her gasp. I quickly looked to where her eyes were boring into my skin. I forgot that her name was tattooed over my heart.
"Oh yea. It's a reminder." I said lying.
"A reminder for what?" she asked obviously curious to why I would put her name on my body.
"A reminder to never trust and never love anyone but my family, because all it leads to is heartache." The lie falling off my lips so easily. I had become a pro at it over the years.
She walked into the living room and sat on the couch. I followed her and decided sitting right next to her right now was probably not the best idea so I sat directly in front of her on the floor.
"So Alice tells me you are a doctor now?" I asked trying to strike up any kind of conversation to get some answers to all of my questions.
"Yes, I am." She responded.
I just stared at her after that. I could tell she must have realized what she was wearing and the blush I was so familiar with was creeping back up on her face. I was glad some things didn't change.
I needed answers and I needed them now.
"Why are you back Bella?" I said detaching myself from her body and looking at our picture again.
"I don't know." She said coping out. I was livid. I can't believe after all this time she is still not going to admit why she ran off. How fucking dare she?
"What do you mean you don't know? How the fuck do you not know why you came home?" I all but screamed at her.
"Edward, there is so much I want to tell you, but I can't. We can't go back in the past. I'm sorry for leaving the way I did." She tried to appease me and I couldn't help but stand up. I was growing more furious at every word she was saying.
"Your sorry! Your Sorry! No Bella you have not began to be sorry for what you did trust me. You have no idea what your decision did to me." I said pacing the floor.
"I know sorry is not what you want to hear, but I just can't go there right now. You deserve to know why. I promise just not tonight. I can't. Please!" She was begging me but calm collective Edward was gone, and I wanted answers damn it.
I noticed a box of stuff on the table and grabbed the first frame I saw. It was her diploma but what caught my attention was the name. I wanted to know who the hell Dwyer was? And why Bella had a new last name. If anything her name should have been Cullen so to say I was angry was an understatement.
"Who is Bella Dwyer? Is this why I couldn't find you?" I wanted to know. I spent months searching for her. No one knew where she was.
"I changed my name." She responded.
I couldn't help it any longer. I was instantly in front of her. "I see how this is going to play out Bella. I do. Let me just tell you how I see it. You just decided to give up on me all those years ago. Our love wasn't strong enough to keep you. You hated the family business and you couldn't deal, so you ran off. You pushed me and pushed me to leave and when I was committed to you and determined to graduate so we could move away together, you ran. My mother never thought you were good enough for me, she said you couldn't handle our life. I alienated my whole family for you Bella. After you left, I was nothing I was broken. But you know who was there for me? Them. My Family not you. You didn't give a rats ass about me." I said finally letting go of some of the pain I had been feeling for so long.
"That's not true!" She yelled back in my face.
It only enraged me more. "Really. You left me a note, a God Damn note Bella. You couldn't even face me. You just ran away. I had no way to find you or contact you. Your dad didn't even know where you went. I looked and looked for you. I ignored everything and everyone. Months passed and finally I realized you weren't coming back. The only thing left for me to do was throw myself into the family business!"
I could tell that she was disappointed at my declaration but what did she expect.
A moment passed and she finally spoke. Almost whispered like she was afraid what these words would do to me. "I think I should leave. I'm sorry I came back. I will talk to Jasper as soon as possible; you don't need to worry about me anymore."
I grabbed her. She couldn't leave she just got back. I was shaking, "It's what you do isn't it. Something seems to hard or someone tests your loyalty and Lil' Bella packs her bags and leaves. Do you understand what you did to me? Do you know how many women I have slept with in the last eleven years?" I screamed trying to make her realize that her actions had consequences.
She tried to pull away but I held tight.
"HUNDREDS Bella, HUNDREDS! I lost count. But you know what the sad thing is? No matter who I am with, no matter what is going on there is only one face I see. Yours! It's like I can't get you out of my head. I love you and I hate you so damn much. What the hell do I do with this, huh Bella? You walk back in town stirring up all this shit, and you can't even give it a few days to settle before you want to leave again?"
I didn't mean to do what I did next but it was like she was a magnet pulling me to her. I grabbed her face and kissed her with all I had in me. I had only kissed one person since Bella, and quickly realized I never wanted to kiss anyone else again but her. It was too hard; there was no one that held a candle to her. My mouth was hungry for her. I could smell her same strawberry shampoo, and it finally felt like I was home. It had been eleven years, and not one second since she had left since I felt home, but here with Bella I did. That scared me more than anything. I quickly released her.
"I'll see ya around Doc" I said grabbing my shirt and walking out the door.
I got in my car, and headed for my parents. I didn't make it the block before I was doubling back I turned the lights off and sat outside Bella's house. I saw her dad's bedroom light go off, and finally realized that no matter what happened next life as I have known it for the last eleven years was about to change.
Okay so please tell me what you thought? There is so much going to be happening soon! I have spent the last five hours with these two chapters. I am going to work on the next chapter tomorrow and hopefully have it up tomorrow night. Any feedback is appreciated. Again, I have no beta so I apologize for any grammar. If you have some ideas please give me some….Here is something's to looks forward to…..The rest of Cullen Family is about to realize that Bella is back. Rosalie will come into play. Alice and Bella will have their own heart to heart…and of course more angst, drama, jealousy, love, lust, anger, blood, guns….more more more more. For those who review I promise to give a little back story that will come to play later. So please review! Thanks!
