Chapter 3

I was at my desk, for what seemed like hours it seem like, trying to figure out how to express my feelings about Edward. When I was about to give up, I found the nerve to write what I really felt. So here it goes...

Edward,

I don't know where to start. Well, this may sound strange, but I have to let this out or I'll explode. You know my parents don't want me to be with you and I am not very happy with Jake right now. I don't know if it's my hormones, or what, but all I think about is you. I had a great dream about you. I know you have feelings for me, but you also know we can't be together. I know you can't stop thinking about our kiss and me. I'm so sorry that I brought up about your past; it was an accident, but no one believe that it was. Well, I'll go now. Bella

As I was putting the note in my backpack, my cell phone started to go off; I walked over and I pressed the talk button, regrettably, to hear Jake's voice.

"Hello."

"Hey babe, what's up?"

"Not too much. Just studying," I lied.

"Sorry about me not being in school today."

"Why weren't you in school anyway?"

"I had something to take care of. That's why I wasn't in school."

When he said those words I began to get chills running down my back; I always wonder what he means. Did something happen? Maybe I shouldn't find out because my parents might over hear us talking?

"Bella Sweets, are you still there?"

"Oh sorry, Jake, I must have dazed off for a few. So what's up?"

"Did you just hear me?"

"Heard you had to take care of something? Yes, I did."

"I just can't tell you what I did."

"I understand but anytime you want to talk about it I'm here."

"Thanks, darling, but I don't want you to get involved with this."

Does Jake already know I am involved? I have to know what he did. "Jake, just tell me what you did?" I begged.

"Bells, I don't think its a good idea if I tell ya."

"Jake, I am getting upset and worried about you!"

"Fine, but promise me you won't tell anyone and you won't get pissed at me."

"I can promise one thing ⎯I won't tell anyone⎯but I can't promise you that I won't get pissed."

"Well fine. You know your ex-boyfriend Sam, right?"

"What did you do to him."

"I roughed him up."

"You what?" I could feel the blood rush to my head.

"You heard me. Rough him up. Like injure him."

"I have to go now; I have to finish my studying for my test tomorrow." I had to lie to Jake; I didn't want him to know that I was going over to see Sam. I don't want to betray Jake, but he dislikes Sam and if Jake finds out that I'm going to see Sam, Jake will be very pissed off.

"Okay, I will see you tonight."

"What? You're coming over later?"

"Yeah, I thought I told you that."

"No, you didn't."

"Yeah, around 11:30 or 12:00."

"Well okay, I guess, let me go now, so I can get done then."

"Okay, I'll see you then. Love ya!"

"Love ya. Laters!"

I hung up the phone and grabbed my purse, keys and headed out the front door toward my Lexus. I opened the door and went to Sam's house hoping he wanted to see me. As I drove to Sam's house I started thinking about Edward again. Why can't I stop thinking about him? Is that because I really want to be with him? i Bella, you know you can't be with him, so pull yourself together.i I was about into Sam's street when my IPhone rang. I picked it up and just saw Alice was calling me. I didn't know what she want, so I let it ring. My voice mail would pick up. I was just about to Sam's when my phone rang again. I just let it ring.

Once I got to Sam's house, I saw Embry and Quil standing in the door to the kitchen. iWhat are they doing here.I I parked the car and got out, closed my door and walked to the house. Embry moved out of the way. When I got into the kitchen, I saw that Sam was in a wheelchair. iThat Jake! What has he done to Sam?i. When Sam finally looked up at me, he wasn't too happy to see me.

"What are you doing here?" Sam asked.

"What? I wanted to see you; I thought we were just friends," I answered.

"Well, we were friends, until your boyfriend went after me. I don't want to see you again and our friendship is over. Leave."

"Sam look, it's not my fault that he did this to you."

"Bella, it's over. Just leave."

As soon as he told me to leave I left and drove back to my house in tears. I didn't know why I was crying. My relationship with Sam was over, but now our friendship is over, too. I had to freshen up so Jake wouldn't see that I had been crying. I parked the car, got out and walked over to my door and unlocked it. I walked in to our house and ran to the bathroom to wash my face.

Then, I went downstairs to wait for Jake to come over. I couldn't believe that Sam told me it's over. I thought we would stay friends no matter what; I guess I was wrong. I tried to relax, but it was not easy to do.

About half an hour later I heard Jake's car pull up my drive way. I took a quick glance in the mirror in the hallway before I opened the door. Jake was almost at my door when I opened it⎯I had to put on a fake smile⎯and he walked up to me and kissed me. Then, we walked into the living room. Jake pulled me lightly so I was sitting next to him. He grabbed the flicker and turn ed on the TV. We didn't talk for a long period of time. Finally, he opened his mouth...

"Bells, you seem distant from me. Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, everything is okay." I lied, I felt like shit for lying to him, but I didn't want him to know that I went to see Sam.

"Well, it doesn't seem like it. Is it what I told you about on the phone?"

"No, Jake everything is fine. I'm just tired, plus it's late"

"Well, if you don't want my company, I'll leave."

"Please, don't take it the wrong way."

"No, it's fine. I'll see you in school in the morning."

We kissed goodnight and goodbye then we got up and walked toward the door. I opened the door, Jake stepped out and he walked to his car. I stood there until I couldn't see him anymore.

I closed the door and locked it; then I went to my bedroom, got changed, jumped into bed and cried myself to sleep. All I could thinking about were Sam and Edward. I didn't want go to school in the morning. I had a good excuse to play hooky; I had a hard time sleeping.

In the morning my mom came in to my room and woke me up. "Honey, if you don't get up, you'll be late for school."

"Mom, I will get up soon." I just want to roll over and fall asleep.

I watched my mom get up and walked out of my room before I decided to get out of bed and look for something to wear. iPretty soon I won't be able to hide my stupid stomach anymore. I will get hell when they actually find out. I am not fool./i I walked over to my damn dresser and rummaged through my clothes. I took me 5 minutes to finally find something to wear. I hate being pregnant at this point. iWhy was I so stupid?/i

I got dressed after 10 minutes of looking for what I wanted to wear: apair of Jeans and a loose purple blouse with my bongos. Then, I ran to the bathroom to brush my hair and do everything that I need before I went downstairs, where I found Jasper and Alice at the breakfast bar eating french toast and bacon. iI dread going to school and seeing Jake after what he did./i

SO anyways, I got some orange juice and one piece of french toast before I headed out to Shitty Folks High.