When I rushed back into the house, I knew everyone could tell I had reached an epiphany.
"Wow, Bella. It seems as that run did you good." Rose commented. I smiled a small smile.
"Yeah, I guess it did." I replied. I really wanted to take a shower though. But my all my clothes were back in Minnesota.
"Oh, and, feel free to help yourself to my closet." Rose said. "I know you'll probably want to shower and change your clothes soon." I nodded. Wow, she was good.
"Thanks." I replied. She just smiled in return.
"Mom, can I go down to the Reservation and see if Jake is there?" Renesmee asked, hopeful. I looked at Carlisle. We all knew it was dangerous to cross the treaty line. But then I remembered the new 'friendship' with the wolves. All because of Renesmee. I guess it seemed alright.
"I guess. But be careful." I looked her in the eye, and she nodded swiftly.
"Oh, thank you!" She squealed, and ran out the door. I chuckled, and went to Rose's room. It was still a bit dusty, but I saw quite an improvement. I guess Esme got right to work when Renesmee and I came back. I smiled. I searched through her closet for something decent for me to wear, and finally settled on some dark skinny jeans, and a navy blue tank top.
I showered, and to my surprise, there was strawberry scented shampoo and body wash available. I laughed. Esme must have went and bought me some of this aswell.
After I was all clean and dry, I dressed swiftly, left my hair to dry in its natural waves, and entered the living room again.
I heard a whistle. Emmett. Rose smacked his head, and he rubbed it and started rolling on the floor crying. I couldn't help but crack up laughing.
I plopped on the couch, and proceeded to watch the sight named Emmett. Every comment Rose said made Emmett faux-cry even harder. If I were human I would have tears rolling down my cheeks from laughing so hard.
I didn't even notice how close Jasper and I were sitting. His knee was touching mine, and I didn't even bother to move away. I just pretended not to notice and kept right along laughing.
Soon, though, Emmett got tired of doing the same old thing. He got up, and looked over at where Jasper and I were sitting, and let out a big,
"OH BABY!" It was so loud, even I jumped.
"Gosh, Emmett! Why don't you yell louder!" I said sarcastically. He smirked.
"OH BABY!" He yelled. "Better?" I rolled my eyes.
"Yes, Emmett. Thank you so much."
"You're very welcome, Bella." He repied, oh so innocently.
"Emmett!" Rose shrieked. We all turned to look at her. "Come here! I have to tell you something!" He looked at her like she was crazy.
"What ever you have to say you can say it right h-" But she cutt him off.
"Emmett!" Her eyes hardened, and her jaw was set. He sighed, and got up, shoulder slumping.
"Yes mother." She smacked his butt, and followed him to their room. But I didn't miss where she turned her head and winked at me.
That sly woman! I tsked at her mentally, and chuckled.
"What's funny?" Jasper asked, even though he knew darn well what was so funny.
"Oh nothing." I smiled, innocently. He smiled, then looked more closely at me. "What?"
"Nice contacts." He mused. Oh, right. My brown contacts. "Don't get me wrong, I like them."
I smiled. "Thanks, although they're nothing like my human eyes were. I miss the color, but this is as close as I'll get." He nodded, thoughtfully.
"I think they're beautiful either way." He admitted, and I was really glad I couldn't blush anymore. Except for the damn empath over there. He smirked. "Sorry, no loop holes with me." I rolled my eyes, and punched his shoulder playfully.
"Shut up." I giggled.
"I'm serious. Although I'm curious as to what your real eyes look like."
My real eyes, as in the golden orbs. I closed my eyes, and blinked hard. I felt the venom enclose the thin sheets, and they instantly dissolved. I opened them, and it felt weird without the conatcts, almsot like a relief.
"Wow." He praised, looking deep into my eyes. "They are really something, Bella." I looked down, and a wave of embarassment flooded over me. I knew he was feeling it, and it made it even more worse. He chuckled. "Well, the bastard was right about one thing." He said, and I looked up, confused.
"What do you mean?" I asked, my voice weary. Maybe he was going to say something I do that is horrible, and maybe thats why Edward wanted someone else... I felt myself worrying more by the milli-second. Jasper put his hand on my cheek, and made me look into his eyes when I started to look away.
"The color. It really does look beautiful on you." He said, with such emotion. I tried to stop the relief that come over me, but it was too late. He was already beginning to question it. "Why do you feel so relieved?"
"I don't know." I said, and looked at anything but him. He once again turned my face to look towards him, and I felt calmed by his touch. "I just thought that you were going to say something bad. Like he was right about something that made him want to..." I trailed off, knowing he'd very much well understand what I was getting at.
"Bella." He breathed. "No, that was so far from the truth." Obviously, I thought in my head. "Hey, don't get smart with me now." He teased. I was really going to get him, its not fair when he can feel all my emotions. "Jealous?" He smirked. I stuck out my tongue, but I soon found out that was a huge mistake. I suddenly imagined my tongue spinning in unision with Jasper's.
I smiled innocently, and he rolled his eyes in a playful manner. I shrugged like, 'what can you do'. He shook his head, chuckling.
"Bella, Bella, Bella." He basically tsked my name. I feigned hurt. "Awh, don't be hurt little sis. Big bubby Jasper is here." He cooed. Even though he was joking, him calling me 'little sis' sent a pang to my already shattered heart.
He felt it.
"Bella, what's wrong? What did I say that hurt you?" He asked, concerned. He wrapped his arms around me, and I wished he would be doing it in a romantic way, not like he was comforting his sister.
"Nothing, Jasper." But my voice betrayed me. He stroked the side of my face, and I felt my eyes flutter closed. I couldn't keep the feelings I was having for Jasper covered, and he stiffened. I froze, too. He started to shift.
Here it comes. He's about to leave me, wading in my haywire emotions, all alone. I'm so stupid. Why couldn't I have kept them inside of my heart, to where he couldn't feel them? A dry lump rose in my throat. I knew he felt the rejection, but he didn't do anything.
I might as well make this easier for him. I got up myself, and headed for the door.
And I didn't even stop when I heard him calling my name from behind.