Pinstripe:Oh thank you thank you thank for all the reviews !

Alois:It's not that great... -Neko ear twitches-

Pinstripe:Your just mad because I won't make a threesome with you and the zero boys...

Alois:PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO THIS FOR ME PINNY!

-Pinstripe rolls eyes-

XX DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN LOVELESS OR ANY OF ITS CHARACTERS XX

Natuo's P.O.V

It's so so so dark...

I don't know what's going on anymore, Ritsuka tells me nothing, Soubi Tells me nothing, The doctors tell me nothing. Not even Youji...

All I know is I can barely move my arms...It stings to even lift them like my arms are on fire...stinging in an eternal flame yet It doesn't hurt it's more like an nuisance...I also know I can't see, My remaining eye has gone completely blind... all I see is shapes so when someone walks in front of me I don't even know who it is...

I hate this

But it's my own fucking fault...

It's so boring like life Is now blank, Life has no time,

No end,

Hours feel like days,

Minutes feel like hours.

I feel everything better now, still no pain, but my sheets feel softer, The air smells fresher, Youji's kisses more elegant like a bottle of fine champagne.

My heart beats so slow, it pressures my chest with every beat.

My head throbs, It's bruised badly.

I feel so weak, Youji has to spoon me my food, he dresses me, brushes my hair and teeth, he reads to me, describes what's happening on T.V . He hasen't left my side for the two days I've been here acccept for to take quick showers, He helps me with my baths too. He says he won't let a nurse touch me.

The darkness is so lonesome... especially when Youji's not comforting me.

When he's asleep I go into thoes deep dark thoughts that I don't want to go into.

I wake up in the night screaming. My dreams are full of horrific things that...that it pains to even discribe... But it all reminds me of the night so many years ago... but no need to go in the past I'm upset as it is..

"Natsuo..." I felt a hand stroke my cheek soothingly. "Natsuo, are you feeling alright?" I shook my head no. I felt his lips meekly press against mine, his hair rubbing against my shoulders, tickling my neck.

I pressed back stretching my neck a bit,letting my tongue go into his mouth, his tongue rapped around mine, he held my head up fingers tangling in my hair pulling at my scalp.

Our lips unlocked, he kissed my chin, trailing kisses to my ear, nipping the lobe between his teeth. He flicked the shell with his tongue, trailing the tongue down to my neck, His saliva trailing down to my collar bone, I was quivering, All I could do was move my lips the rest of me was limp.

"A-A-ah Y-Y-Youji..." I started to breath hard, My heart meter was beeping more and more as my heart raced.

His teeth pinched at the sensitive skin of my neck. "Natsuo, You're not well enough for us to have sex..." I blushed at what he had just said, I didn't like talking about...that stuff.. unless it was a joke... talking about it realistically is em-embarrassing.

My cock was throbbing pushing against my hospital gown.

"Y-Y-Youji..." I said with a faint voice.

"But I can still do something for you..."I felt the touch of his hand on the edge of my gown, pushing the fabric up as his hand went up as well. I gasped as his fingers reached into my boxers and stroked me gently.

"Nya!" I trying to thrust my hips upward with no avail.

His fingers teased the slit, I had shivers go up my spine. He squeezed my hard on still teasing me. He kissed and sucked at my neck as he worked those hands. Nails scraping against my hardness.

He jerked at it, his other hand fingering my entrance.

"Ah! Ah! Ah! Ah" I squeaked. "Youji! Youji! ah! Ngh-"

I felt his smirk against my neck.

"YOUJI!" His finger reached my sweet spot, My cock was throbbing harder and harder, my heart rate accelerating.

I felt a familiar feeling at the bottom of my stomach.

"YOUJI I'M GONNA-" My semen went all over his hand and stained my underwear.

His hand pulled up my now soiled boxers as he removed his hand from my tight entrance. I heard a sucking sound so I take it he was licking my cum off of his hand. "Natsuo...You make the cutest face when you cum..." He kissed the side of my neck lovingly.

He nuzzled my neck, I closed my eyes now being tired.

His arm rested on my waist, I tilted my head slightly to lean on his.

"Sleep my love..." He stroked my red hair.

I waited in the silent room, listening to Youji's breathing until...

Sleep took over my ILL body.

Youji's P.O.V

The light is too bright as I open my eyes. damn the guy next door is screaming again I wonder why'd there would be screaming people at 5 in the morning?

Natsuo's heartbeat is so weak. I feel it thumping against my head, his scarred arms resting on my back.

I sat up slowly so not to disturb his sleep. I kissed his forehead then got up, then stretched. Hmm The clock says its 5:06 so maybe I can walk around in the hallways while Natsuo's asleep He sleeps most of the day and night so I'll be back before he wakes up.

Soubis asleep on the large sofa in the corner of the room, with Ritsuka snuggling on top of him also asleep his fake ears falling off.

I tiptoe out not to disturb anyone.

Hm...I dont see anyone walking in the hall...

A gurney was off to the side, no pictures on the walls, no windows, more white.

I walked and walked, numbers on the doors glittered in gold. A tired nurse walked by, bags under her hazel eyes.

I stepped barefooted out into a seperate hallway, must be a hallway that connects other halls together...I look back and up at the door i exited that leads to The ward Natsuos in. A sign? Hmm whats it...oh good lord..

WARD FOR THE MENTALLY ILL: NO ADMISSION EXCEPT FOR DOCTORS NURSES AND FAMILY.

They put Natsuo in the crazy ward? They think he tried to kill himself didn't they? oh god this is my fault...

No wonder why Soubi covered my eyes...

No wonder that guy was screaming...

No wonder there was no pictures...

That's why...all the white...

I dropped to my knees, it i hadn't been so rough when i slept with him...he would've probably been fine or at least not as bad as this... this is a my fault...I don't deserve to live... Its all my fault...It's my fault he's blind...It's my fault he has blood infections...It's all my fault... Im such a fucking dumb ass...

Im sorry... Im so sorry...Natsuo...please forgive me...

Pinstripe: Meh im not too impressed on my work with this chapter it was too rushed... and guys important stuff in the next chapter! and i promise i wont cut Natsuos arms off!

Alois:way to ruin it pinny...

Pinstripe: Im sorry XC i cant do it i might as well tell them!

Alois:wuss...

0Music0O0Life0: your not a bad person lol FunkyFoxxxy-chan: I included some blind sex for you ill make them go all the way when Natsuo feels better CoffeeADDictedKitty: I know caring Youjis so cute! clueLESS: yay hugs!

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