Chapter 6 : Excuses

The last thing I want is to be caught in a triangle between Jacob and Edward. This is so confusing and my feelings about Edward are stronger than what I thought they were, but I also have feelings for Jacob. What am I going to do now? I think Jake might pop the question. That's all I need: for him to ask me to marry him.

"Bella, I think it's time to drop you off at the gas station so you can go home."

"I really wish we didn't have to end now."

"I know Bella, but I don't want you to get in trouble for being out with me."

"If only I wasn't with Jake."

"Bella, why would you pick Jake in the first place?"

"Well, I don't know, maybe I didn't want to be alone."

"What got into you when you were with me?"

"Edward, why don't you stop talking about your friend, he is your friend right?"

"Yes, but he doesn't treat ladies like you very well."

"He treats me with respect."

"That's what you think."

I looked at him with angst, like why dis our friend like that. We just stood for a few extra minutes until he took my hand and led me back to his car. I was regretting it. I really wish this time we had wouldn't come to an end. It's not that I don't want to see Jake, but for me to lie to him or if someone saw me getting out of his car it would really piss him off. None of them know whose baby it is. And if one of Jake's friends finds out that I was with Edward; shit will hit the roof. I know he will start a fight. I don't need it.

"Come on Bella, get in."

"Fine."

He helped me get into his Volvo and he closed the door and walked over to his side. He got in and we were on our way back to Hess gas station where my car was. On the way there I was thinking about what a nice time I had with him. He took my hand in his free hand and held it. Then I rested my head on his shoulder and tried to relax and not think about what ifs. But it was easier said than done. I was so worried about his friend, Paul. But other than that, Edward and I hardly said a word. I didn't want to leave his side. I do feel more relax with Edward than I am with Jake, but I don't know why that is.

I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath when I felt His mouth on my hand. That's when I started to freak out. My eyes flew open and I looked over at him. He had the grin that I loved on his face. I just couldn't resist it; I had to give in and kiss his hand. I could see he was watching me from the corner of his eyes. My heart was going out of control. Am I a fool for letting myself go with Edward today?

It didn't take a long time for us to get back to Hess station. We pulled up next to my Lexus. But before I got out, I leaned over to kiss him one last time and smiled. He returned a smile and a kiss. I didn't want to let go of him, but he let go of me first. I got out of his car but after I closed the door I turned around; I want to tell him something.

"Edward, I had a nice time with you, thank you for letting me go with you, when I really shouldn't have gone."

"It was my pleasure, Bella, anytime you need to go somewhere or just need to scream, let me know."

"Sure, I will let you know, and thanks once again."

"No problem, catch you later."

Before I even said goodbye he drove off. I looked around to make sure no-one was around before I got in my car. No one that looked familiar, so I got in and headed back to my house. On the way back to the house, all I was thinking about was the time I had had with Edward. I actually didn't go straight home, I went to Alice's house to apologize to her for letting her deal with Jake. As I pulled into her driveway I didn't see her car, maybe she went out with Jasper, go figure. So I just drove home and hoped Jake wasn't there. Or all Hell would break loose.

It only took me 10 minutes to get from her house to my house. As I was pulling up in my driveway I saw Jake's Rabbit. Great, I am in trouble now. I took a deep breath and turn off the car, then I got out and walked over to my door, that's when I saw him standing by the door with his arms crossed. He pulled me away from the door. He'd never done this before. He knew that I wasn't with my dad.

"BELLA, Where the hell were you, I thought you told me that you were going to spend time with your dad?"

"Look Jake, My dad called me while I was getting gas that he couldn't postpone his meeting."

"You should have called me and told me that, we could have spent time together."

"I was going to call you."

He looked really pissed at me. I didn't blame him. He had every right to be. I wasn't thinking, actually I was thinking with my heart and not with my brain. I rolled my eyes at him. I think he knew I was upset; he'd never treated me like this.

"Bella, that's not what someone saw."

"What do you mean?"

"Yeah, you heard me. Someone saw you getting out of Edward's Volvo!"

"Huh, what, He saw me at the gas station and I was upset that my dad couldn't spend time with me, so he asked me if I wanted to go for a little ride, I really didn't want to go, but he insisted that I should go, so I let myself go with him, nothing really happened though."

"What about that damn kiss ?"

Just great, whoever saw me must be a spy for Jake. I pulled away from him without hurting myself. I looked away just in time to see Alice and Jasper pulling up the driveway.

"What the fuck were you doing kissing him, my other friend- first it was Sam, and now it's Edward?"

"Jake, stop cursing at me first of all, Sam and I were dating or seeing each other before you even came into my life so don't put Sam in this, and as for Edward it was just a friendly goodbye kiss."

"Stop seeing Edward, you're my girl."

"Jake, don't you tell me who I can and can't see, and by the way which of your other friends went to spy for you?"

"I'm not telling you."

"I can guess who it was. Paul."

"What?"

"Yes, you heard me. It was Paul, you know he doesn't like me , so you asked him to spy on me."

"Damn you're good."

"Damn right, I am good."

"I really wanted to know if you were telling the truth or lying about seeing your dad."

I didn't know what to do, half of it was a lie and the other half was the truth. I really wasn't going to see my dad; I was going out and Edward saw me so he ask me to go for a ride with him. I just couldn't tell Jake that. He knew that I don't like Paul either, even thought he was my ex boyfriend's friend. I couldn't stop him from seeing his friend whom I don't like.

Jake walked over to me and wrapped his arm around me after he apologized for grabbing me like that. I had no choice but to give in even though he had yelled at me. I unlocked the door and all four of us walked in. Alice and Jasper went up to his room to be alone while Jake and I went to the den and watch TV together. He took my hand and held it. I put his hand to my mouth and kissed it .

"Baby, I didn't mean to flip out about the whole ordeal, I was just stressed out about everything."

"About what, you don't know what stress is."

"You seem so distant from me, I thought I did something wrong, I tried to text you and you didn't even reply back."

"I had a lot on my plate, with this."

"With what?"

"Nothing, I'm fine."

"What do you mean 'with this'?"

"If I tell you, please don't flip out again."

"I will try not to."

"I'm pregnant."

"Your. What.?"

"Yes, you heard me, pregnant."

"Holy shit."

"Yes, and I don't know by whom."

The look on his face was freaking me out, I thought I blew the fores when I told him the news. Now I am very sorry for telling him so soon. If he finds out that the baby isn't his, he will blow again. This time I kept my mouth shut and will wait and see. I pulled myself closer to him and I stared in his eyes. I wish I could know what he is thinking right now. He took my hand and placed it on the top of my other hand and place his hand on top of mine. We didn't speak for a while. I felt a tear running down my face. He removed his hand and wiped it from my face. I do know he cares and worries about me. And the other part of me wishes that he would break up with me. Am I stupid or what? You got me. All I wanted was to know who I really was meant for.

Jake now knows that I'm pregnant and Edward doesn't know yet, and I'm afraid to tell him.

"Honey, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I guess I knew how you would react to the news."

"Yeah, that's a lot to take in."

I knew it would be a lot to take in, when I found out that I was pregnant I was like what? How can that be? But I dealt with it. I'm only three months along in my pregnancy.

"What are you thinking, Jake?"

"If the baby is mine."

I didn't know what to tell him, I didn't want to lie to him and tell him that it's his, if it isn't his.

Well, Bells, is it mine?"

"I don't know."

"What do you mean, you don't know?"

"Yeah I don't know, I'm sorry!"

"Well we'll take one day at a time."

"You're not pissed off at me."

"I'm a little how could you!"

"It was at a party. I was drunk."

"I know, but you shouldn't have done that, we had started seeing each other."

"Well, yeah I know. when you drink alcohol it makes you do things."

After I had said that I just regretted it . Jake should know. I moved closer to him. As I was as close as I could be I wrapped my arm around him and kissed him on cheek. He looked at me. I hope he understands what I was telling him. It was a mistake that I have to deal with. I don't blame him one bit if he's pissed off at me.

He turns to face me; I wish he would say something instead of keeping himself quiet- it was starting to freak me out. I moved my mouth toward him and I pressed my lips against his. I was hoping that would make him say something. I moved my tongue inside of his mouth.