Off Guard And Unprepared.

A/N: So turns out this story might help me out with getting through something personal.
So please excuse me, But I'll be adding a few more chapters before tonight's even over I'm sure.

"No, nothings wrong okay? You're just worrying too much" Iris said sipping her coffee,

"No I'm not, you don't even act like yourself anymore. You seem so much different."

Raguna sat across the table from her as he tried to think of the right words.

"Why do you always think I'll abandon you?" Iris asked finally,

Raguna could almost taste the irritation in her voice, she was sick of this.

"I just...want us to be friends like we used to be" Raguna looked away as he spoke.

"We ARE the very best, fine. what do you think has changed, this is silly.
I just want us to be happy, so ask anything you feel the need to ask." Iris gave in.

Raguna stared into her eyes for a second, "You don't have to do this you know..."

"Well I want to, I want to understand whats wrong so please help me"

Raguna sat up in his chair, a serious question hung over his head, he just couldn't ask.

"Well?" Iris said begining to show the worry in her voice.

Raguna started simple, "You seem so...blunt. uncaring, like you want to be somewhere else"

Iris looked a little irritated by that, she spoke softly, "No...I wouldn't be anywhere else"

Raguna noticed her eyes grew a little dull, something she did when she got upset.

"I guess...Why don't you talk to me the same though anymore? We used to be so close...
Now it's just simple conversation like "how was your day" or some random subject.
You barely even acknowledge when I try to be nice to you anymore. are you bored of it or something?"

Iris crossed her arms, "Raguna...You know I would tell you if something were wrong." She said.

"I don't feel like you would, I feel like I broke your trust somehow..." Raguna looked away again.

Iris sighed, "You aren't going to give up until I tell you, are you?" She finally asked.

"You know I never give anything up" Raguna smiled.

"Fine...Raguna, I'm fine, I just...have a lot on my mind." Iris said, avoiding as always.

"If thats the case then why don't we ever hardly even have time to speak to each other?"

"We do have time...Things just get complicated alright?" Iris said irritated more.

"Things didn't get complicated for them..." Raguna said.

"Them? Them who?"

"You're real friends" Raguna said with a little dissapointment.

"Raguna...You know you're my best friend, I just don't see you very often okay?
I'm sorry. I'm just busy" Iris said, eye's growing duller.

"You're never "busy" when it comes to them. you could drop everything to go spend time with them,
You even pushed me out of the way when you thought Mist was mad that day just to go see."

"Well what is that to you?" Iris said growing angry, "YOU have other friends,
YOU have other people you can talk to, for God's sake, am I the only place you have to go?"

Raguna grew silent, He didn't deal well with anger,

"...Well?" Iris said snapping out the word making Raguna flinch slightly,

"I guess you never understood when I said "You meant the world to me, nobody helps like you do."
Or when I told you that without you I was alone...Those other people don't care,
They tell me to jsut get over it, or call me dramatic, until I met you I WAS alone...
And when you changed I just...I felt alone all over again" Raguna said hiding his face.

"...Raguna, I can't help you. alright? I don't know how.
And I'm not trying to ignore you, I'm just..." Iris didn't know what to say anymore,

"Please, just tell me. are you tired of it? Be honest...please.
I would be there for you no matter what it took, no matter what time." Raguna said.

"I'm the same way...I'm always there for you...I just can't always BE there...I'm not always reachable I guess, I can't help it. I just have other things to do too." Iris said.

"Do you know just how much that hurts? You are the greatest friend I could ever have,
I feel like I could say anything to you without fear, even now.
But to know you say you're there but you aren't, it's a lie...And that hurts more than anything"

Iris paused, "Hurt?" the word stung her heart, She had never thought maybe it was hurting him.
"Raguna...I didn't know. I'm sorry I'm not always there..." She said begining to cry, holding back.

"You just seem so cold, so distant lately...You just aren't the same person anymore"

Iris wanted it to stop, she thought of walking out, but she would hrut him more then.
"I'm so sorry...I just don't know what to do anymore, You hid so much from me,
We were so close and you wouldn't tell me...That hurts too you know." Iris said.

"I didn't tell you BECAUSE you weren't there, I felt entirely alone.
It felt so cold, I cried alone so many nights wishing someone I cared about was there.
And what good is it to talk to yourself?" Raguna let his hair hide his face as he stared down.

"I..." Iris was lost, she had no more to say, she had hurt someone.

"It feels like we're fading out of each others life...like it doesn't matter.
I'm worried about you, You mean so much to me and I don't want to lose you.
But...I feel like you want me to fade out" Raguna said.

Iris couldn't take another word, She burst into tears and stood up.

"Iris...I'm sorry, it would have been better if I didn't even say a word" Raguna said standing.

Iris just walked to the door and turned around, "I'm sorry I wasn't there for you"

She turned back and walked out the door and went on her way.

Raguna stood, without a word he felt his heart break, "Now I'm losing the only friend I have"