Alright thanks so much to those who reviewed, when I read the review's I decided that I should continue the story.
Song for this chapter is 'Ron Leaves - Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 1 Soundtrack' it was composed by Alexandre Desplat.Please listen to it, it has the tone of despair and sadness and yet a bit of hope, that I hope this chapter has.
I think this story will have about 8 more chapters. Here is sneak peek of the last chapter:
"I'm not saying I can't live without you. I can live without you…. " I stopped talking feeling the tears whelming up. Tell him this is your last chance I convince myself.
"I'm just choosing not to." I told him with tears running down my face. Behind me I felt everyone freeze, including myself.
I haven't meant to say it, but I did. The sad part is that's it is true so amazingly true.
Chapter 4
Emma's P.o.V
"Miss Emma." I heard Alice say softly shaking me, I opened my eyes letting the room come back to focus. I sat up in my bed and looked at Alice her blonde hair was pulled up; she smiled and moved to open the doors to the balcony.
"Alice, remind me again why I'm being put threw this torture?" I asked her grabbing my pillow and covering my face. It's been four days since I've gotten to the castle, four days of Queen Susan 'training' me to be a proper lady.
"Because you need to… um… Learn how to socialize with the people at the ball." She said extending a hand for me to rise of the bed.
I look at the hand and then at her, I didn't feel like going to training today. I just want to lay down and sleep.
"It seems like a lot of preparing for just one ball." I told her laying back down under my bed covers. Under them it's always warm and peaceful; I never have to overanalyze anything.
She sighs and sit's down on my bed, making it move a little.
"Emma if I don't have you down there within the next seven minute's, I'll be fired." Alice whispered, I opened my eyes.
"Fine I'm up." I told her.
I sat up from my bed with Alice's help. I got dressed and we went down to the ball room.
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"What took you so long!" I heard Beatrice say. I had meet Princess Beatrice two days ago, she was a brat. I mean for a person who was once like me, I hoped she be nicer. Well she's not, I actually prefer Susan.
Beatrice was a beautiful red-headed woman but always wore too much make-up and cloth that even Susan raised eyebrows at.
I didn't answer because if I had, it wouldn't have been very nice. I sat at the huge table were all my sister and Arthur where at. The class went by as always, first eat breakfast while using proper table manners, walking start, how I should talk, and everything else.
But at the end of class I notice that the Kings we're at the doors. I looked at Charlotte.
"Why are they here?" I asked her.
You see the last time I've talk to Edmund was four days ago. I don't know why we haven't talked but we haven't. We have just not been at the same place at the same time. A part of me felt like he was avoiding me and that did hurt. But I would never tell anybody that.
"I think his here for you." She told me slowly, looking at Edmund and Peter.
"What?" I asked, Charlotte isn't that great of a person to explain things.
I felt Helen sigh and move closer to and whisper.
"His going to spend the day with you." I wasn't exactly shocked I was just…. Surprised.
I looked at Charlotte she was giving Helen as glare all of a sudden I felt mad, not only do they have my future planned out but everyday of my life to?
"I'm I the only one who didn't know?" I asked them angrily. They looked at me shocked but slowly there expression changed guiltily.
"Well not everyone knew…" Helen said slowly looking at the floor. I rolled my eyes oh please probably even Archenland knew…
Charlotte looked at me and rolled her eyes. "There's nothing you can do his you're-"
"My nothing."I asked in a harsh whisper not wanting anyone to hear. "He's my nothing."
Helen looked at Susan who was coming up to us. I sighed I really just want to go to bed! Oh god I'm starting to sound like Helen.
"We're going riding today." She told Helen and Charlotte then she turn to me and said. "You and Edmund will be visiting the village's close by. Don't forget what I've taught you."
She told me the last part sharply and reluctantly, I sucked in a breath. One wrong move and Susan is going to cut my head.
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The carriage ride was silent mostly, sometimes Sir Simon would comment on the passing farms herbs. To which we would both nod. I was sitting in front of Edmund and next to Sir Simon. There was uncomfortable vibe in the carriage and I have an idea of why. I which I could glare at Edmund, I mean he brought to the castle to spend time with me and still I haven't seen him in four days….
Yes I understand he's a King. But there isn't anything important going on in Narnia. I'm can't believe this we're not even married yet and am already acting like an annoying bride.
"Um where here." I heard Simon say. I looked up just as the carriage came to a stop.
We all out of the carriage, I looked around it was a sunny day. We started towards the first house on the side of the rode.
"These are very wealthy people. There daughter is going to marry the towns mayor." Simon told us knocking on the door. Aren't we suppose to be visiting people in need?
The door pen to reveal a young woman dressed in elegant cloth. She had too much make-up on and her hair was up in a seemly odd fashion. It took all I had to not raise an eyebrow at her; I decided to look around the streets while Simon and Edmund made the introductions.
The girls name was Elizabeth and she was 15. Gosh 15 and getting married.
We walked inside to meet the rest of the family. She lived with her parents and older brother. The family talked but I just sat there mannerly, wishing I would have brought a book. But instantly I knew that would make me look bad mannered and uninterested. Which would equal in my beheading by Susan.
"Emma." I looked up at the sound of my name. Elizabeth's mother (who looked exactly like Elizabeth only older) was smiling at me.
"Yes?" I told her in the most pleasant voice I could. I felt Edmund shift next to me hiding a smile.
"Don't you just love our style we've made it up ourselves?" Her mother asked looking down at her cloth, Elizabeth eyed me carefully.
Wow could she have asked me a harder question. I mean I would never tell them but they look like clowns. If Beatrice was standing next to them she'd look plain and that's a lot to say by Beatrice standards.
I gave a fake smile and nodded "Yes it's very … unique."
I heard her brother chuckle wining a death glare from the whole family. Susan will be proud of me once she hears this.
"Well I always say 'Dress everyday like your going to be murder in those cloths'." Elizabeth said. Elizabeth's mom exploded laugh, I just gave a small smile.
Oh Aslan this is going to be harder than I thought.
We went to a couple more houses and they were all the same. Girl's way too young to marry, with washed up parents, and at least on reasonable member in the family. All of it makes me want to go home and hug my family, because honestly they could have been a lot worse.
Honestly if that was the lesson Edmund wanted to give with this trip, well then I was already aware of it so kind of beat you to it huh?
"This is our last stop." I heard Simon say when the carriage stopped. We all got out to see a deserted plain, we all started following Simon who started walking up one of the hills.
Once we reached the top he said slowly.
"Alright this family isn't as fortunate as the others."
I looked up to see a hut, it was just like my families but only it was in worse condition. The side's where falling apart and half of its roof was gone. All the plants around it where torn and dead, looking to one side you could even see a dead horse on the side of the house.
Its whole body was covered in blood. They we're bugs crawling up the horse's side already taking away its flesh.
My breath caught and I felt an arm go around my shoulder gently, moving me along. I didn't need to look to know who it was; Edmund.
Simon gave me a look of concern and started talking again.
"This family lost there child just three days ago…" Simon said as we kept walking. I looked up at him; he was looking at the house with sorrow. We walked a bit more until one of the men asked the question that we all wanted to know in a hush tone.
"How old was the child?"
We all looked at Simon who was looking straight at the house, he swallowed.
"The child was three months old." He answered quietly. Expressions of horror came upon all of our faces. I couldn't believe it that child hadn't even lived and it was died.
"How?" I asked to no one in particular. Edmund looked over at me and back at the house, we where getting closer.
"The horse gave it the child a disease." Edmund answered looking at the horse.
That explains the dead horse… they killed it. But slowly I started understanding why we were here.
"Was the horse magical?" I asked him slowly, he looked at me. He nodded slowly but Simon was the one that talked.
"Where here to arrest the men for killing the horse." Simon said taking out the papers. My eyes went wide and my mouth fell.
I grabbed Edmunds arm gently to grab his attention. The groups notice this and kept on moving. He looked at me and I saw it in his eyes; He didn't think this was fair either. But I still told him.
"You can't do that. You can't arrest him. That man did it out of pain he wasn't aware of what he was doing… That horse could have given them the disease too. He needs to stay here with his wife." I told Edmund, my eyes started getting wet. Thinking about the injustice that was about to happen.
Edmund's eyes soften; he looked down at me trying to find words. Slowly I saw them become hard again. No…
"That's no excuse. They weren't completely sure that the horse carried the disease. There was no reason for that horse to die." Edmund told me sharply but in a harsh tone.
I looked at him stunned. He can't really think that true. But then I saw it flash he's eyes the he wasn't sure, this wasn't his decision. But if it isn't his then who is it? I look at around, my eyes feel on Simon. No, Simon wouldn't do this I could tell by he's tone that he disapproved. But then who?
I looked back at Edmund, he was looking at curiously. He's eyes met mine's and that's when the name came to my mind.
Peter.
"Peter told you to do this didn't he?" I asked Edmund gritting my teeth. Edmund gave me a small smile.
"You sure are intelligent and witty. " He told me slowly and started walking back.
"You don't have to do this Edmund. You don't have to do everything Peter says." I told him, he stopped walking at turned to me.
"Yes I do. This is the decision that we have chosen. I'm doing what I think is right." He told me, I gave him a look that told him I didn't believe him.
Edmund looked away from me and smiled, he turn back to me.
"There's nothing to talk about here Emma. There's nothing you can do to stop this." He told me.
I felt pain hit my chest with every word he said. He must have seen my pained expression because he came back up to me. I just glared up at him, my mouth in a firm line. He opened his mouth to say something but stopped, he sighed and looked away.
"Look just wait here." He told me giving me a small smile and going back to the group who had watch most of the scene unfold.
I felt myself blush and move under a tree. Hidden from the world, I did as I was told. I stood and watched everything.
I watched the men being torn away from his house and wife, I saw Simon and the other's trying to keep him under control, his wife run out crying for him pleading them to not take him, I saw her run with her died baby still in her arms, I saw her fall down on the floor crying. I saw her world come apart.
I saw it all and didn't do anything about it.
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The carriage pulled up to the castle and we got off. I wasted no time in walking away from everyone and rushing to my room. I walked quickly passed corridors and halls that I've become familiar with. People would give me a worried look and ask what was wrong but I never said anything. I just walked feeling hopeless, useless, and ashamed.
I bumped into someone I looked up to see Susan. She gave me a firm look and pointed at me.
"I really hope you behaved." She told me but I just ignored her and kept moving.
"Emma!" I heard her yell at me.
But I didn't care, I started running toward my room. I entered the sitting room to find my whole family there along with Peter. There heads turned towards me once I entered. Some of them were worried.
But hey after running for the last 15 minute's my hair was al over the place, my face red, and I probably looked like a scared raccoon.
"Emma are you okay?" Peter asked but I just glared at him and went to the door which led to my hallway.
I didn't bother to close the hallway door but once I got to mine room. I locked the door and sank down to the floor. I looked ahead hearing the voices outside, I could hear them but I couldn't understand what they we're saying. I didn't want to.
Yes there was a point were I started crying, but I did it silently not wanting them to know. I just wanted to be alone. But I knew eventually he would come and I was sure I was going to slam the door on his face.
I sat there for hours until I heard the knock I was waiting for.
"Emma open the door." I heard Edmund say, I got up from the floor and opened the door.
He looked guilty as he stared at me and sighed.
"I'm sorry for what I told you." He rubbed his neck with he's hand "Maybe this trip wasn't my best idea."
I looked at him and walked into my room, left him standing at the door.
"Why you got what you wanted."I said softly. He looked dumbfounded and walked into the room.
"I didn't want that men to be arrested Emma." He told me shocked that I would think so, I raised an eyebrow.
"You said you did."I told him confuse, Edmund looked at the floor.
"I said I agreed that what he did was wrong, not that he should be arrested." Edmund explained his neck turning red.
"Sometimes you make absolutely no sense Edmund Pevensie." I stated crossing my arms; Edmund looked up at me and smiled.
"Can you please forgive me Emma?" He asked.
Looking at Edmund I felt like I was talking to a little kid who had stolen candy. He was guilty, ashamed, and embarrassed. Deep down I knew I should be mad at him and not even give him a second look. After all he was the one who had disrespected me. But I couldn't bring myself to do it, I couldn't hurt Edmund. It wasn't because I felt bad for him.
It was because I didn't want to hurt him; I knew that in doing so I would hurt myself even more. Like he did when he talked to me like that. There was one reason for this. I cared about him and he cared about me.
I'm not sure where that will take us but I can't bring myself to shove him out the door and slam it on there face. I just won't do it.
I sighed causing Edmund to look back at me. Oh those eyes. Those perfect brown eyes full of compassion and regret.
I can't do it. I told myself.
"Okay." I said he looked at me confuse.
"Huh?" He asked, I chuckled. He's so clueless…
"I forgive you." I told him.