Disclaimer: I do not own Tsubasa CLAMP own them but I own Kaima, Desu and Chirp I can't believe I never metioned that before.
Pairings: Slight Kuro x Fai

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"I want to die," The snow was falling outside the cell. He couldn't escape anyway since the bars and doors were sealed with magic.

"I want to die," He gripped the bars slightly.

"I want to die," He'd been sealed for sometime now, although he hadn't aged much his hair had grown.

"I want to die," He could see the town from his cell, high about the ground.

"I want to die," He sighed as he felt strength vanish from his small body again.

"I want to die," He felt his hand slipping from the bars, "But before I die…I want someone…to love me…"

That was a day Fai remembered all too well, even after all the years of freedom after that he still was haunted by those words. Now he was being held from running by those that cared for him, those he cared about.

"Kurogane. Please let me go." The mage spoke firmly and tried to sound harsh but he doubted his blue orb reflected that.

"You're not going off on your own. Not again." The ninja tightened his grip slightly on the small thin wrist in his grasp.

Syaoran glanced at the two adults who were just staring at eachother. He felt the princess move slightly behind him to shield herself from the men's view. Mokona watched nervously at the two companions.

Kurogane stood up and let the magician lead the way up the staircase and out of sight. They'd been doing that a lot lately, the brunette noted, they had a lot to talk about he had assumed.

"Syaoran-kun…are they going to be okay?" Sakura asked slightly before yawning into his back.

"Yes Hime… I'm sure those two are just tired and I suggest we go to bed too." The boy held out a hand for his desert princess to accept and pull herself up with.

The two made their way to the bedrooms passing the adults who seemed to just be talking and sitting. Sakura sighed slightly from relief as she saw the two; she had a slight smile on her face too which made the boy next to her smile. The two bid eachother goodnight and walked into separate rooms.

"What's wrong with you?" The ninja asked from his seat near the door. "You never let your emotions get that bad in front of those two."

"I know…" The blonde muttered as he traced a pattern on the steamed up window, "but…I've had a lot of thoughts being brought up lately…" he added.

He'd lost count of how long he'd been in the cell. Although the teen was sure it was over a few years, seeing as once a year someone trimmed his hair. Once again the blonde locks had grown far too long for any normal boy. Then again he wasn't exactly normal.

The door clicked open. The blonde didn't bother to look up from his spot on the floor, so many people came in and out he'd given up trying to talk to them.

"Fai…?" The teen knew that voice. It wasn't the normal grunting or complaining that came into the room.

"Kaima-san?" Fai sat up hoping that his ears weren't playing tricks on him. Indeed the old lady was standing there staring at the boy with chirp on her shoulder.

"You got caught then…" She made her way over and crouched next to the blonde.

"Not quite…I made it into the city and met Ashura and he took me to his father." Fai started but was quickly silenced by a frail hand.

"You were caught. This is where you were meant to end up. Have faith little one, things will look up." She always had a way with words around little children.

"Kaima…where have you been all this time?" Fai asked staring up at the witch.

"I've been around little one just doing my work." She answered while sinking to sit on the floor.

"How has everyone been? How is Desu?" He hadn't spoken to anyone in the village since he left.

"I'm afraid I have some bad news Fai…that is why I'm here…" The witch sighed and pulled something out of her pocket. "The village was destroyed…" She paused before carrying on, "Your friend Desu…she died the day you left…I'm sorry Fai…"

"Your wrong…you're pulling my leg aren't you…" Fai shook his head not wanting to listen, he'd known that Desu was ill but hadn't expected her to die. "When did she know…"

"Desu knew for awhile…she should have been inside that day but I told her about you leaving and she wanted to say goodbye." Kaima explained laying a hand on the blonde's shoulder while holding something out with the other, "She said she wanted you to have this."

Fai took what was from the witch, it was a small whistle with a phoenix carved into it. Chirp hopped up and down on its perch chirping quietly.

"I must be off Fai…I'll leave chirp with someone I know here. She'll take good care of it." The old woman got to her feet and waved goodbye before being escorted out of the room.

Fai turned back to the whistle and rolled it in his fingers, he'd seen it before but couldn't remember where.

"Do you still have the whistle?" The ninja asked.

"Not anymore, I lost to awhile back. It was worth it though…" Fai slid from his seat and climbed onto the bed. "All my life I've been told to look at the bigger picture…when you're trapped for so long you give up hope…" He curled up under the covers and flicked off the light.

"I'll be back in a bit…" The warrior muttered as he exited the room to nearly stand on something round.

"Kuro-rin…" The creature's voice was a sad and probably at the verge of tears.

"Oi Mokona…don't tell the kids about it. Got it?" The ninja commented as it watched the ball waddle into the princess room.

"I won't tell them…" It said before closing the room.

Kurogane could hear it hop onto the bed and curl up he waited until silence washed over the house before going down to get a drink.

He'd spotted the small bird asleep on the windowsill when he'd gone to the fridge. The ninja left a bowl of water out for it before shutting the fridge door again.

"What is it with him and creatures…?" Kurogane muttered as he walked back upstairs. He'd let Fai sleep in his bed tonight and stop him tomorrow he thought.