"Let's go to the Break Dance!" Jake shouted, pointing furiously. I chuckled at the eagerness animating him.
"Alright, alright. Calm down." I replied, and gently pulled Jasper along. I tsk'ed at the joyous cry that escaped from his lips. I met Jacquie's embarrassed gaze, and rolled my eyes knowingly.
"You get used to it." She chuckled in response.
"Sure, sure. Whatever. Let's go!" Jacob hurried us impatiently. I sighed, and motioned everyone to hurry along. I clutched Jasper's hand, wondering how I got so lucky to have him all to myself. He looked down at me, and gave me that wondrous smile.
"I love you." I whispered, so no one else would hear.
"As I love you, Darlin'." He spoke in that to-die-for accent. I must have been "dazzled", because he chuckled, bringing me to. I gave him a look, but he knew I could never stay angry at him. So, I just merely stuck my tongue at him.
"Way mature, Bells." I heard Jake call ahead of us.
"Oh, go ride your stupid Break Dance!" I teased. He smirked, and hopped into one of the rides many carts.
"Here ya go, Darlin'." Jasper greeted, and it was only now that I noticed he'd left. I looked at my gift, and it was a stick of cotton candy.
"What am I supposed to do with this?" Surely he wasn't going to make me eat it.
"Eat it?" Jacquie said, like it was so obvious. Ah, sweet little innocent human. I opened my mouth to show her my teeth, emphasizing my overly sharp kanines. Her mouth formed an 'O', remembering my current predicament. I chuckled, making sure she knew it was completely okay. But, I decided I'd amuse everyone, and did the unexpectable. I bit a huge chunk out of the ball of softness, and felt the cotton-y substance dissolved on contact with the venom in my mouth. The stuff tasted weird, but the tingling sensation made me giggle. I even allowed the others the spectacle of taking a few more bites.
"You are amazing." Jasper mused, eyes shining with excitement and wonder. I played up the admiration a bit, but eventually denied my being awesome.
"Wooh!" We were brought back to the real world with Jacob screaming. "That was amazing! Come on, you guys have to try it." It did actually look kind of fun. I ran at human speed to where Jake was now standing, claiming my spot in line. "That's the spirit!"
I noticed Jasper wasn't in line beside me. I met his gaze from my former spot, and he just waved it off. I raised an eyebrow.
"Don't worry about it, Darlin'." He spoke, and even over the excited squeals of the humans around me, I heard him. I smiled, hoping there was really nothing wrong. I did notice Jacquie and Felisha join us.
When we got up to the front of the line, the ride instructor practically drooled at us three girls. And, if I wasn't mistaken, I might have even heard him cuss in lust under his breath. I rolled my eyes, and hopped gracefully into the nearest cart. Felisha rode with me, since she wouldn't exactly feel comfortable riding with a dog, or anyone close to it. Jake didn't quite like the idea, either. I tsk'ed internally. Animals.
The guy in charge of making sure all the safety precautions were taken care of was not a bit better than the ride instructor. He all but groped Felisha and I while checking our seatbelts. Although I don't quite remember my seat belt being in some places he made a point to rub against. Felisha wasn't as opposed to the idea as I, though. She wasn't in love, like I was.
I saw the ride instructor give the groper a dirty, even jealous look. I could tell he was not a fan of him getting to feel on us, because as soon as he finished checking all the carts, the instructor abruptly started the ride, glaring at him the whole time. The ride was exhilarating! I, being a vampire, adored speed! Which is kind of crazy, seeing as I was greatly opposed to the whole fast-going stuff as a human. It was over too soon.
As I was walking out the exit, I saw the instructor give me a come-on look, and I did my best to smile back without seeming disgusted, or rude. As soon as I was out of the realm of the two pervs, I was desperately scanning the crowd for Jasper. To my surprise, he wasn't where I'd left him. In fact, he was nowhere to be found. My dead heart was beating miles, and my worry began to grow.
"Bella? Bells, you okay?" I heard Jake call from behind me.
"Yeah." I squeaked, and cleard my throat. "Yes, I'm fine." I used my vampire abilities to cover the anxiety in my voice, and tried to be discrete about continuing to search Jasper. I was hoping no one would question his absence, but like that could happen.
"Where the other leech?" Jake asked, clearly showing in his voice that he was using the nickname in a joking manner. I did my best to hide the panic in my eyes, and turned to face him. But when I opened my mouth to speak, Jake came and hugged me. "Bells, I'm sorry. He's probably just walking around. Don't worry, he'll be back."
Jacob was right. Jasper would come back. He's just merely appreciating the view Disneyland Paris has to offer. But I still couldn't focus right unless I actually went looking for him.
I told the others to meet me at the water fountain in the spilt center of the park, and went off in search for Jasper. I must have spent at least an hour looking around the park. I don't know exactly why I took a peek in the food court, but you can never be too sure. When I finally spotted him, he was sitting in one of those massage chairs that look like barrels. I was about to run vampire speed to him, when I spotted the vile girl sitting on the barrel next to him.
And if she's here, that must mean he is too. The cursed two, why did they have to show up? I thought we'd seen the last of them when Esme kicked them out the second time. I couldn't fight the snarl that became pronounced on my lips, but they didn't seem to hear me. What happened next gave me no warning. The damned pixie attacked my love at vampire speed. She kissed him! Rage filled every vein in my body, and my vision turned crimson. Images of me ripping her head off sped through my brain, and visions of burning her entered my thoughts as well.
"Hello, Love." I heard the velvet voice I once thought attractive behind me. I whirled around, not caring about keeping myself secret at the moment.
"What the hell do you want." I spat at him.
"You should be careful. Wouldn't want to reveal the secret." He said, sarcasm lacing his voice.
"You can shut the hell up. So why don't you take your stupid slut and get out of here!" I practically yelled. He glaced behing me, and a small smirk lit his face.
"Oh, I don't think your precious boyfriend wants too."
I turned around, and saw Alice leaning in again to a very unhappy looking Jasper. I could tell that he didn't even want to be near her! But, if she throws lust-filled emotions at him, I know it's going to be hard for him, being an empath and all. Still, the fact of anyone else even getting the privalege to touch him breaks my heart. I saw the frown escape his face, knowing Alice's emotions got the best of him. I didn't want to see anymore, so I turned away. I could've swore I saw him pushing her away, but I couldn't be sure. I just wanted to get out of there. I ran so fast that I wouldn't even be a blur to the passing humans.
I got to the parks entrance gate, and made a clean leap over it. I didn't stop running until I reached the Eiffel Tower. I climbed to the very top, and began to rest on one of the wide beams. Images of todays events rushed through my head, and I began to sob. They always seem to find there way back, and wedge themselves through the happiness I've managed to create.
Oh, Jasper. My sweet love. Why? Why did Alice have to do this? I vaguely had the thought of her wanting him back, but that quickly vanished with remembering the knowing smirk Edward had when he'd looked over at them. They purposely want to make our lives misreable. They don't even care who's emotions they're playing with! I swear I'll kill them. One by one, limb by limb. Of course, I'll need someone to hold them down for me. But I'll want the ripping apart saved for me. Oh, how much satisfaction that would give me.
But as time passed, my confidence in our love started to waver. Maybe Alice really did want him back, and Edward was just a cold hearted dick. But that didn't seem plausible. Alice was just as big of a female dog as Edward. Plus, I knew Jasper loved me. And he had enough self appreciation than to go crawling back to the girl who broke his heart into thousands of tiny little pieces. I'm the one who patched his heart back together, put the pieces back into place. He mended the charred remains of my heart, as well. I could and would never return to the bastard who made it so in the first place. I could never let Jasper go, in the first place. He was my life now. The only reason worth living, besides Renesmee.
"Oh, Jasper." I whimpered, crossing my arms over my hear, and bringing my knees to my chest. My eyes watched the moon crawl into the sky, ever waiting the return of my love. I wished I could sleep, to escape the troubles of this world, if even for a few hours. This is one of the times I'd wish Edward had gotten his way, just left me human. I could sleep, eat real food, feel the sweet oxygen running through my needy lungs, an blood pumping through my live veins. I would even die. Maybe not happily, but peacefully, nonetheless. Of course, I would have never had Renesmee, or met Jasper. And they would help me endure this hard, painful existence.
The tearless sobs retched from my small chest, threatening to rip my body in half. I've never felt so fragile and helpless as vampire as I do at this moment. So weak, and drained. Any predator that would approach me with intentions of hurting me would easily take me. Although, I'm a vampire. I can take almost anyone. Also, I don't think anyone or thing would be advancing on me this high in the air.
I closed my eyes, trying to steady my heart-wrenching sobs. I wanted to get as close to sleep as I could. I even pretended to dream, filling my mind with memories of Jasper and I in the meadow. While thinking these memories would help, they made things worse. It made the absence of this wonderful man all the more painful. I silently cried, wishing to be back in that meadow, enased Jasper's arms more than anything. I suddenly felt my pain double, if such a thing were possible, and I felt strong arms wrap around me.
I gasped, opened my eyes, and saw Jasper right beside me.
"Oh! Oh, Jasper!" I exclaimed, and threw my arms around his neck. I continued to sob, overwhelmed with the serenity of being in his arms, and the heartbreak of earlier. I tried to tighten my hold around him, but it seems as I could never get close enough to him, even though I was pressed right up against his form. I kept mumbling his name, while he kept tightening his hold on me, too. Never wanting to let go, afraid I'd slip from his grasp at the slightest of a motion. I felt his body shaking beside mine as he mourned along with me.
We cried for hours, probably. Clinging to each other as if our lives depended on it. And, in a way, they did. I could never live without him, as I know he couldn't without me. We shared a love so strong, it was impenetrable. Nothing, and no none, could sever the ties we share.
"Bella. Please, please. I- I'm so, s-sorry." His pained voice was breaking with every word he spoke. "Darlin', I- I didn't know. Pl-please. I- I can't do this without you, Bella. I l-love you s-so much. Please." He pleaded. As if I could ever be mad at him. Nothing was his fault.
"Jasper." I said, and looked up into his gorgeous golden eyes, that were now filled with such grief. I touched his cheek, and tried to give him a smile. But I was in so much pain, the smile probably came off as a grimace. "Jasper. I love you, with every dead cell in my body. You have to understand how it felt, though. To- to see you.. And, her.. I- it just.." I trailed off, the remembrance bring on a fresh wave of pain. I heard Jasper let out a small whimper at the pain he felt erupting from me.
"Bella, please. I had no idea. It was so hard." I couldn't bear to stand hearing him in such agony, so I shushed him. I just wanted to hold him. I had to know he was all mine, forever. We remained in each other embraces for an unmanageable amount of time.
"You have no idea what was going through my mind." I finally spoke, my voice semi-in control. "I went through so many possible reasons and outcomes I couldn't even bear. Jasper, I, I was so scared." I finished, my voice breaking. He chocked back a sob of his own, gripping me impossibly closer.
"I know, Darlin'. I was scared you only saw a fragment of what happened. And, by the looks of it, my assumptions were correct. Bella, did you see the part where I pushed her way? Where I completely went off, and almost ripped her head off myself?" I knew I was right about seeing him push her away. I knew he could never betray me like that, or ever, for that matter.
"I knew you wouldn't hurt me. I felt it in my heart." I said, joy seeping through my sadness.
"I could never cause pain to such a beautiful creature like yourself." I murmured, and I could hear the promise ringing in his voice. And his next words brought the tears I would never shed to my eyes.
"Bella, Darlin', I love you. So, so much." I looked into his eyes, shocked, yet ecstatic at his confession. I searched his eyes, and found nothing but love. And even though I knew he could feel my love for him radiating from my body, I still wanted to voice it.
"Oh, Jasper. I love you too."
And we sealed our newfound revelation with a kiss.
Oh my goodness gosh. There is not enough words in the dictionary to express my apology to you guys. I am SO sorry. My computers quite the honker, so it was messing up with the documents. For example, all the words were jumbled. It was crazy, and a pain to read. I'm currently on my Dad's laptop, so whenever I get the chance to get on, I will write like crazy, and update. I can only hope that you guys have not deserted this story. I tried to make this chapter make up for my absence. I understand if you hate me. But, I will always love you guys. Please, review. Hope this chapter was worth the wait.
Love, Sarah. [Heart]