Disclaimer: I don't own tsubasa CLAMP owns that.
Pairings: KuroxFai

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Kurogane blinked once, twice and then a third time. His mouth wouldn't form the words he needed.

"I might be leaving soon…so I guess you'll only ant to know key things about why I'm leaving but…" Tears started to roll freely down Fai's face. He didn't expect to be saying goodbye so soon.

"Kurogane…I…You…we…"

The raven headed man just watched the pale form in front of him. He wanted to comfort the mage but his body wouldn't move.

He shook his head slightly not wanting to hear what was being said.

"Kurogane…I…I…" The magician turned on his heels and sped out the front door leaving the ninja to think about what had just happened.

Fai had seemed perfectly fine last night but in the morning he'd changed. The man was at a loss for words and stood in the same spot until the kids came home.

"Kurogane-san are you alright?" The little princess had asked, her voice slightly panicked from her place behind Syaoran.

"Kurogane-san did Fai do something?" Syaoran boldly asked not really expecting an answer from someone who regarded him as a stranger.

The ninja let his knees give way and slumped onto the floor in a trance-like state. Fai's words were still buzzing in him mind.

Most people would have rushed after and checked what was wrong, but they weren't close like that…atleast Kurogane had never thought so.

"Fai…" he whispered coming out sounding more pained than he wanted it too.

Mokona jumped onto the floor and walked right up to the ninja before gently patting his knee in an attempt to comfort the tall male.

"Fai is by the cliff…" The bun muttered, the voice didn't match Mokona's normal taunting one though it was a serious tone.

"Cliff?" For the second time the raven haired man was at a loos for words. "How did you"

He was cut off by the white creature shaking its head and pointing out towards the sea.

"If Yuuko is right about this then you better go talk to him. Get things in the open between you two…" The creature trailed off, it knew something that was for sure.

The ninja nodded and set off towards the coast that Mokona had pointed to.

"Is something wrong with Fai-san?" Sakura asked going into the kitchen.

"It's something that we shouldn't worry about." Mokona jumped on to Sakura's shoulder before both went to get lunch started.

Syaoran looked out of the window, "Kurogane-san…Fai-san…because of me, because of my clone…you two are being thrown into the deep end before you can swim."

Fai was sitting at the edge of the cliff staring out at the sea; it was so blue, so calm and peaceful. The wind blew the blonde hair back and forth as it changed directions.

"Fai…" The voice jerked Fai out of his blank thoughts and drew his attention to the crimson eyed ninja.

"Kurogane…I didn't think you'd come…" The mage muttered as his attention went back to the waves below.

The ninja sat beside the smaller man. He eyes kept returning to the man next to him.

"How are the" The mage was cut off by a finger against his lips.

"They're fine and they don't need to be spoken about here. It's just us two." The voice was surprisingly calm and gentle coming from the warrior.

Fai smiled and nodded slightly he turned slightly and laid his head against his companion's shoulder.

"It's us two…"

A few years after Kaima had visited the weather became even colder. No one let their children go outside anymore; the blonde boy still went out despite the weather. His mother had fallen deeply ill lately and was bed ridden while his father was out of town working.

Fai was now 8, the average child started doing chores in the harsh weather at 10 years of age but seeing as a family was depending on him Fai went out anyway.

One day when Fai had time from his chores he'd followed the bird watching its movements until it landed in a field of snow. A girl was with the giant creature, she must have been about 4 years old with long blonde hair and lavender eyes.

Fai had walked slowly up to the two standing in the field. The girl noticed him but only smiled. She held out her hand letting a bird form and take flight.

"How did you do that?" The blond boy had asked.

"Magic." She had stated simply before adding, "Thank you."

"Thank you? For what?"

"Looking after my bird when no one else could see him." The girl smiled again as she looked to the white creature beside her.

Fai nodded. A bell chimed in the distance.

"I better go now." Fai said as he turned to walk off.

"Look at the bigger picture Fai. Don't waste your life dwelling on the past." The voice had come from the girl but when Fai turned around there was no one there.

"Look at the bigger picture…" The blonde repeated slowly as he went on his way to another field.

"I've been brought up knowing that…and yet…I still don't do it." Fai's head had moved to rest on Kurogane's stomach.

The ninja was currently lying on his back looking up at the sky.

"You should start following it." The tanned male muttered. Fai just nodded.

"Not everyone can do that though. Not all of us can do things on our own…but…I won't be around my longer anyway…" Fai closed his eye and breathed deeply.

"Is that what you were trying to tell me?" Kurogane propped himself up on his elbows to get a better look at the mage's face.

Fai nodded slightly.

"He's going to wake up soon…" The mage opened his eye and glanced at the raven haired man.

"I'm not strong enough to go through what he wants again." The mage added before relaxing again and closing the blue orb.

"Then don't find someone to protect you." The ninja laid back down.

"I don't want just anyone Kurogane…I want…" The mage shifted and seemed to have drifted off.

Kurogane smiled slightly.

"I know Fai…you're my idiot…"