A/N: Thank you to the reviewers and alerters. :)
This chapters a little small, but it has a life of it's own and I have a scructure to this story.
Dear diary,
It's been two days since I came to the realization that I would let Stefan go. Since I last wrote in my journal.. Nothing feels the same. Everyone around me that I care about has lost at least one person they love in this past year. When will it end? I long for the days when Katherine was our biggest worry, but then that all came back down to Klaus anyway.
It's been two days since I've seen Damon. I had told him that I just needed a couple of days to clear my head. He didn't argue with me, he simply looked at me, nodded his head and said he understood. I wasn't stupid though, I knew that this didn't include him looking out for me when I slept. Some would find this creepy, but the knowledge that Damon is just outside my house, keeping watch, calms me, allows me the few hours of sleep I allow myself.
During these last couple of days, I've spent most of my time with Caroline, as she's also going through so much, and things with Tyler have become particularly strained, I thought we both needed a couple of girlie days to vent, cry, laugh...
*"Okay so this is my idea..." said Caroline as she burst through the front door of Elena's house and into the kitchen were Elena was making some toast.
"Morning" she greeted.
Caroline plunked down about 6 bags and a suitcase.
"Are you moving in?" Elena asked in amazement.
"Funny!" she replied. "We need a girls night! facials, pizza, new clothes..."
"Wait, you bought me clothes?" she cut her off.
Caroline smiled. "I bought ME clothes and you can have what I don't really want! This way, you don't feel like I'm «doing» things for you. "
Elena smiled.
"So where's Bonnie?" Caroline asked.
"I don't know, probably with Matt." Elena answered looking up.
Caroline furrowed her brow in confusion. Elena could see that she wanted to comment. She started a few times then stopped herself. It's actually quite amusing to see a confused, slightly annoyed, unjustified Caroline.
"Relax, she's not that comfortable being around here these days." Elena said as She motioned to Jeremy's room upstairs.
"I see... So first I thought we'd start off with a Champagne brunch, then move onto facials, then pedi/manis, then a fashion show, dinner, wine, movie.. Then pass out!" said Caroline matter-of-factly.
Elena thought about it for a moment. There were so maybe reasons to argue the idea, but after everything, the one thing that she was sure of was that life was short.
"Sounds like a plan!"
Caroline squealed and jumped up and down clapping her hands.*
ooooooo
A smile appeared on Elena's face from the memories of the last couple of days with Caroline.
ooooooo
Surprisingly enough, Caroline is exactly what I needed. And now it's back to reality. It's been two days since Klaus left. Two days since Stefan left. When do I get my life back? What kind of a life will I have being Klaus' blood bag? There are only two options; we kill Klaus, or I turn.
Elena stared at the last word she had written and remembered that conversation she had with Stefan on top of that mountain. She didn't want to become a vampire more than anything, and it hurt her to say that to Stefan more than anything. But everything is different now.
Not too long ago I told Stefan that I wanted a normal life, I wanted to get married, have kids, grow old... I did not want to become a vampire. But that was when I thought Klaus had what he needed, before I became the blood bag.
How many more attempts at killing Klaus are we going to get? How many more people lives am I going to put in danger until this is done?
ooooooo
Elena had become angry, determined. She put her pen down, grabbed her journal, jacket, keys and stormed down the stairs, out the front door, in her car and headed straight to The Boarding House.
A/N: I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. The next one will be about what happened at The Boarding House.