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Chap 5 Alone With Edward Under a Stary Sky

After screaming my life away, it felt like, Edward held me until I composed myself.

He was right. Screaming had actually made me feel better, but for some reason I didn't want to leave this spot. It felt safe here, like nothing could hurt me.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"I think so."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"Not really."

He nodded his head and just remained a quiet presence as I looked out over the trees at the setting sun. When the sun was far gone and the fire flies began make designs near the ground, he finally spoke.

"I wish there was something I could say or do." he said, brushing his finger tips across my cheek.

"You're already doing it, just being here" I assured him.

"I wish I could do more."

"No one can help me."

"Bella please, just tell me what's going on. I can try to help."

"Unless you can go back in time and talk some reason into me, there isn't much you can do."

"How far back would I have to go?" he asked with a smirk. I knew he was only trying to make me feel better, but I did wish he had the power to change it all for me.

"It's complicated." I reasoned.

"You know when most people say that, the situation normally isn't as bad as they think. Sometimes they just need a third party to look at it to see a solution that they hadn't thought of."

"Believe me, I've had a third party, a doctor, and myself all look at it. It is what it is."

"A doctor? Are you sick?" He looked so worried as he looked me over for any external signs of something being wrong.

"No, I'm not sick, don't worry."

"Okay?"

"Look, like I said, it's complicated."

"Well, if you ever need someone to talk to or to just sit with you I'd like to be that guy." he said as he sat down and pulled me into his lap.

"Thanks, not many guys would be willing to be that for a girl. Most are just interested in one thing."

"Believe me, I'm interested, but I'm no pig."

"Good, but ya know if you do turn out to be one, consider yourself bacon."

We laughed as he held me closer. I found myself playing with the hair on the back of his neck as I looked into his perfect topaz eyes.

"I think I'm about to complicate things a little more." he said leaning closer to me.

"Wait. I don't want you to get mixed up in all my drama." I said putting my hand on his chest to stop him.

"As long as the drama has you in it, I think I can handle it."

With that he pressed his lips to mine, cupping my face in his hands as he deepened the kiss. He ran his thumbs over my cheeks and I felt like I was melting into his palms.

"Call me a pig, but I've wanted to do that all day." he said, taking his lips from mine for just a moment.

I smiled and nodded against his lips in agreement. It was wrong for me to allow us to get closer with everything that I knew was to come. But at this moment, I didn't care. I wanted Edward, and that's exactly what I was going to get.

I let my hand travel down until I reached the hem of his shirt. My fingers skimmed just under the seams and ran over the smooth skin they came into contact with.

"Will you be mine?" he asked, looking deep into my eyes.

I knew I should tell him no since I was with Jacob, heck, I was carrying his baby, but instead…
"For now."

"I'll take what I can get." he said, bringing his lips back to mine.

I let my fingers go further up than the skin they had been exploring, tracing his abs. He leaned me back till I was on my back and he was hovering over me.

"Choose me, okay?" he begged before he pressed his body to mine.

I felt it as he unbuttoned my jeans and pulled the zipper down oh, so slowly. Man, was he trying to kill me slowly or something? Geez!

He inched his fingers further and further in my pants till he got to the band of my panties. He slipped past it and didn't hesitate as he began to run his fingers all along my slit.

I whimpered beneath him, begging for him to put out the flame he was creating.

"Edwardddd." I moaned.

"Pick me?" he asked again, lifting his eyebrow.

He let just the tip of his fingers enter me.

"Edward, please." I begged, trying to move closer to his hand.

"Pick me?" he asked, taking his hands a little away from me.

I pouted in response and was rewarded by him finally putting his finger all the way in me. Unfortunately, he kept completely still and asked me again. I begged him to keep going as he entered another finger and started to move them inside of me.

I kissed his whole face and any part of him I could reach.

"Pick me?" he panted.

I nodded my head yes a few times, there was no way I'd be able to make a coherent sound.

He stroked my clit one more time and quickened his thrusts. I came instantly.

As soon as I came down from my orgasmic high I started tearing at his shirt, trying to get it off.

"Wait, Bella." he panted.

"What?"

"Not here, not now."

"What?" I asked in disbelief. "I thought you wanted me, too."

"I do, but I want it all to be perfect for you."

"I'm okay with this, all I want is you."

"I want you too, but I want better for you than on the roof of some abandoned building. You deserve better than this."

I realized at that moment that it wasn't the place that made me feel safe, it was him.

How could someone who the world saw as a dangerous menace have such soft, kind eyes? How could he be so gentle and sweet with me when with everyone else he was anything but?

The answer came in the form of the most gentle kiss he placed on my lips; he loved me.
I'd always remember this moment - that happened on the roof of some abandoned building with an amazing view.

It wasn't a meadow of flowers, but it was now our place.

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