A solid tear rolled slowly down her cheek. It was time to talk about a piece of her past she wasn't sure she was ready to talk about. B ut, then again, Jason always understood her, and accepted her. She knew she had to talk about it sometime, and apparently that time would be right now. Hopefully she could make it through with breaking down like she had so many times before.
She walked over to the couch, and sat with making a sound. Her eyes were glossy, and all Jason wanted to do was hold her, but he knew if did that, Sam would never tell him the answers to all his questions.
"I don't know where to start." she said, her voice quiet, and slightly quavering.
Jason sat slowly on the couch beside Sam, and placed his hand on top of hers, comforting her without words.
"Okay. About a week after I left here, I met a man, his name was Justin Gaber, he was a doctor. He was so sweet to me, and he treated me like I was special. It was something, that I missed after leaving Port Charles. He knew that I was alone, and he was always there for me. One night, we were having dinner, and he started asking all these questions about my past. I wasn't exactly ready to talk about that so we changed the subject . Big mistake. He kissed me, and at first it was slight and sweet, but then he started feeling all over me. He got mad, when I pulled away, and said that he needed to be with me. I refused and he got really agressive. The next thing I know, he has me pinned down, and he pulls out a needle. He injects into me, and it felt like I was paralyzed. He placed me on a bed, and he.... and he......he umm........he" Sam tried to finish, but she couldn't, as the tears began rolling, and didn't show any signs of stopping.
Jason let logic go out the window, as he pulled her into his arms. She fit there so perfectly. He held her, without saying a word, just to let her know he was there for her, and that he wasn't judging her. She sobbed loudly into his shirt, and he could feel the tears seeping through it. Sam slowly lifted her head, and lokked into his eyes. She neede to finish her story.
"Justin climbed on top of me. I remember telling him to get off, anf I remember trying to fight, but I couldn't my body wouldn't move, so I tried screaming, and that didn't work either because I found my voice couldn't go above a whisper. So I asked him to stop, but he didn't instead he continued to strip me of all my clothing, and kiss me. I kept begging him to stop, but he didn't. He kept going until her was tired, and then he left. Before he did though, he said if I told anyone, that he would make sure that I would regret it. I never heard from him again." Sam stated.
Jason was silent, and with Jason it was better for him to be loud and screaming, than to be silent, Silent meant someone was about to die. Justin was about to die. Jason pulled Sam closer to him, to show her he would protect her with his life. All he could think about was how Sam had dealt with it alone, and how Alana could possibely have a rapist for a father. It was official, Justin Gaber was going to die, and Jason was gonna see to it himself.
"Do you hate me?" Sam asked, out of the blue.
Jason looked at her puzzled, before responding "I could never hate you Sam."
"I was so tupid." she accused herself, "I let a man use me again. I did the one thing I swore I'd never do again."
"Sam you were so distraught, and hurt. You missed feeling special, and he took at advantage of that." Jason answered. He didn't like the fact that Sam was blaming herself for something that wasn't her fault.
Sam cried loudly into Jason's shirt. Her hands clenched his shirt, aand she pulled him close. She just wanted Jason to hold her. She needed to finally let things out, maybe not all at once, but gradually. She knew Jason could accept her, she just had to learn how to accept herself first. She had kept it all inside for Alana's sake. She wanted Alana to believe her mother was strong, and that she could handle anything, not that she was weak, and that she cried all the time. Alana was what kept Sam going.
Jason stroked Sam's hair, and held her, as she cried. Everytime she sobbed, Jason could swear, he heard his heart breaking. He loved Sam so much, and to see her like this killed him inside. He wanted to see Sam happy, and smiling like she used to, before she left town.
"I'm here for you." Jason said. He meant every word. He wasn't gonna turn his back on Sam like most of Port Charles, New York already had. He was going to stand by her no matter what.
"Thank you." Sam said wiping her eyes, and easing herself out of Jason's arms. "I'm sorry I ruined your shirt."
"Sam, my shirt is not important, what's important it that you are okay. Are you okay?" he questioned. He really needed to know.
"Fine" Sam said, avoiding his eyes. The truth was she wasn't fine, because she hadn't dealt with the fact that it had happened. She had been raped.
"No your not." Jason said, pulling Sam back into his arms.
Once Sam stopped crying, she got up and decided to check on Alana. She flipped on the light, after opening the little girls door. Sam smiled as she watched her daughter sleep. She was so precious. Alana had her teddy bear in her arms, and a huge smile plastered on her face. She was dreaming a peaceful dream, which made Sam feel better.
She walked back into her living room, and spotted Jason sitting on the couch. She could tell by his facial expression, that Jason had many questions. She just hoped she was prepared to answer them.
She walked over to him, and sat back down on the couch. She slowly placed her hand in Jason's. He gripped it tightly, yet gently at the same time.
"Sam is there a chance Alana is my daughter?" Jason asked, looking deep into her eues.
"Yes." Sam breathed.
She had expected Jason to blow up, and be angry. Instead, he pulled her into his arms.
"Wait, why aren't you mad?" Sam asked.
"There's a chance that Alana could be my daughter. Our daughter. Sam why wouldn't I be happy. The chance to share something as special as Alana with you is amazing." Jason answered.
Sam smiled, and pulled Jason closer to her. She stared into hie eyes, as he stared into hers. They inched closre together. Somehow Jason's arms had mananged to moved down her backside, as Sam's found their way into Jason's hair. Jason smirked as hips lips grazed Sam's. They weren't quite touching, just grazing. Sam could feel Jason's sweet breathe on her skin, and she almost moaned. Just as Jason's lips were about to touch Sam's, Alana burst into the room.
She giggled when she saw the position Jason and Sam were in.
"Mommy what are you and Jason doing?" asked Alana.
"Uhh." Sam froze. She didn't know how to eplain to a four year old, that she was about to make out with her possible father.
So Jason covered, and responded "your mom fell and I caught her."
"Silly mommy, your always falling." said Alana.
Jason smirked.
"Hey you two, we are not discussing my clumsiness." Sam said.
Sam qucikly pulled herself out of Jason's lap, and walked over to Alana.
"Sweetie, what are you doing up?" Sam asked.
"I want to watch the Little Mermaid." replied Alana.
Jason took that as his que to leave and rose from his seat on the couch. As he was making his way towards the soor, Alana ran over and jumped in front of the dorr. She didn't want Jason to go.
"Wait!" she exclaimed, "Jason will you watch the movie, with my and mommy?'
How could Jason resist such a sweet little girl, like Alana. She was so amazing, and even though Jason didn't know for sure that she was his daughter, she had him wrapped around her finger. In fact, even JNason couldn't believe when he said, "sure, I'll watch it with you."
Sam was shocked. She was barely able to get Jason to watch Gone With The Wind, but now here was Alana getting Jason to watch The Little Mermaid. This she had to see.
Alana had decided she wanted to watch the movie in the dark, so Sam flipped of the light, and sat back down on the couch. She sat back down on the couch, and sub-consciously moved closer to Jason, until she was practically sitting in his lap, with her feet up on the couch. Alana had decided she wanted a front row seat, so she sat in front of the television.
When the movie ended, Alana rose from the ground, and yawned. She walked over to Jason and Sam. The two had had fallen asleep halfway through the movie, with their heads touching. Jason's arm curled around Sam's frame in a protective, and loving manner. Alan smiled, and danced off to her room, to head back to sleep.
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The next morning, Jason woke up first to find Sam curled up in his lap. He saw that his arm was wrapped around her and smiled. She was so beautiful. When he removed his arm from around her, Sam moaned. Jason smirked, and wrapped both arms around her. Slowly, he allowed sleep to claim him once again, only this time he had a gigantic smile playing across his face.
Sam awoke and snuggled closer into Jason's arms. She missed feeling loved. She missed being held, and mostly she missed being in Jason Morgan's arms. Jason awoke a few seconds afterward, when Sam's raven hair tickled his nose.
"Hi" he said.
"Hi" she breathed.
"Mommy, mommy" Alana said walking into the room, and jumping on the couch.
"Yes sweetie!" said Sam.
"What's for breakfast. Ooh, can Jason make it because you always burn it, and I don't want cereal." she said.
Jason chuckled.
Sam had to laugh at the one too.
"Why don't we ask Jason?" suggested Sam.
"Will you Jason?" asked Alana.
Both Sam and Alana looked at Jason, with hopeful eyes. He couldn't say no to the both of them, let alone one of them.
"Alright" he answered.
"Yay!" Alana jumped off the couch.
She grabbed both Jason and Sam's hands and tried pulling them toward the kitchen. Insted Sam ease out of Jason's grasp, and he picked Alana up and began tickling her. Sam smiled at the scene. She was glad the Alana liked Jason, and vice versa.
After they ate breakfast, Jason had somehow been tricked into taking Sam and Alana to the park.
He rushed home to change clothes. He realized that being away from Alana and Sam for long periods of time made him miss them so much.
He knocked on Sam's door, and Alana opened it.
"Alana" said Sam, "you know you're not supposed to answer the door without asking who it is first."
"Sorry mommy." Alana said before grabbing Jason's hand. He allowed her to pull him into her bedroom.
"Want to play barbie's?" she asked, looking hopeful.
As much as Jason loved Alana, he couldn't see himself playing Barbie's. He didn't even know how. Luckily Sam saved him when she opened the door, and announced she was ready to go. Thank God.
"Can we have a picnic, Jason?" she asked.
Jason lookied at Sam to see if she was oaky with this. She looked into his eyes, and nodded her head.
TheY sat in a hidden area and the park. For luch they had sim plae sandwhiches, and chips. Alana was so happy when Jason gave he a fudge brownie. Alana loved chocolate. Sam shook her head. It was gonna take alot to get Alana to bed tonight.
Alana had decided that she wanted to play on the playground, si Sam and Jason found a bench in the park to sit on, where they could see her while she played.
Jason had decided he wanted to resume his conversation with Sam, from yesterday, so he asked, "Did you ever get a paternity test?"
Sam immediately knew what he was talking about, and responded, "No."
"Why?" he coaxed.
"I was afraid. I mean what if Alana turns out to be Justin's. I mean I love her, don't get me wrong but, if Justin is Alana's father I won't be able to look at her without remembering that night."
"And if she's mine?" he asked.
"If she yours Jason, then Jason I'll change her last name from McCall to Morgan. She will be your daughter." Sam replied.
"You mean, you wouldn't keep her from me. You..you know because of my lifestyle and all?" he asked.
"Jason" Sam said, placing her hand in his, "I'm not Elizabeth. I believe that if you love a child enough, it doesn't matter what their parents do for a living. I mean sure she'd be in danger, but I know you would protect her Jason. I trust with my life, why not trust you with hers. I see they way you act around her. She has you wrapped around her little finger, and that's only because you love her. You love a little girl, you don't even know is yours. Jason if you didn't love her, you wouldn't have cooked us breakfast, or watched The Little Mermaid with us, and you wouldn't protect Alan they way you do. I mean the way you stood up to Tyler was incredible. Thanks for that."
"You're welcome, and I do love her Sam, but she's no the only one I love." Jason responded. Sam peered up at him, shocked.
"You love me?" Sam asked. She couldn't believe it, Jason still loved her, after all these years.
Jason responded by placing his lips softly on Sam's. She almost melted in his arms.
"Eww" Alana said when she spotted the pair kissing.
"Come on kid, let's get you all cleaned up." said Sam, breaking the kiss softly.
"Awww man!" Alana shrugged.
Jason smiled at her.
Jason quickly noticed that both Sam and Alana had droopy eyes. He picked Alan up, and wrapped his free hand around Sam's waist. When they got to the car, Jason put Alana in the backseat while Sam settled herself in the passenger seat. As he was driving them home, Sam's head fell onto Jason's shoulder. He smiled, when the scent of vanilla hit his nostrils. God he loved that smell. It was Sam's smell, and he loved it.
They arrived at Sam's apartment, and Jason picked Alan up from the back seat. His fingers intertwined with Sam's as they got to her door. She slowly opened the door, and they walked in.
Jason once again took Alana to her room, and tucked her in before placing a kiss on top of head head and whispering "I love you Alana Morgan."
Jason didn't care if Alana was his biological daughter or not, she loved her just the same, and he loved her mother too.
When he walked back into the living room, he saw Sam dozing off on the couch. He walked over to her, and picked he up, smiling when she nuzzled her head into the crook of his neck. Jason wandered around Sam's apartment until he found her room, and walked over to her bed, shutting the door behind him. He attepted to lay her down on the bed but Sam held onto his neck.
"Stay with me" she mumbled.
"Okay" Jason responded. He took of his shirt and shoes, and joined Sam in bed. Once he was situated under the covers, Sam wrapped her arms around his waists, and Jason pulled her close.
Jason spent half the night, just watching Sam sleep. She was so angelic, what with that small smile on her face.
Jason didn't know what came over him he placed his lips on Sam's. He kissed her with blinding passion. When his tounge entered her mouth, Sam immediately woke up. She responded to the kiss by letting her hands roam Jason's hari. His hand began making its way up Sam's shirt. The next thing either on of them knew, Sam's jeans were unbuttoned. Before they could go any further, they heard Alana scream from her bedroom.
The pair jumped up, and ran to Alana's room. The pushed the door open,m and Sam rushed towards her daughter.
"Alana, what's wrong?" Jason asked. He hated to see her in pain, or scared.
"There's a monster in my closet. Jason will you get him out?" she asked.
"Sure he responded" and opened her closet.
When he opened Alana's closet, he wasn't expecting to see what he saw.
WHAT DID JASON SEE?
HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THIS CHAPTER?
WHAT DID YOU THINK OF THE JASAM INTERRUPTIONS?
HOW DID YOU FEEL ABOUT SAM'S CONFESSION?
WHAT DID YOU THINK OF JASON CALLING ALANA, ALANA MORGAN?
CAN YOU BELIEV JASON ALMOST PLAYED BABRBIE'S WITH ALANA?
WHAT ABOUT THE LITTLE MERMAID SCENE?
IS JUSTIN GABER GONNA MAKE AN APPEARANCE?
EXPECT TOO SEE OTHER CHARACTERS MAKE AN APPEARANCE SOON!
DON'T WORRY SAM WILL BE SEEING ALEXIS, NICHOLAS, AND ELIZABETH PRETTY SOON!
TYLER WILL BE BACK!
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