The Change Chapter 5: talk, a glee fanfic

The Change Chapter 5

I'm so bad I totally forgot to do disclaimers but I put one in the summery so that's something.

Disclaimer: I own nothing, but a girl can wish.

As Kurt sits on his bed, looking at AZ's surprisingly neat hand writing, he's just thinking what have I gotten my self into this could be bad the hole football team could be there and the things that they could do to me without the fear of teachers or other students watching. He shuttered maybe he shouldn't go but on the other hand it could be nothing like that. Kurt couldn't even imagine what Az wanted to show him or say to him and what the fuck could Az want his help with?

If he's going to leave he beater leave in the next five minutes.

"Oh fine ill go" It's not like he doesn't deserve a chance. he did patch Kurt up after the locker room incontinent.

As he got to Az's house he quickly knocked on the door before he had to much time to think. It only took Az a few seconds to answer the door.

"Hey thanks for coming." he said seeping aside to let Kurt in. He went in but was not about to let his gard down.

"lets go up to my room" he looked nervous but fallowed anyway once they were in Az's room Kurt asked.

" so why am I here? what did you what to tell me?"

he sits on his bed and looks Kurt in the eyes "I'm sorry Kurt I'm sorry for all the things I did to you and your friends" He broke eye contact and huger his knees to his chest.

"I'm sorry for all the slushy-facials, I'm sorry for all the locker shoves, and the dumpster dives." by the end Az looked ready to cry Kurt sat next to him on the bed and starts to rub his back. "Shhh don't cry." after a wile Az calms down. "Sooo do you forgive me? Kurt gives a little nod. "thank you"

"so why the sudden change of hart? why the apologize now after all these years?"

"Uha good question that's what I wanted to show you." he goes to his computer and moved the mouse and on the screen is the fist video paused so you can see his cousin. he turned to face Kurt.

"This is my cousin." Az said pointing to the screen.

"yea so." Kurt said shrugging

"So he committed suicide a few day's ago." he said looking back at the screen.

"why?" he said as he moves to the edge of the bed so he could see the computer better.

"Because he was an outed gay and couldn't handle the bullying." Az said looking down at his hands that were crossed in his lap.

"Ohh this all makes more seance now." Kurt said mater of factually.

"yea well over the week end I got this." he said pointing to his computer screen. "It's my cousin's video diary." he pushed play

"Hey Amizio", Christian's voice came trough the speakers. "I just thought you would like to see the effects your bulling has on people, every one is different of course, but you should watch these, I'm sure some things apply to the kids you bully at school."

"I'm not going to make you watch all these. but basically it's a day in the life of an outed gay. Kurt I'm so sorry I didn't think it would be that hard that people would kill themselves, actually I just didn't think. I'm so so sorry Kurt for everything."he said on the verge of tears again.

"Shhh it's ok I forgive you."

"How can you forgive me that easily after everything I've done to you? he said looking so miserable.

"It's not that bad I have my friends to help me trough it and a song that helps me to."

"A song yea the glee club wrote it, it's called loser like me. Would you like to hear it?"

"yea." after a quick search on you tube he opened a window that said loser like me with lyrics.

(a/n) Now you should pull up you tube and listen to this song now.

Yeah, you may think that I'm a zero

But, hey, everyone you wanna be

Probably started off like me

You may say that I'm a freak-show (I don't care)

But, hey, give me just a little time

I bet you're gonna change your mind

Kurt raised his eye brows at Az, and Az just shrugged.

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way

It ain't so hard to take, that's right

'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name

And I'll just look away, that's right

now Kurt was singing along.

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth

So everyone can hear

Hit me with the words you got and knock me down

Baby, I don't care

Keep it up, and soon enough' your figure out

You wanna be

A loser like me

Push me up against the locker

And hey, all I do is shake it off

I'll get you back when I'm your boss

I'm not thinkin' 'bout you haters

'Cause hey, I could be a superstar

I'll see you when you wash my car

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way

It ain't so hard to take, that's right

'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name

And I'll just look away, that's right

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth

So everyone can hear

Hit me with the words you got and knock me down

Baby, I don't care

Keep it up, and soon enough' your figure out

You wanna be

A loser like me

Hey, you, over there

Keep the L up-up in the air

Hey, you, over there

Keep the L up, 'cause I don't care

You can throw your sticks, and you can throw your stones

Like a rocket, just watch me go

Yeah, l-o-s-e-r

I can only be who I are

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth

So everyone can hear

Hit me with the words you got and knock me down

Baby, I don't care

Keep it up, and soon enough' your figure out

You wanna be

A loser like me

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth

So everyone can hear

Hit me with the words you got and knock me down

Baby, I don't care

Keep it up, and soon enough' your figure out

You wanna be

A loser like me (A loser like me)

A loser like me

"So what do you think?"

"It's a good song. The glee club wrote it?" Kurt just nods.

"you know I was spying on your glee club today and you guys are really good."

"you what." Kurt said sounding shocked Az looked down ashamed.

" I spied on glee club today you guys are really good."

"Umm thanks, so what do you need my help with?" Kurt said looking around.

"right I was just, could you help me with umm ummm..." he said nervously looking around.

"just spit in out."

"Will you help me apologize to the rest of the glee club?"

"uh sure, no problem, just come to glee tomorrow and speak from your heart like you did with me and I will be there to help you through."

"really thanks, you know your a really amazing person. can can I tell you something that no one knows about me."

"sher if you want to but you don't have to if it's a secret."

"no it's not a secret just something no one knows about me. and someone should someone that won't make fun of me for it." he looks at Kurt hopefully and Kurt gave him a reassuring smile "You can tell me. no judgment here and I won't make fun of you." Az gave Kurt a very friendly smile. "I love to sing." he looked like there was just a lode taken of his shoulders.

"really? sing something." he said looking excited.

"no I don't think that's a good idea." he said looking like he wanted to sing but not in front of any one.

"come on your secret's safe with me." Az still looked on the fence.

"please just one song please." Kurt said with his best puppy dog face.

"ok fine one song and you don't tell any one about this after ok." he said with a very serious look on his face.

"ok ok just sing." Az pulls up a window that has just the music for forget you by cee lo.

I see you driving 'round town

With the girl i love and i'm like,

Forget you!

Oo, oo, ooo

I guess the change in my pocket

Wasn't enough i'm like,

Forget you!

And forget her too!

I said, if i was richer, i'd still be with ya

Ha, now ain't that some shit? (ain't that some shit?)

And although there's pain in my chest

I still wish you the best with a...

Forget you!

Oo, oo, ooo

wow he is good he could give fin a run for his money.

Yeah i'm sorry, i can't afford a ferrari,

But that don't mean i can't get you there.

I guess he's an xbox and i'm more atari,

But the way you play your game ain't fair.

he sings with so much passion you can feel it and it's an amazing feeling.

I pity the fool that falls in love with you

(oh shit she's a gold digger)

Well

(just thought you should know nigga)

Ooooooh

I've got some news for you

Yeah go run and tell your little boyfriend

I see you driving 'round town

With the girl i love and i'm like,

Forget you!

Oo, oo, ooo

I guess the change in my pocket

Wasn't enough i'm like,

Forget you!

And forget her too!

I said, if i was richer, i'd still be with ya

Ha, now ain't that some shit? (ain't that some shit?)

And although there's pain in my chest

I still wish you the best with a...

Forget you!

Oo, oo, ooo

he's just so into the song it's amazing to watch.

Now i know, that i had to borrow,

Beg and steal and lie and cheat.

Trying to keep ya, trying to please ya.

'Cause being in love with you ass ain't cheap.

I pity the fool that falls in love with you

(oh shit she's a gold digger)

Well

(just thought you should know nigga)

I've got some news for you

i really hate yo ass right now

I see you driving 'round town

With the girl i love and i'm like,

Forget you!

Oo, oo, ooo

I guess the change in my pocket

Wasn't enough i'm like,

Forget you!

And forget her too!

I said, if i was richer, i'd still be with ya

Ha, now ain't that some shit? (ain't that some shit?)

And although there's pain in my chest

I still wish you the best with a...

Forget you!

Oo, oo, ooo

Now baby, baby, baby, why d'you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?

(so bad, so bad, so bad)

I tried to tell my mamma but she told me

"this is one for your dad"

(your dad, your dad, your dad)

Uh! Whhhy? Uh! Whhhy? Uh!

Whhhy lady? Oh! I love you oh!

I still love you. Oooh!

by the end of the song he was on the verge of tears and it made Kurt want to cry to.

"you are freakin amazing you should join glee"

"no way"

"why not scared"

"no" he said looking around nervously

"yes you are your totally scared."

"fine I'm scared."

"well don't be the shit out of anyone stupid enough to give you a slushy-facial."

"fine if they accept my apology I'll try out for glee. ok"

sounds fair to me." Kurt looks at his watch. "Ohh I have to go I promised my mom I'd be home by 7:00 but tomorrow at glee ok."

"ok see you there" Az walked Kurt to the door.

"bey Amizio."

"bey Kurt."

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