Wow! Chapter 9! This story has a mind of its own right now, I can't stop writing, and I'm starting to really get attached to it. I don't own twilight, now let's go!
"Yeah, I know how you feel. It's hard to even know what's real for me sometimes. It feels good to hang out with you, because you're more normal than I'm used to."
"No! I am not, nor ever have been, nor want to be, normal!" I replied, offended.
"Compared to werewolves and vampires and my insane family? Yeah, you're normal."
"If insane makes me abnormal, insane I am."
"Oh yes you are."
We both laughed. It felt good to laugh. Then I realized something. "Wait, Jake, if the Cullens knew about Will, would they hurt him?"
"I doubt it. They would just try and talk to him. You know, for someone that doesn't care about any vampire, you really seem to care about this Will."
"I know, and that's one of the reasons that I'm so upset. I know that I should stop liking him, but I can't." I said.
"From my experience, that sounds a lot like you love him." Jake said, in a sage-like way.
"I can't." I whispered.
"I know how you feel. I was in love once too." Jake said. "It wasn't destined to work out though. But you still have a chance with Will. Maybe you should try to find him." He said encouragingly.
"No!" I said, mad. "I can't."
"You just won't. Maybe if you talked to him, everything would turn out right. It sounds like he loves you a lot, so he would change if you needed him to."
"Who the heck are you to be giving romance advice? You know nothing about me! I'd like to think you were my friend, but I've only known you for a few hours! I don't even know why I trusted and confided in you! I always knew that it would end badly for me, but I never thought it would be because I'm too trusting! I don't even trust myself so why the heck did I trust you! I'm just that stupid!" I lashed out. I lost my temper. Jake backed away from me.
"I… I'm sorry," He said, sounding very hurt.
"No, I'm sorry. I'm not really mad at you, I'm mad at myself. I'm such an idiot, I didn't mean to get mad at you. Will you forgive me?"
"Yeah. I don't think that you're an idiot. You seem too smart."
I sat in silence, more depressed than I'd been all day. My head in my hands, and my face downcast, I cried myself silently to sleep. I had the same nightmare with Will over and over again, but I didn't wake up.
When I finally woke up again, the room was filled with light. I looked around and saw Jacob. "What time is it?"
"One," He said with a smile. Then I looked around and realized that I was in a different room than where I had fallen asleep the second time.
"Where am I?" I asked.
"In Alice's room. She said you'd be more comfortable in here, and they wanted the living room back." Jake replied.
"Okay. Let's go." I said, getting up. I was still fully dressed from the day before, except that I had taken off my jacket.
"I have to go back to the pack. They're going to wonder why I've been gone so long."
"Oh. Okay I guess. See you." I said.
"Later." And he walked out and left. Suddenly I felt scared and alone, but I got over myself, and walked into the living room.
It was the same in there as yesterday, with all of the Cullens sitting around basically doing nothing, except no Edward.
"You all owe me an explanation." I stated simply, with no ultimatum for once.
"We drink animal blood, rather than human, because we thought that it was wrong." Alice said. "We banded together, under Carlisle because were all the same. Carlisle changed Edward, Esme, Rosalie, and Emmet, and Jasper and I came here, looking for a better life." Alice said this all in one breath, really fast. "Sorry, they didn't want to let me tell you all that, so I had to do it quick." She said with a smile.
"Thanks, Alice" I said. "Carlisle, you probably already know this, because I saw the look on Edward's face last night, and he was trying to get your attention, but I met another vampire yesterday at the motel. He was my best… my old best friend, Will. He was changed about a year ago, and he spent the whole time building his self control so he could talk to me. Now I need to find him. Can you help?"
"Sure." Carlisle said, smiling kindly. "And Edward did tell me, but he wouldn't tell me what he had said. He has a lot of respect for you, Alex. I don't know why he acts like a jerk around you."
"I might. He's just proving to me that he's a person. I get it now. Do you know where he is?"
"He's at his girlfriend's house." Emmet said in a teasing voice. "I'll go get him." He then volunteered.
"Thank you." I said. "I know I'm asking a lot on a huge leap of faith here, but I need to find Will. I have got the worst feeling that something really bad will happen if I don't. And I could never forgive myself if I let something happen to him. I know that just yesterday, I thought that you were soulless demons, but now I know that I'm wrong. Vampires are people too. You guy's proved that to me. I'm sure there are some vampires who deserve to die but there are good and bad vampires just like people. I'm afraid that I made a huge mistake and I am going to fix it.
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