Disclaimer: I do not own Tsubasa CLAMP owns them
Pairings: Kuro x Fai
Notes: A long chapter because I haven't written lately

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The group arrived back at their place at the inn they had found, Mokona was already there and waiting for them.

"Sakura!" The little white creature exclaimed as the girl slumped to her knees in front of it. "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine Moko-chan, really I am." She spoke quietly as she wiped a few tears from the creature's eyes.

Fai smiled weakly at the pair and quickly used it as an excuse to move as far away as he could from the ninja behind him. The two still hadn't solved anything, if anything it was getting worse.

"Kurogane, just leave me alone!" The magician had worked himself up and was yelling even though he knew the younger members were watching.

"I don't care about my life! I couldn't careless if I die! What's the big difference I'll either die the way I wish or end up dying because of h…" he trailed off.

"If you really think that way then fine!" The taller male retorted pointing to the windowsill, "There's a knife there so use it if you're that desperate!"

"Kurogane-san please…" Sakura piped in quietly.

"Stay out of it you!" The hot tempered male snapped. The princess immediately took several steps backwards.

"Oh so now your yelling at them?! Have you no heart?!" Fai yelled while attempting to throw a book at the other's head.

"Me, have no heart?! You're the one who wants to die so much no matter what the out come may be!" Kurogane yelled after dodging the book. "If you feel no compassion for anyone then I pity you. Your not worth the time, you pitiful bastard!"

The mage had been the one to walk off to his room. He'd collapsed against the door when he entered.

"It's funny," He muttered quietly, "The only thing that hurt was that you were the one saying it."

"Sakura-chan I think you better rest, you'll need all you can get for tomorrow." Fai carried on smiling as he helped the princess out of the room. In all truth he didn't want to leave the poor boy in the room with the ninja but, he had no choice.

"Fai-san?" Sakura spoke weakly as she stared up at him, "Are you and Kurogane-san talking again yet?"

"No." He replied bluntly, "I don't intend to either…not after all of this…"

"Fai-san…Speak with him please…it's not helping either of you solve anything…" The princess stared down at the floor passing underneath her feet rather than look at the magician's face.

"Same with you Sakura-chan. You haven't really spoken to this Syaoran since the other one left." Fai commented glancing down at the girl.

"I know I haven't. It just seems awkward to though…" The desert girl paused at the doorway to her room, "The clone…our Syaoran…he might not survive without the eye right…"

"I doubt it…" The magician muttered not meeting the emerald eyes. He wanted to mention that he didn't plan on living that long but couldn't bring himself to say it. Not after she'd already lost one person.

"So I'll have to choose…but if you die…" Sakura trailed off before turning and entering the room, "Good night Fai-san.."

"Good night Sakura-chan." Fai smiled again weakly.

"You ruined this place!" The children shouted as they threw stones at the group. Most of them aimed at Syaoran.

"You destroyed it!" A few adults joined in as the noise alerted more and more people.

Fai would have laughed if the situation wasn't so serious. He knew exactly the same feeling from way back in his home country. He had watched as Sakura stepped in the way, blocking the new boy from objects.

Sakura had asked to move worlds, whether it was out of pain or because of the memories was unclear.

"We're being watched," Fai muttered as he glanced out of the window.

"I know." The ninja muttered trying to keep his mind off of the pain shooting up and down his arm.

He had chosen the wrist due to the fact that Fai could easily choose to kill him on the neck. Since they weren't on good terms he had decided not to take the chance.

"Are you going to say something to me?" The magician asked as he whipped his mouth on his sleeve.

"What do you expect me to say? Other than who ever is watching us is going to suspect something now." Kurogane mumbled, trying to keep his gaze off of the other male.

"Sorry would be nice. You'd never say it though." Fai spat as he moved closer to the window and closed the curtains. "I guess I always pick the wrong guys." He whispered to himself.

"I'll say sorry when you say you'll live." The raven haired man retorted.

"Then I guess you won't say it." The blonde spun around to face the taller male. "Sakura is worried about us."

"She should focus her mind on her own problem." The ninja noticed some blood still on the pale face. "You should look in a mirror."

"Will I have a reflection?" Fai snorted as he walked closer to the other occupant of the room.

"You read too many fiction books," Kurogane grabbed the other man's arm as he walked past. "Not every book tells the truth, just like not ever person does."

"Let go of me." The flaxen mage spoke coldly as he looked at the hand in disgust.

"After you clean up…" The taller male tilted the other's head to face him, "You don't want the kids to worry now do you?"

"I can go take a shower." The magician tried to turn his head back. "I don't need you to take care of me like a cripple."

"Maybe...but you said…" The dark haired male leant right down to the other's ear, "You wanted an apology…"

"I might but not like this." The smaller male was visibly looking annoyed, "I don't want to be tied down again by being close to someone I'll hurt when I leave."

"You're already hurting me. I know you're hurting too." Kurogane paused before pulling back slightly to take a look at the delicate face in his hand. "You'll hurt more than one person if you choose death.

Fai closed his eye slightly. He already knew that and didn't want to hear it again. He could feel tears forming and didn't make any motion to stop them from falling; he'd already broken down atleast once a day since the argument.

"I hate it when you cry like that." Kurogane lifted the blonde's head slightly, "You don't know how much it hurts me to see you like that."

Fai closed his eyes tighter in the hope that it might block out the sound of the ninja talking too. He was thankful when the other male stopped talking, stopped saying the words he dreaded.

He nearly jumped out of his skin when he felt something on his cheek, something familiar.

The ninja kissed the tears away slowly; he knew that Fai was watching him even without opening his own eyes.

"Kuro…I'm sorry…" Fai muttered as he clutched the back of the taller man's shirt, "Sorry for hurting you…"