Hi the next chapter will be the end, hoped you like it.
YOU'RE POV
It's been long and lonely week since I last saw Jacob and Sam told me that I have imprinted on him. I was finally going to be loved.
But I was feeling so lonely and hurt from the last time I saw him, he attacked me, he was so angry and I didn't know why.
Hearing a knock at the door, I was about to opened it after yet another bottle was thrown and smashed on my head, falling to the floor holding my injury I managed to answer the door after a minute or two with my hand still on my head.
I looked up from the floor and was shocked to see Jacob standing there with a small smile making my heart skipped a beat.
"Are you ok?" he asked eyeing my hand on my head. I only just managed nodded and smiled weakly my mind to jumbled up to form words properly yet.
"What do you want" I said trying my hardest to not sound rude or too eager.
"I came to say that I'm sorry about last week and I want you to by my girlfriend" he said in a kind of bored voice.
"Yes" I squeaked out ignoring the tone in his voice I was just so happy he realised he wanted me back.
He pulled me into a hesitant hug; it felt so good, so right to be in his arms.
"Do you want to go down to the beach?" he asked looking forwards, nodding my head I saw his eyes lit up confused my eyes trailed in the same direction Jacob was looking only to see a figure of a girl walking up the beach. I looked back to Jacob smiling.
"Come on then" I said taking him hand in mine.
He pulled me along, almost sprinting to the beach. Thank god I wasn't totally human or Jacob would be dragging my body on the floor.
As we reached the girl, she turned around with a smile on her face which dropped when she saw me, I looked between the two confused as he dropped my hand pulling the girl into a more then friendly hug.
I started to get a little jealous so I coughed trying to get their attention but it didn't seem work so I just looked at the sand, shifting my feet uncomfortably.
When they broke apart the girl turned to me.
"I'm Bella" she said in a snotty voice while glaring at me, I thought that Jacob would have stuck up for me but when I looked at him all he was doing was gazing at her lovingly, I felt my eyes water.
"I'm Nicola" I said in a small voice, which she smirked at, she turned away from me to Jacob she hugged him again giving him a kiss on the cheek. I couldn't take it anymore so I walked off, not that they noticed.
It's now been three hours since I left Jacob and Bella at the beach and I am now sporting a bruise on my cheek and scratches along my face. I ran for the door hearing it ring, I really didn't want my mum launching another bottle at me.
But every time she sees me she will through one and I'll tell you that she has a very good aim.
I let a little shriek out as I managed to dodge the bottle for once. I opened the door to see an angry Jacob.
"Why did you leave" he yelled at me but stopped when he saw the state my face was in. he softly placed his hand on the side of my face making me lean into it. I looked at his eyes to see that they had softened.
It's now been two months that Jake and I have been dating and a month that I keep being sick, I went to the hospital and saw Doctor Cullen about it worrying about my health.
Other things that have been happening in my hectic life have in clued meeting and befriending the Cullen family and Jacob being distant with me, always leaving at odd times of the day even when I know for a fact when he isn't going on patrol. I have to say that meeting the Cullen's has been one of them days that I will never forget and will always be thankful for, they all treat me like family even though I'm their arch enemy or whatever. According to them I don't smell that bad so I don't really have to worry about that seeing as to me they don't stink at all, a little sweet maybe but nothing that I can't handle.
I met them at the hospital when I kind of cut myself to deep when I walked in on Bella and Jake going at it. It hurt me so much but can you blame me, I imprinted on him, to me he was my lifeline. Maybe I'm not enough for him or I've done something wrong? Maybe I don't look right? Do I weigh too much? It felt like my world was crumbling around me.
"Hello Nicola, now why are you here?" he asked looking down at my wrists asking me the silent question.
"No, I keep being sick" I said shyly wrapping my arms around my stomach.
"Ok then, come on through and we will take some tests" I nodded my head and followed him in.
After he had finished I sat down in the waiting room just staring at the floor, I was nervous, really nervous. Carlisle walked out of the room with a smile on his face.
"Congratulations Nicola, you're pregnant" he said in a happy voice. I smiled back at him; I was going to be a mummy. Smiling down at my stomach I looked back at Carlisle to see him staring at me with smile lighting up his face.
"Hmm Carlisle I was err… wondering if well… seeing as my parent is well the way she is… I wanted you and Esme to be his or hers grandparents for my side of the family" I said looking down at the floor at hearing nothing I quickly added "It's ok, you don't have to be if you don't want to".
"No Nicola I would be more than honoured to and so would Esme but why don't we go back home and tell everyone the good news and you can ask Esme" Carlisle suggested, nodding my head slowly I walked out of the hospital to his car.
Before I could get out of the car properly I was pulled into a hug by a squealing Alice.
"So I guess you know?" the only answer I got was her rapidly nodding her head, smiling she lead me into the living room.
"Everyone I have some news and a question to ask Esme and Rosalie" I announced gaining everyone's attention but noticed that Bella wasn't here.
"Well first things first… I'm pregnant" I said looking over the shocked and happy faces of the family before me, smiling I was pulled into Rosalie's arms. Shockingly she had been the first one to accept me saying that I reminded her of a child she had fell in love with when she was still human.
"And I was wondering if… well I already asked Carlisle and he said yes… so I was wondering if you would be a grandma for my child" I asked looking at Esme. Not getting an answer I feared for the worst when I was pulled into a freezing cold, tight hug.
"Yes I would love to, thank you so much. You can't understand how much this means to me" she whispered the last part into my ear and I know for a fact that if she was still human that she would be in tears.
"And I wanted to ask Rosalie to be godmother seeing as I get to choose" instantly I was pulled away from Esme and spun around by a smiling Rosalie. All I had to do now was tell Jacob but I had a feeling that it was going to be harder than I thought.
It's been four months now that I and Jacob have been going out and the last time I saw Bella, Jake has been so distant, always leaving and I still haven't been able to tell him about the baby with his disappearances.
I walked into the house and was pleasantly surprised to have nothing thrown at me; I looked around to see my mum slumped on the sofa. Wrinkling my nose I could smell the vodka on her and something else; I carefully walked over to her to check if she was ok.
Even though she hates me doesn't mean that I hate her. I walked over to her and tried to shake her awake but it didn't work, I started to get worried. She was pale and cold, I tried to find a pulse but found nothing, and I let tears escape my eyes.
I picked up my phone with shaky hands I called Jacobs number but he didn't answer, so I called Embry instead and then the hospital.
I heard a knocking on the door, smiling weakly thinking it was Jacob but it faded a little when I saw Embry standing there, I let him in and then broke down.
He held me in his arms as I cried. When the ambulance came they ran inside and placed my mum's body in a body bag.
I broke down on Embry again as everyone left the house, but this time I broke down letting everything loose from my failing relationship to the pregnancy and finally to my dysfunctional family.
"Embry, I… need Jake but he's not here. I need him Embry, every time I need him he's not here" I said crying even more he knew about me cutting he was the one who walked into me doing it.
"Embry… I'm pregnant with his baby, I need him so much" I said falling asleep on a shocked Embry.
The next day I found myself alone on the floor, I walked to Sam's house to hear Jacob brag about something, I decided to not let people know that I was there yet.
"Guess what everybody, I'm going out with Bella, and I don't need Nicola anymore" he said with pride, I felt my eyes water but I had to hear this.
"So can I have her?" Paul asked.
"Knock yourself out" he said in a bored tone making everyone laugh, I felt my heart break a little the only people that wasn't laughing was Leah and Embry and I thought that I was friends with everyone, one of the pack but I guess I was wrong.
"And last night I got lucky with Bella again and again and again" he said grinning like a fool.
The moment I needed him the most and he was fucking Bella. Every time he was gone I missed him, thought about him, hell even worried about him and he was fucking Bella.
"Thank you Paul your plan to use Nicola worked and I even got some from Nicola as well" he said laughing, that was when I burst out crying, my heart had now broken.
I walked out of the house feeling dead. I walked to the Cullen's house not caring about the long walk, I need the time to think about what I was going to say when I was there I saw Bella's truck, I was furious.
I walked into the house to Edward's room I didn't want him hurt by this slag.
"Edward all she is going to do is hurt you" I said to him then replayed all of Jacob's conviction again in my head making my heart break even more.
"Thank you" he said in a small voice, I tried to smile but I just couldn't he pulled me into his arms but I broke down again. He gasped and stared at me wrapping his arms in a more protective way, resting his chin on my head.
"We will help you with the baby" he said in a soft and loving voice. I nodded my head and headed down stairs to see Carlisle and Esme needing a mother and father at this minute.
"You can stay with us" he said after I told them everything that has happened to me.
"I can't really"
"Yes you will all this stress isn't good for the baby" he said in a stern voice that held no room for me to disagree.
I'm now six months pregnant, I was going for my ultra sound with Embry and Leah. Seeing as all of the Cullen's apart from Carlisle was hunting. I lay on the bed as Carlisle put the gel on my stomach.
"Look, hello baby" I said with as a tear ran down my face. I looked at Embry and Leah smiling.
I was in Embry's car with him, Leah rubbing my belly smiling at me as we talked about possible baby names as he drove me to my old house so I could pack some more things. To take back to the Cullen's house or known as my home now.
I had to admit that Edward and I had grown really close over the time and so have Leah, Embry and I. I told them that they could go home and then pick me up later when I heard pounding on my door. I opened it to see an angry Jacob.
"WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN?" he screamed into my face.
"Why do you care? I was only a plan so you could fuck Bella" I shouted back seeing his face turn red as he started to shake.
"And it was a perfect plan; I'm just ashamed that I didn't come up with it. You were so needy, you are filth. I will never love you. No one will ever love you. You are nothing" he yelled in my face.
"I'm pregnant" I whispered not being able to hold it in anymore and he heard me.
"You fucking whore who's is it or don't you fucking know" he carried on yelling in my face.
"Yours" I whispered back. He froze then looked disgusted.
"Then get rid of the rat bastard, I only fucked you them times because you were easy and the whole I love you, shit you said, big turn off it made me want to be sick" I just stood there frozen on the spot, my world was shattering before me.
"And you know all them times when I was gone well I was with Bella, she is so much better then you" he added I felt my heart break again and a tear trickled down my face.
"Oh cry me a fucking river" he spat then walked out of the door.
Two hours later I looked down at my pregnant stomach, images of the argument flashed in my mind again. I loved Jacob so much, how could he do this to me, to our baby.
I couldn't feel anything anymore I was truly dead inside I was an empty shell. I had no one. Rubbing my stomach I thought about a life without Jacob but the pain in my heart rose clenching and stabbing at my already shattered heart.
I took out some paper and a pen and my ultra sound photo after I had finished my note I grabbed the knife from the kitchen draw, I sank down to the kitchen floor looking from the sharp blade to the front door, tears dancing down my face to an unknown sad song.
The only thing that ran through my mind was (he will never love me) I brought the knife to my wrists making the incision I glided the knife down cutting veins and a little bone.
As the blood escaped from my wrists and onto the floor my only thought was:
(What does she have that I don't?).