7 Phone calls & Texts

Jake pulled away from me, then and took my hands in his and held them. Then he leaned over to me and kissed me. I wondered if he wasis happy to hear the news. I wrapped my other arm around him. Now he was massaging my back. What's gotten into him? I thought about how he would react when he finds out the baby might not be his. I just want to think about now, cause I just want be held now. I don't want be stressed, I know he forgot about our argument we had outside. Thank god.

"Jake, are you happy?"

"I'm a little happy, but after what you told me, if you think I'll be jumping up and down, you're wrong."

"But what if the baby is yours?"

"As soon as I find out it's mine, then than I might be but till then I am not ecstaticestic about it."

"I understand."

"What if it's my best friends baby?"

"I don't know what to tell you."

The look on his face... could hurt you. I've never seen him so hurt before, I know he's always wanted a child of his own;, this will kill him if it's not his. I hugged him tighter. I did feel bad about all of this. I What am I going to do?I I love him and I didn't want to hurt him, even so I also love being with Edward. See what I told you? Yeah, It's in so messed up. I don't know who I really want to be with . Part of me wants to stay with Jake and and the other part thinks I'm better with Edward. I just remember the time I had with Edward was unreal, it felt like a dream, but I know it was a real and not a dream.

"Just tell me, Bella, do you want to still be with me?"

"Yes I still want to be with you." I said to him.

"That's all I wanted to know."

I can't believe he believes me, and once I lie, I will always lie, to make him happy. I don't want my life to be consisting of lies. Cause then I would will feel like a bad guy for my lies; the truth is I still have feelings for him and now I am starting to have feelings toward Edward. I felt his hand still rubbing my back. So I was now not so comfortable to being with him.

"Bella, what's wrong?"

"Nothing."

See? I keep lying to me.

"Then let's enjoy the time we have left before I have to go back to La Push."

"Yeah, you're right."

So I lean over toward him and rested my head on his chest; than I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath so I can relax. Which it did help. I felt his lips on my collar bone as he started to kiss me. then. It tickled. I moved my mouth to his cheek. I took my hands and moved his head so I could kiss his big red lips. We kissed like we never had before. Then I felt his lips move to my ear lobe and then he whispered in my ear; "I love you, Bella!"

"I love you, too!" I whispered back.

" That's all I want to hear."

I was like jeez that nice. I pulled away from him and stared at him.

" What?"

"What you just said."

"I'm glad you told me that you love me!"

"Most guys would say it back one more time."

"As you know I'm not most guys."

"I know you're not most guys, you are who you are!"

"Damn right I'm me, I'm different."

I just wish he could just either cool it or leave. But I know he won't. All I wanted to do was cry. He's not the same Jake, that I fell in love with. He's changed a little. Was it that he already knew that I was pregnant?.It can't be; I only found out a few weeks ago myself. He pulled away again and he stared at me. I pulled him closer to me again; I wanted to be held. I kissed the tip of his nose. Then I smiled at him. I just wanted to see him smile. But he didn't even try to smile.

"Jake, I would like to get some sleep."

"So you want to kick me out!"

I could tell he was hurt that I wanted him out. It's just I had a long day. If he was me, he would understand. He just gave me the sad puppy dog look. It normally works but not now. I rose from the love seat and waited for Jake to get up. A minute later, he got up and kissed me. After the kiss I walk with him to the door. I open the door and he walked out;. I watched him until I couldn't see him anymore. I closed the door and went to my room, I had to walk pasts Jasper's room, the lights were off., I stood by the door- sure enough- they were at it.

So I started back to my room., I closed the door behind me and went to my desk to text Edward. I open my iPhone and scroll down to his name,; then I push text.

Hey Edward, it's Bella, I just wanted to thank you again.

After I got done texting him, I closed my iPhone and got in the shower. I just hope Jake doesn't decide to call while I'm in the shower. I also hope Edward doesn't expect me to text back, I just couldn't talk much because I was just to shitty tired to talk to anyone. After I got out of the shower and dried off and changed, I brushed my teeth and hair and then I walked into my room. I walked over to my desk and sure enough- my phone was lighting up like crazy. I picked it up and flipped it open and there was a text from Eddy boy.

It read; Hi Bella, I don't know where you are but I just got your text, I'm glad you had fun, and you're welcome;, if it's not to late please feel free to text back.

I was about to reply back when my iPhone rang., I looked at the I'D and sure enough, it was Jake. I pressed the talk button.

"Hello."

"Hey Bella, just checking in with you."

"That's nice of you, but I'm fine."

"Okay, see you tomorrow, I love you, bye."

"Right, love ya too, later."

I hung up the phone, relieved, and felt relief then I pressed text reply.

Edward, so sorry for not replying back, but Jake was calling as I was about to reply back, do you want to skip school and hang out somewhere, if you still up, text back, bye.

A few minutes later I was laying on my bed watching TV. when I heard my phone beep, notifying me that I had a new test came on. Sure enough, it was Edward.

Bella, so sorry for not answering you back sooner, I don't think it's a good idea, I have a big test tomorrow, anyways are you doing anything after, text back.

What he can't play hooky with me?. I felt bad now. I don't know what to do? I laid my iPhone down on my nightstand and took the remoter and channel surfed until I finally find something on the tube. I was up for a little while before I fell asleep. As I was about to doze off my bed room phone rang. I went to grab it .

"Hello."

"Bella, you're still up!"

"Alice, why are you calling me this late, you know it's, 1:30 in morning, and no I was about to doze off."

"Oh, sorry, well than I'll let you go now."

"Thanks, Alice, bye."

"No problem, night."

I hung up the phone and tried to sleep. It didn't last long. I was sound asleep, when my iPhone rang. Now what?

"What, Alice, did you forget something?."

"Bella, it's not Alice, it's me, Emily."

"Emily, what's the matter?"

"It's Jake."

"What?"

"Something happened to him, he asked for you."

"What happened?"

"Bella, Bella , I can't explain it."

"Fine, I'll be right over to your place."

"Thanks."

We hung up the phone and I got out of bed and than I put on a pair of jeans and a tee shirt. On my way out of my room I grabbed my purse and keys. As I went to the door, I wrote a note for my parents.