Hi, sorry for such a late update – I just finished exams so now I can fully focus on finishing this story. I'm changing it to make it more of what Finn and Rachel were thinking during the New York episode (which was AMAZING!) with some slight changes to make it continue from my previous story. Hopefully it'll work out. Enjoy
I do not own Glee, obviously :P
RACHEL POV
The date had been so perfect. Dinner at Sardi's, meeting Patti LuPone and now, just walking the streets of New York, with my arm in Finn's. It was just like I was part of a romantic comedy. I told Finn this as we walked together and he smiled. I rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes, wanting to savour this moment; savour him.
'Wait,' he said, suddenly stopping. He looked deep into my eyes and I knew something was about to happen. 'This is the moment in those romantic comedies where I kiss you.'
He smiled so sweetly, and as he gently put his hand under my chin and pulled me towards him, it took all the strength I had to say, 'I can't.'
We remained inches apart. I was trying my best not to cry. Finn looked shocked for a second, before saying, 'Take a chance on me,' with the corners of his mouth turning up slightly. I watched as he looked at my lips, before closing his eyes and leaning towards me, which I mirrored.
'I'm sorry Finn,' I said, as I opened my eyes to see my lips almost touching his. 'I can't.'
Moving away from him was like trying to fight a magnet; it was against nature and felt all wrong. I hurried back up the street we had just came from, stopping at the corner to look back at Finn, who looked as though he was in the most horrible pain. That hurt more than anything I had ever felt, that I had hurt him so badly. But all could do was turn the corner and walk away, leaving the shattered pieces of my heart there with him.
FINN POV
'I'm sorry Finn. I can't'
And with that, she walked away. I didn't understand. I thought she wanted this as much as I did. I thought – I thought she loved me. Watching Rachel walk away from me was the worst feeling in the world. It was like having your heart ripped from your chest and just tossed around like a piece of trash. I should have run after her. I should have done something, anything to try and at least understand why... But I couldn't. I physically was unable to move. All I could do was stand there in the middle of the street and try not to cry.
KURT POV
I didn't tell Finn.
Oh god, why didn't I say something to him? I was meant to be helping him get Rachel back and failed to tell him what had happened before their big date. The date he had planned so perfectly, and it was going to be so perfect.
It was the day before their date, when Rachel and I went shopping to buy the stunning blue dress she rocked for said date, that she told me. We were talking about how awesome and beautiful New York is when she said, 'Kurt, I have a secret.'
'Oooo,' I said clapping and dragging her to sit on the nearest seat. 'Ok, spill!'
'When we graduate I'm coming back here and going to college here. This is where I belong.'
'I'm so coming too,' I replied excitedly. We then continued to talk about our dream Manhattan life until I suddenly had a thought. 'Wait – what about Finn?'
Rachel immediately looked down, seeming unsure. 'I don't know. I mean, I think he may want to get back together, and I really do too but, I just don't think he'd be up for New York; he's too much of a country boy.'
'Ahh, the age old dilemma; love or career,' I joked. 'Well, Rach, you have to decide sometime.'
I didn't think Rachel would really take it seriously. Little did I know, as I rambled on about how if Finn came to New York he could lift heavy things for us, Rachel wasn't even listening. She was thinking about how New York and Broadway is her dream; her destiny. And how she's waited so long for Finn, that maybe it was time she gave it up, and focused on her future. I should have said something to Finn so that he could have done something. But I didn't think she was so serious about making a decision. But she was. And now, I'm here comforting my best friend, who's crying over having to choose between the two true loves of her life; the stage and my brother.
The end of another chapter – only 4 more to go (2 of which are really short). Sorry the chapter is a little rushed. My goal is to have this entire story finished by the end of the week, so they may seem a little hurried. Hope you liked it.
Until next time,
xox