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Chapter 4

"Rose, you there?" I turned and looked at Dimitri. After a couple hours of being outside, Dimitri wheeled me back to my room and I just sat on the balcony, looking at the city.

"It's time for your shot," I groaned.

"No. I've had like two already. I don't need another one," I told him.

"Rose, you don't have a choice. And please don't make me order you to stay still," I stood up and just looked at him in a hostile manner.

"No means no. I'm serious Dimitri," I sat on my bed and sighed.

"Miss Hathaway, we really have to-" Darkness triggered and the nurse was frozen to her spot as darkness surrounded her, then pushing her into a wall. Her face turned into a look of horror, but when Dimitri gave me a disappointed look, I stopped. She dropped the injection and I just hid in the bed. Ever since the incident during my test, I was always afraid to use my powers to a certain end. I heard Dimitri pick up the injection and put it on the nearby table.

"Rose…? You okay?" He asked quietly. I didn't answer. "Rose?"

"Don't touch me…please…" I felt his hand on my shoulder and I shrugged him off. "I said don't touch me!" I roared at him. But once I realized it, I flinched from him.

"There's no need to be scared. I won't hurt you. Here, give me your arm. We'll just get this over with. Alright?" I got away from him.

"Dimitri…?" I whispered quietly.

"Yes?" He looked at me worriedly.

"I want to leave," I told him straightforwardly. "I want to leave, and I don't want to come back. I just want to forget that all this ever happened!" I cried.

"Rose…you can't leave. You can't just give up your whole guardian career," He told me.

"Then you can stay here. But I don't. Dimitri, ever since you spoke of leaving with Tasha, nothing held me to this place anymore. I don't know if you cleared it up with her, but when I disappear, I don't want any trace of my past following. I don't need Tasha coming after me, because if you know it or not, she hates me. She's been after me ever since Spokane…" Suddenly, Dimitri's phone vibrated. He looked at it with a solemn look. "It's her…isn't it…It's Tasha," I wiped my eyes.

"Rose…I'm just her friend. Nothing more. I don't understand why you can't see it," He started to raise his voice.

"Because I don't Dimitri! She loves you just as much as I love you, but because she's a Moroi, she has a head start. Don't you ever realize that's why she pulls out the "we can have a family" card? It's because she knows I can't do that for you!" Suddenly Dimitri came over and slapped me.

"That's enough! Obviously you don't realize how much I love you and until you do, I'm heading back to the school," He finally got up and left, slamming the door in the process. I sank onto the bed and sobbed. Darkness raged within me and before I realized it, I stormed out the door.

"Miss Hathaway!" Destruction followed me as a strange gust of dark wind blew through the hospital. "Miss Hathaway! Please, you have to stay!" I turned to the nurse.

"Silence!" I left the hospital on my own. If I didn't need Dimitri, I didn't need anyone and I was going to prove that. Using a little bit of darkness, I used just enough force to break the wristband around me, letting it drop to the ground. "If Dimitri thinks I'm dependent on him, well he's going to have another thing coming at him," I stormed off, heading in the direction away from the school. Then Dimitri's words rang in my head. 'You can't just give up your whole guardian career.' That made me stop and think for a minute. Then I shook my head. If he was going to find me, he'd have to do it himself. After leaving the hospital I just started walking to a nearby town. Hours after hours passed and soon it got dark outside. Then that was where I ran into my first problem. I didn't have any money with me so I didn't exactly have a place to stay. I looked back towards the direction of the hospital and then the direction in which I was walking in. Finally I decided to head into the woods. Even though it was dangerous, I rather stay in a forest than on the streets where God knows what could happen to me. I didn't even regain all my strength yet so it wasn't like I fight a Strigoi head on either. As I dashed into the forest, I found a tree with a hole and hid in there to rest. The traffic nearby worried me, not for the reason that Dimitri might come, but who else could possibly find me first. Dimitri was probably notified of my disappearance at this point and was probably looking for me this very moment. When it started to rain, I swore everyone in this world was out to get me whether I knew about it or not. The moon eventually came out and the fog kicked in which really made me nervous. I didn't even end up sleeping so I ended up dreaming. I could just imagine Dimitri's fury at me for leaving just like that. He probably had a team of guardians all out looking for me just like they did when Lissa and I got caught.

"Find her! She couldn't have gotten far!" I looked up suddenly. It was Dimitri's voice. And to be honest, at this point, hungry, freezing, and wet I did anything to find him. I focused all the energy I had left to let darkness out. Sparks started flying into the air. "Over here! She's over here!" I smiled. "Roza!" I looked up and Dimitri was standing in front of me. "Come on sweetheart. Come out of there," I looked at him and he bent down to pick me up. "Time to go home, my little runaway," He wasn't angry. He hugged me tight even. I slowly wrapped my arms around his neck and he kissed my neck. When I got back to the hospital, I kept having blurry visions. But after some shots and medication, I gasped and everything sharpened. "Hey…how are you feeling?" I turned and saw Dimitri brushing my hair aside.

"Her heart rate's fast. Calm her down," The nurse told Dimitri. Dimitri got into my bed and held me tenderly.

"Were you scared?" He asked me quietly.

"Yeah…" I was exhausted and Dimitri's warmth slowly lulled me to sleep.

"Get some rest. We'll talk in the morning," He kept brushing my hair and eventually, I fell asleep in his arms.

Next day…

When I woke up, I suddenly sat up. Dimitri was already awake, reading a book.

"Rose," He closed his book and put it aside. I looked at him, then looked away. "We need to talk," He pulled his chair up to my bed.

"I know what you're going to ask. You're going to ask why I ran off, didn't I?"

"So why did you?" He asked straightforwardly.

"Because…" I started.

"Because what?"

"Because I don't know. I just…felt left out. When you left, I thought you seriously chose Tasha over me. Then I was so determined to show myself that I was going to be okay without you. But…that didn't work. Then when you came, all I wanted was to be a little kid again. I didn't want to carry any more responsibility. I just want to be me. But even that's getting hard recently," I started to explain.

"Rose…you're still a child no matter how much you want to be an adult. It's one thing to try and be independent, but you're welcome to depend on me. You know you can, right?" I looked at him, then nodded.

"Look…Dimitri. I just want to go home. Not this home, not the school. I want to go home. Somewhere I'm safe and I don't have to run any longer. If Tasha wants you, she can take you. I don't care anymore. I just don't want to be like this," I started getting edgy.

"Shh…stay calm, sweetheart," I sighed. "I already talked to Tasha. I told her to leave and that she has no longer the right to approach me as long as you seem she is a threat to you. Rose, you never have to be scared around me. You don't have to be like this. Look, how about we go on a vacation, just the two of us. You name the place. Hawaii?" He asked. I looked at him. "We'll get away like you wanted. It'll be time for you to heal and recuperate. No more running, no more fighting," He repeated while starting to take his phone out. "Headmistress…yes, this is Guardian Belikov, I have Rose here with me in the nearby general hospital. Look, she's been through a lot for her age and she's going through some trauma issues. I figured I could take her on a vacation, just the two of us. Hawaii. Two weeks. Is that alright?" Then there was silence. "I understand. Thank you," Then he hung up. "Rose?" I looked at him again, tired as hell. "Are you okay?" My breathing became short and rapid. "Come on, lie down and take deep breaths," Dimitri helped me breathe. He held my hands above my head and I kept taking deep breaths. The heart monitor's beeping slowed. Dimitri put the oxygen mask on me. "Better?" I nodded and inhaled. Suddenly he looked like he was going to leave and I grabbed his sleeve.

"Don't…go…" He smiled.

"I'm just heading back to the school to pack some things for the two of us. Alright? The nurses here can watch over you," I shook my head.

"I'm going with you!" I was worried. Any moment he had with Tasha, something could go wrong and I was still not going to believe that Tasha backed off just like that.

"Rose..." I gave him a pleading look.

"I can't let you go alone…I'm coming with you. After you pack, we can come back here. But…" He gave me a gentle look.

"Alright. Let me just talk to the nurses," I started to get ready to leave for a bit. When Dimitri came back, he gave me the ok to leave. I followed him out to the car and he drove us back to the academy. And guess who was at the main gate? That's right, Tasha. When Tasha started coming at Dimitri, I got out of the car to let her know of my presence.

"Dimka, I missed you!" I snarled and she looked my way and backed off.

"Okay, you know what. Time I made it clear to you. No more nice girl here. Lady Ozera, Dimitri is mine and solely mine. You should know that well by now," I threatened her.

"Rose…back off, now," Dimitri scolded me. I hissed at her and Dimitri grabbed me by the collar. "Come on, no fighting," He told me.

"No, Dimka. Let her. It's time I said my part to her too. Look little missy, I've known Dimka a lot longer than you have. You can't just step in and take him away from me either," She sneered.

"Tasha, I don't love you," Dimitri spoke up. Tasha though, didn't even seem to notice.

"What did you do to him? Did you use your dark magic and compulsion to get him to love you? Did you cheat like the bitch you are?" Tasha pushed me back, but I didn't hit her back. I was touchy on my dark magic ever since my test.

"Tasha, that's enough!" Dimitri protected me. He quickly looked back at me and noticed the dark aura's return.

"You don't know what happened so don't act as if you do!" I screamed. Darkness triggered and I charged at her. I growled and hissed as I tackled her to the ground. Tasha kicked me back and shot a fireball at me. However, I dodged her attack too, though it singed my hair a bit. We ended up going head to head with each other, throwing spells. "Bahlskra!" Tasha quickly got trapped. "I'm ending this once and for all!" I clenched my fist and she screamed.

"Dimka!" She yelled for Dimitri and he went to her. I quickly let her go. When I tried to run though, I stumbled and fell onto my butt. Dimitri saw me wanting to escape and I did. I shot off and ran.

"Rose!" I ran. I ran from everything, I ran from myself, I wanted to disappear. "Rose, stop! Stop!" I kept running. "ROZA! Please!" I finally stopped.

"No more! I've had enough! I don't want this anymore!" I screamed. A burst of dark energy came from me violently as Dimitri shielded himself a bit.

"Roza…sweetheart!" Dimitri finally made his way through until he got to me. Putting his arms around me, I was shocking him with the darkness, but he didn't seem to care. "Roza…it's alright…It's alright…nothing to be afraid of. Take it easy…I'm here now. Nothing can hurt you," No matter how much I shocked him, he still held on tight to me. "I won't let you go, and I won't ever leave you Rose! Listen to me!" He yelled through the chaos.

"NO! I don't want to! I don't want to listen anymore!" I screamed as darkness kept spreading.

"Oh dear…Rose…" He could only watch as I released all my magic powers. I was sobbing. It was painful living like this, being a monster. I knew I had changed ever since the Spokane incident, but it was just too much. Dimitri brought me to my knees as he shielded me. "Let it out. If it makes you feel better, just release all the anger and pressure," I kept going and things around me started to be destroyed like trees and such. After what seemed to be an hour, I finally stopped. Regaining my sanity back, I was breathing rapidly, but so was Dimitri. He was bleeding in some areas from the darkness. But even at the very end, he was still brushing my hair as I cried. "I know it's hard. It's really been hard on you," My sobs eventually quieted to just hiccups. Some guardians ran over, amazed at the destruction.

"Did she do-" They started.

"Yeah," Dimitri cut them off.

"Wow…I wouldn't imagine. From a seventeen year old at that," Dimitri hugged me tight, trying to make me not hear what they were saying, afraid I would trigger off another hour of destruction.

"Can you guys leave? I mean, it's nice you guys care for her, but now is not the best time. Not in her condition right now," The guardians quickly left. "Rose, can you hear me?" I didn't move. "Rose, sweetheart?" I shifted just the slightest bit and Dimitri stroked my wet cheek. "Are you okay?" I shook my head. "Are you going to be okay?" I kept shaking my head. "Okay, then let's just stay like this until you catch your breath," I stayed quiet but now and then, you could hear the crackle of the sparks created by the darkness. As we stayed like that, Dimitri would kiss me now and then as well as check my heart rate. "Your heart rate is stabilizing. Can you move at all?" I moved my legs a bit, but only very little. "Can you feel them?" He asked.

"They're a bit numb from the darkness's shock," I tried to move my legs as they moved only slightly. Eventually, they moved more and I was able to curl up more. After another hour or so, I was able to fully move. But, being Dimitri, he picked me up for safety purposes.

"Let's get you back to the school," He slowly walked back to the school with me in his arms. "Get some rest sweetheart. Don't worry about packing. I'll take care of that," I nodded and bit and drifted off to sleep. "You must be tired. You must be past tired," That was the last thing I heard before falling asleep in Dimitri's arms.

Next morning…

"It's morning…" I looked out the window. Dimitri was gone. He left a note.

Roza, I went out to the hospital to get your stuff back. Be back soon. ~Dimitri

I curled up and heard nothing, but silence. I needed Dimitri. I couldn't be without him. Right now he was my only shelter and I needed him. I quickly got dressed and slowly left the school, heading in the direction of the hospital. Right as I got to the entrance of the school, the giant gate that was locked, towered over. A spell came into mind.

"Break," I whispered and the lock broke off from the gate. I opened the gate and kept walking. When I walked half way, I took out my cell phone and called Dimitri.

"Rose? Is something wrong? I'll be back soon. Just wait for me at the school," He spoke quickly, as if he was in a rush.

"Dimitri?" I asked.

"Yes?" He asked back.

"I'm not at the school," I told him.

"YOU'RE WHAT? Where are you? I'm coming to get you!" He started panicking.

"I'm-" Too late. He hung up. Crap. I looked back. I could always just head back to the school. Eh, he'll eventually see me. As I walked leisurely, the fresh air was nice. It gave me time to think about some things. Everything seemed peaceful. That was, until it was ruined by a lone Strigoi.

"Oh poor girl. Is the little lamb lost?" He teased as he approached me.

"Don't mess with me," I hissed.

"Oh I see. Girl has fight in her still. Well, this will just be a quick death for you then," He ran quickly towards me in lightning speed.

"I reject!" I yelled. A burst of dark flame surrounded me, getting the Strigoi to stop. "You can mess with any other person, but do NOT mess with me!" I took him by the collar and whispered a spell. "Bahlskra!" In an instant, I crushed his bones. Once he was dead, I tossed him off to the side. Funny thing was, why was he by himself? Usually Strigoi are always out with a partner of some sort. I sighed, quickly calling Dimitri.

"Rose? Don't worry. I'm driving on my way back. Stay where you are," He yelled through the phone.

"Dimitri…hurry up. I think I'm kind of in the middle of a really bad thing. A freaking Strigoi just came after me…" I trailed off.

"What? Where are you? Do you see any landmarks?" He asked in a panicky voice now.

"There's a church and some cars in the parking lot that I just walked by. It's really quiet, Dimitri…and I'm just worried. Strigoi travel in pairs if not packs. If one just came after me…" I spoke quietly now.

"Listen to me. Rose, I'm not that far away. I'm just right up ahead of you. I'll probably see you within couple minutes top. Do you have your stake with you?" He asked.

"No. It's in my room," I told him.

"Rose, how did you leave without a stake?" He asked, a bit disappointed in me.

"It's fine. I can still use the darkness. I just killed one by using the 'Bahlskra' spell," I told him. I could hear him sigh.

"Try not to use your powers, but be alert. Keep walking towards the hospital. Don't run at all. They can tell when you're on edge. I'll see you in a bit," I heard his car speed up before he hung up. 'What the hell? What does he mean by don't run? I have killers here trying to kill me and he says don't run?' I kept walking, but to be honest, this just might turn into a bloodbath. "Please hurry…" I whispered to myself.

Oo…cliffhanger! Anyways, I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! I know it's a bit scattered, but that's only to show how many problems Rose is trying to juggle with! Either way, please review! I do spend effort on writing these chapters one by one, so some feedback or if you like it would be nice! THANKS!