Out of Tune
Disclaimer: Jane Rizzoli and Maura Isles do not belong to me. No infringement intended and no profit will be made from their use.
Note: Italics indicate flashbacks.
"You wanna talk about it?" Frankie asked.
Jane was standing on her parent's porch, nursing a beer, after another Rizzoli family Sunday dinner. "Talk about what?"
"Whatever's bothering you. You know I can tell. You were way too quiet during dinner tonight and now standing on the back porch, staring at the backyard, it's your thoughtful pose."
"Very observant. You may actually be a good detective someday, Frankie."
Frankie was silent, a technique he learned from Jane. People don't like silence and sometimes they'll start confessing just to end the silence.
"It's Maura," Jane started. Frankie remained silent. "We've been, uh...well...for a couple of months we've been sleeping together."
"Whoa, how did you keep that a secret?"
"I don't know. Probably because nothing else has changed. She keeps going out with random guys and trying to set me up too. We went on a double date last week for christ's sake. I told her I'm done with her set ups though. I want to be with her, Frankie. She goes out with these guys and when it doesn't work out she shows up at my place. I keep thinking eventually she'll realize she should skip the bad date and just be with me."
"Tell her how you feel, Janie. Maybe she feels the same way but is afraid to tell you. But if you really want to have a relationship with her, I think you should stop being her booty call."
Jane groaned. "I can't believe I'm someone's booty call. It's so embarrassing."
"She's super hot, so it's not all bad."
"Yeah, when she rejects me, I'll just try to keep that in mind."
Jane woke up and rolled over, finding a still sleeping Maura in her bed. Last night Jane had led Maura into the bedroom intending to fuck her senseless, but then Jane changed her mind. They'd fucked plenty of times and Jane wanted something different. They both got ready for bed and Jane found Maura some clothes to sleep in.
Maura sensed the change in Jane's mood. When Maura got into bed, Jane pulled her close so they were both lying on their sides facing each other. "This isn't just about sex for me. It hasn't been for awhile. I love you. All of you. I want to prove that to you."
They'd stayed up talking, filling each other in on the past week when they hadn't been speaking to each other. And then they'd both drifted asleep. Now awake, Jane pressed her body against Maura's back and softly kissed Maura's neck. Jane put her hand under Maura's shirt and lightly stroked the skin of Maura's stomach. Jane felt Maura's body responding to her touch as she slowly woke up.
Jane pulled Maura onto her back and then shifted on top of her. Jane continued grazing the skin under Maura's shirt and kissing her neck.
Maura sat at the bar at the Four Seasons hotel in Boston. She had come here for the anonymity. She could just sit at the bar and have a drink, pretending to be a visitor, here on business or something, if anyone asked, and hopefully not see anyone she knew.
All day Maura had been consumed with thoughts about Jane and the previous night. After Jack left her house Maura had immediately gone to Jane's without a second thought. She just wanted to talk and thought she would tell Jane that they needed to stop.
But Jane opened the door and she had so obviously recently been aroused that Maura forgot what she was going to say. At first Maura was jealous, assuming Jane had been with Michael, but once she realized what Jane had been doing, Maura was just aroused herself. And Jane noticed and knew just what to do. The calm confidence Maura had possessed the first few times they had been together was gone. She was now completely at Jane's mercy and it terrified her.
Maura pushed her hands against the top of Jane's chest, forcing her head up. "Jane, wait."
"What is it?"
Maura bit her bottom lip and thought before answering, "I don't know. Everything is happening so fast and I'm scared."
Jane shifted to her side and propped herself up on her elbow. "I'm not going anywhere. I'm not going to run away from my feelings for you. You don't have to worry about that."
"It's not just that. I mean, I'm realizing that you're really not going anywhere. But I feel... untethered. I never let emotions rule my brain like this and I'm terrified by it now. I feel out of control."
"I could make a lot of promises about never leaving you and how you should trust me, but I'm not going to. I told you I love you and I mean it. What you're feeling is called being human. Just go with it and I'll do everything I can to make you not regret it. If you don't let yourself feel out of control sometimes I think you'll unfairly limit yourself and close off the opportunity for really good experiences."
"This is such a big step though. A relationship means we have to deal with how people are going to react at work, and our families."
"And we'll figure that all out together when we have to. But let's just stick to the one month plan and we don't have to tell anyone anything yet. One month of just us. Don't get wrapped up in the details, they can wait."
"How did you get so good at this?"
Jane grinned, "Fucking you must be making me smarter. Transitive property of smartness or something. Can I get back to what I was doing now?" Jane asked and went back to kissing Maura's neck.
"Mmm, okay. I want your mouth-"
"I know," Jane said and ducked her head below the covers.