A month had gone by without Tunny. Regan and Andrew were helping around the house. While Christina took up extra work at the hospital. Andrew was working double at the bar every other night. Regan was working at her grades and Christina said that was enough. Tunny wrote his family almost everyday and Regan wrote him back. Meanwhile it was Peyton's turn with the camera. She wrote on her sign ashamed and held it up to the camera.

"My sign is ashamed. Look" she showed her arms "I used to cut myself two years ago. It was the stress of being a year younger and starting high school. Also I used to get pushed around literally by kids in the school. I felt so alone, that maybe if I wasn't there no one would notice. I showed my Uncle Jimmy and he freaked out. It came to a point where if I cut to close to the main artery or whatever I wouldn't care. This is no way to live your life. I wish I could take this back, but I can't and now I live with these scars"

The boys sat at the bar. They missed Tunny, they ordered a round just for him.

"I miss him" said Will

"I miss him too" said Johnny

"Regan, she seems to be taking it well" said Will

"She talked to me last week. She's actually going through a tough time" said Jimmy

"She's not thinking about…"said Johnny

"She was. But I talked her out of it, so did Andrew"

"He's been really great for her" said Will

"Ha, you should have seen him back when he was, when we were" started Jimmy

"I'm glad you bounced back buddy" said Johnny

Harmony sat on her bed reading her book when Whatsername walked in. she sat on the bed with her

"Yes…?" asked Harmony

"I'm feeling wild" said Whatsername

"I'm sorry, perhaps you should talk to Uncle Johnny about that"

"No, Harm what I mean is you see that I have tattoo's. You have a few piercing and I have a few"

"Uh huh" said Harmony trying to figure out what was going on in her mind

"I want more, come with me. Maybe you should get another one" she suggested

"And what will my dad say?" asked Harmony loving this idea

"Who cares he's not here. You wanna come with me?" Whatsername asked

"Sold!" and the two girls left

"Andrew? Andrew I need help with math. Mom?" Regan walked into her house and realized no one was home. She was getting worried she hadn't heard from her dad in a while. "Hello?" she called Harmony but no one was home. Peyton and Nathan were working on the video. She was feeling down. He knew the older boys were out and Mac was busy. Her mom was at work and she was alone, and scared.

Nathan took the video camera and wrote suicidal on his sign.

"So I chose suicidal. Not many people know that I was suicidal a few years ago. I suddenly fell into a state of depression. The only people that knew about this is, Mac and Dean may he rest in peace, and my sister Peyton. I wanted to do it but I didn't know how. Then I thought about my sister and my family. It wasn't worth it, I loved my family and my sister. I felt like Mac and Dean were the only people I could talk to. I should have gone to an adult. Look if there is anyone out there who felt this way. Please talk to me"

The boys walked to the cemetery and went to Dean's grave. The boys talked to him and then they walked a little bit more and stopped at Marni's

"Hey Marni, it's Johnny, Will and Jimmy. You wouldn't believe your older brother. He went back to fight. Man, Marn you would be so proud of him, he's got a wife as you know and a beautiful daughter that I'm sure Tunny told you what happened two years ago." Johnny said

"We really want you to look out for him, this time. His Regan is really against war, so if Tunny doesn't, doesn't it make it then that's on you" said Will

"No pressure" added Jimmy

"So, please make sure he's safe and comes home safe. Also could you look out for the rest of his family." Finished Will

"We really miss you Marni. We're sorry you were taken too early, you were really special and meant the world to Tunny. He misses you like crazy" said Johnny

Regan looked down at the gin bottle in her hand. Then she opened it and took a sip, which turned into a few more. Next thing she knew she was opening the vodka bottle and she took a sip. She put the bottle down and threw up there in the living room.

"Aunt Rebecca what should I get?" asked Harmony

"I don't know you already have your tragus. Oh your nose!" she suggested

"Um…I've got these glasses remember they're kind of big so it would hit my nose"

"Right…um….cartilage"

"Alright"

"I'll even pay!" Whatsername said

"You're a tad excited" Harmony said

"I'm sorry, but I had boys okay, I never had a girl. So when Johnny asked if you and your dad could move in of course I said yes" she hugged Harmony

"I love you Aunt Rebecca

"I love you too!"

"Hey Nate did you finish your video?" asked Peyton

"Yeah, the only people who need to do the intro and stuff is Harm and Mac but we've filmed for a month and we got good stuff"

"What about music? Music makes the video"

"I know, we're going to have a group meeting tomorrow"

"This is a really great idea for a school project" she said

"It is"

"It's like therapy"

"In a way yeah I guess" he said and the Heather walked in

"Hey kids" she said

"Hey mom" said Nathan

"I was thinking of renting a movie anything you kids want to see or can I get a good old fashioned one?" Heather aksed

"Nah, we're good" said Nathan

"Alright, I'll ask Julia then" and she left

Andrew came home from work and heard someone throwing up from the bathroom

"Regan?" he asked

"I'm in the bathroom" she said through sobs and Andrew walked in further and saw the puke on the floor and the Vodka bottle on the counter and the empty gin bottle and he rushed into the bathroom

"ARE YOU SERIOUS? REGAN PLEASE TELL ME I DID NOT SEE WHAT I THINK I SAW IN THE LIVINGROOM" Andrew screamed

"I-I-I'm sorry" she said

"DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH TROUBLE YOU"RE IN" Regan looked at him and then threw up again just then the door closed

"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN HERE?" yelled Christina she walked into the bathroom

"I found her like this I swear" said Andrew

"Regan Elizabeth Clarke you better have a fucking good explanation for this!"

"No one was home" she said

"You've been home alone before. Oh this is because your father left isn't it? Well I am calling Jimmy and he is going to deal with you because I am a little pissed off right now"

"Regan, you could have called me at work. Anything but this" said Andrew

"I am so disappointed in you. It is just as hard for you not having your father around as it is for me. Oh and when he hears about this…. Regan Elizabeth, you are not to be alone in this house. I would have never thought that my 17 year old daughter was going to need a baby sitter, but if that's what it will take then I am putting Jimmy on Regan duty" and she stormed out of the room

"Andrew…"Regan started

"Forget it Regan. I don't know what to think anymore" and he left too