Sorry this update was so slow! This one is really short because it is mostly Ichigo's thoughts on Rukia. Next chapter will be twice as long I promise.

Chapter Four

She was there…

Now she is gone…

She showed up once again…

Then her life changed for the worse….

She was mine but now is a monster…

A monster I must kill…

A monster that must be stopped…

Even if I am in love with that monster…

Dreaming of her that night was hard. I remembered the day we met. And every single detail that went with it. Her laughter. Her smile. Her raven hair. Her beautiful purple eyes. And believe it or not he missed her kicking him all the time.

Her golden heart was his mind.

Her pure soul was his heart.

Her eyes shone like a clear night.

Her smile could warm my host.

Her love for me was as deep as I could see.

Her passion for her job was like her driving home from work.

Mostly thinking about her made him want to cry. Tatsuki was the same way but she didn't mean as much as Rukia. Rukia was his. The only thing he could call his own. She let him but he just yearned to just see her face once more. To see her normal. To see her laughing down the hallway with Orihime and Uryu.

Did she ever wonder if anyone would miss her?

Did she ever wonder if people would hate her if she left?

Did she ever wonder who she was hurting when she left?

Was she as strong as everyone thought she was?

Maybe she wasn't.

Maybe she was.

No one would know for sure until he could see her again.