A/N I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING! I ONLY OWN THIS PLOT! Thanks to my Beta Elena Rain.

A few days went by and Bella remained quiet and shut down. She only opened up to Edward when the others were out hunting, and when Edward was out hunting, Bella stayed locked in her bedroom until he came back. Carlisle and Esme worked on planning the funeral for her mother. Everyone was starting to worry.

One afternoon something happen and Bella lost it completely. She and Edward were downstairs in the kitchen, just having some lunch. Carlisle came in carrying a box.

"Bella, this is some stuff I've collected from your house, just some things I thought you might like to keep, we're getting rid of everything else."

Bella just nodded softly and dug through the box as he set it down. There were some pictures and jewelry but what stood out the most was her father's vase that held his ashes. She picked it up from the box and held it close to her chest.

"Let's go take all this up to your room." Edward said softly to her.

She nodded. She kept the vase close to her and got down off the chair and slowly started to walk upstairs. Edward followed close behind her. The next moment everything seemed to slow down as everything in Bella's life suddenly came crashing down around her.

She missed a step as she climbed up the stairs. Edward caught her easily but the vase fell to the crashing to a million different pieces causing all of the ash to spill out all over the floor.

Bella froze as she looked at it, she never looked inside the vase or even thought about it since the funeral, now she realized all the ash all over the floor, that was all the remained of her father. Everyone little spec was some small piece of her father and now it was all over the place. Her heart rate picked up as she started to fill dizzy and light headed. She started to feel like she was being suffocated.

"No!" she cried out.

"Bella, it's ok, let's get you upstairs, Carlisle and Esme can fix it."

"No! No!"

She sunk down to her knees and started to try and gather it all up in her hands, when it just slipped through her fingers she started to cry harder. "No, no, no!"

Edward lifted her up and carried her upstairs. He went into the bedroom and sat down on the bed. He just let Bella cry. He knew reality was finally setting in and she was just now realizing what it truly meant to be cremated but also just how it felt to lose both your parents. She cried and cried as Edward just held her and soothed her. There was nothing else he could do.

Finally she settled down and looked up at him. He smiled softly and kissed her forehead. "Do you feel better?"

She shrugged. "I'm sorry, I made a mess."

"Don't worry about it. Carlisle and Esme can handle it. You know Bella, my mom and dad were cremated too and I hated it."

"Really?"

He nodded. "I was so angry that they were nothing more than a pile of ash trapped inside of a small vase. I didn't care that it's what they wanted. I hated it."

Bella nodded. "That's how I feel."

"One day, Carlisle took me back home. Back to where I grew up, back to where my family and I lived together. He told me to set my parents free, speared the ashes around the house and set them free. Honestly, Lovely, I felt so much better after that. I was finally ok with having them cremated and every couple years I got back to that house and I visit with them."

Bella smiled softly.

"Do you think if we spread your dad's ashes you'd feel better?"

Bella nodded again. "I just feel like he's trapped in the vase and he's suffocating. My dad always had claustrophobia, ever since he was kid. It's why he liked fishing so much because there was so much open space around him. He never felt trapped or closed in anywhere. Now, he's trapped in a vase and he's suffocating."

"What do you say we go spread his ashes, tomorrow? We can take a boat out, go to his favorite fishing spot and speared the ashes. Let him be free?"

"I'd like that….a lot."

"Ok, it's a date."

"Is this the surprise date, Alice told me about?"

Edward chuckled. "No, but I decided not to do that anymore because you knew about it."

She pouted.

He chuckled. "I just have to wait for you to stop expecting it."

"And hope Alice doesn't tell me."

"That too."

Bella giggled.

"Someone sounds like they're feeling better." Carlisle said as he and Esme walked into the room.

"Edward always makes me feel better." Bella smiled.

"We gathered all the ash from the floor. We put it into a different vase because the other broke."

Bella nodded. "Edward and I are going out tomorrow and we're going to set my dad free."

"I think that's a great idea." Esme smiled. "Would you like us to join you?"

Bella shook her head. "I'd love that but we can't all fit on one boat, but thank you for offering. I'll need you all more when I get back."

"Then we will be here." Carlisle said. "Now, on a more….sadder note I've got some information on your mother's funeral."

Bella bit her lip and nodded. "Ok…."

"We're able to transfer the body back to Florida. We can have the funeral within this coming week."

"But how?"

"Don't worry about how, Carlisle and I will handle everything."

"No, I mean how, Florida is hot, the sun is always shining, how can you blend it?"

Carlisle laughed. "Bella, we've been doing this for a long time. Don't worry so much. We know how to blend in."

She sighed. "Ok. I guess I'm just nervous."

"You have every right to be. Just remember we're all going to be right here with you."

Bella nodded. "Thank you."

"You're welcome, Bella."

Carlisle and Esme left the room. Bella sighed. "It's going to be a rough week."

"I'll be right by your side the entire time, helping you through it." Edward told her.

"I love you so much."

"I love you so much too."

They shared a kiss on the lips.

The next day, Edward and Bella were out bright and early; they wanted to get there before any other fishermen came to fish. They rented a boat and Edward rowed them out to Charlie's favorite finishing spot. He stopped and looked at Bella.

"Are you ready?" he asked.

She nodded. She took the lid from the vase and handed it to Edward.

"I love you, Dad. I hope you're happier now. You're free."

She reached inside and grabbed a handful and tossed it onto the water. She felt like a huge weight was just lifted off her shoulders. She smiled at that feeling and continued to toss the ash all around the boat into the water.

Finally it was empty and Bella sighed.

"How are you feeling?" he asked.

Bella smiled. "Better than I have in a long time, Edward. Thank you, so much."

"You're welcome. Are you ready to go back?"

She nodded. "I know my Dad is at peace now, I can be too."

Edward smiled and kissed her head. He rowed them both back to the shore.

They got back home and Esme and Carlisle were waiting.

"How was it?" Esme asked.

"Good, I actually feel a lot better." Bella smiled.

"Bella, it's ok. You don't have to hide from us. It's ok if you're hurting." Carlisle said.

Bella giggled. "Jasper, help me out here."

He laughed. "She's telling the truth. She's feels a lot better than she has in a very long time. Which I'm very happy for."

Bella giggled again. "Sorry, about that."

He just smiled. "Don't worry about."

"So…what happens now? When is the funeral for my mother?" Bella asked.

"This weekend. We will spend the weekend in Jacksonville and come home in time for you guys to go back to school. " Carlisle explained.

"Oh goodie." Emmet said.

Bella laughed. It felt good to laugh again. Edward smiled at the beautiful sound.

"Can anyone come?" Bella asked.

"Anyone you want to invite is welcome….although I'm sure you only have one person in mind."

Bella nodded. "I'm not going to force him to come, but if he wants to make things right between us he needs to come. I'll give him the information and if he shows up will be up to him. I'm going to the other side."

"Bella, please be careful, can't you just call him and we can meet by the river? He hurt you once I can't take the chance of him hurting you again?" Edward said.

Bella smiled. She nodded. A part of her was still scared of Jacob, that he'd hurt her again or betray her in some way.

"Ok, but I don't want to scare him so only Emmet is coming with me."

"Bella!" Edward started.

"Edward, he is the strongest, he will be able to protect me if Jacob tries something. I trust, Emmet. I'll be fine."

Edward sighed and looked to his brother. "If she comes home with so much as a tiny cut I will rip you apart."

"Don't worry; I'm not going to let that wolf touch her."

"Maybe, I should go with you two. I can keep everything calm." Carlisle said.

Bella giggled. "I think that's a better idea."

She grabbed her cell phone and called Jacob. They agreed to meet by the river and Carlisle, Emmet, and Bella, left the house.

They got to the river Jacob was already there.

"Look, my mom wanted to be buried in Jacksonville with her family. SO all of us are flying out there tomorrow and we're going to spend the weekend there. The funeral is on Saturday at noon, at the Jacksonville funeral home. I'd really like you to be there but if you don't show up and skip it like you did with my dad's funeral…I'll understand."

"Bella, I don't feel right being there. I played a big part in her death."

"It's up to you Jacob. I won't be angry if you come. I want you to be there but if you don't want to that's your choice. I'll just assume that means our friendship means nothing to you and you don't care about me at all. It's up to you."

"Bella, you can't base our friendship on a funeral. I don't feel right being there. I am the reason your mother is dead. I may not have killed her but I'm the reason Phil was able to kill her. I just feel like I shouldn't be there. But I do care about you Bella, our friendship means the world to me. I hate to lose it because of some stupid disagreement."

"It shouldn't be a disagreement. You're supposed to be my best friend. I shouldn't have to invite you to my mother's funeral. You should come willingly because you know I'd need you. Some of my friends at school have already brought their plane tickets. If you were really my friend you coming to my mother's funeral wouldn't be a disagreement and you surely wouldn't think it was stupid. It shouldn't matter what happen in the past. If you were really my best friend you'd come and be there for me in my time of need."

With that Bella turned around and headed back to the Cullen's. Emmet glared at Jake and turned to follow Bella.

"You and I both know what the right choice is Jake. I just hope you do it." Carlisle said.

With that he turned and followed the others. Jake turned and ran back home.

They got back home and Edward was waiting.

"How did it go?" he asked.

"Fine." Bella lied.

"She's lying, she's a lot more hurt and upset then she was when she left." Jasper said.

"Jacob doesn't believe he should be at the funeral. Bella does, they had a bit of a disagreement and so Bella's feelings are a bit hurt." Carlisle explained.

"If Carlisle wasn't there I would have ripped his head off." Emmet growled.

"I should go pack. We're leaving tomorrow." Bella said softly and went upstairs.

Edward sighed and growled. "If that mutt causes her anymore pain I'm going to kill him."

"Get in line." Emmet said.

Everyone just looked to each other. None of them liked Jacob but they all knew it was important for him to be at the funeral. If he wasn't….Bella would never survive.

The next day went by faster than Elena would have liked. It was the night before the funeral and Bella couldn't sleep. She tossed and turned all night. Every time she closed her eyes she relived her mother's death over and over again. Finally giving up she sighed and sat up against the head board. The bed wasn't all that comfortable either.

"Bella, what is it, Lovely?" Edward asked from next to her.

"I can't sleep. This stupid bed isn't comfortable."

Edward chuckled. "You and I both know it isn't the bed's fault that you can't sleep."

She sighed. "Tomorrow….I can't. I just can't say goodbye to another person I love, Edward."

"It's not going to be easy, But, Baby you have so much love and support behind you. Even if Jake doesn't show up, you have me and my family, some of your friends from school, friends of your mother, even friends of your father."

"That doesn't make it any easier.

"I know baby, I'm sorry. I wish I could do more for you. But it's going to be a lot worse if you don't get sleep."

"But I can't."

"Come here, lay on me." Edward soothed.

Bella sighed and lay on Edward. He rubbed her back and hummed softly to her. Bella quickly and easily fell asleep after that.

The next day at the church everyone was with Bella out in the hall.

"You ready to go in?" Edward asked

"As ready as I'll ever be…" Bella said.

They all walked into the room where the service was being held. Her mother's casket was in front of the room. Bella walked over to her mom's casket. She leaned on it putting her face on it and crying.

"Do you want to be alone?" Carlisle asked.

Bella shook her head. "I want this day to be over with."

"It will be, Lovely, soon." Edward said.

Everyone sat down in their seats. Bella continued to look by the door, in hopes of seeing, Jacob.

"Are we ready to begin?" the Pastor asked a few minutes later.

"No, everyone isn't here yet." Bella said quickly.

"Baby, it's already fifteen minutes passed noon, if he hasn't shown up by now…."

"No, he has to come, he just has to come." Bella cried.

"Look, I don't want to rush you all but I have another service that starts as 2."

"Please, just another minute longer. He'll be here." Bella begged.

"Bella, just face it he stood you up again." Emmet said.

"Who stood Bella up?" a voice asked.

Everyone looked toward the voice and smiled. It was Jacob. "Sorry, I didn't want to be late I hit traffic."

Jacob went over and sat on the other side of Bella. He wrapped one arm around her shoulder. She gave him a one armed hug. "Thank you for coming." She whispered

"It's what best friends do."

Bella nodded. She looked back to the Pastor, "You can start now."

The Pastor nodded and started the funeral. The service was very nice. People got up and spoke. Bella wanted to but she couldn't bring herself to do it. She cried to whole time. Sometimes so hard she stopped breathing. Thankfully she had Jacob and Edward to always get her lungs working again. After the indoor service was over, everyone headed to the cemetery.

At the cemetery the Pastor said a few words. Bella's body was so limb if it wasn't for Edward and Jacob holding her she would be on the floor. The only movement her body was making was her chest heaving trying to breathe through her hysterical cries.

Just as they started to lower the casket Bella screamed out "NO WAIT STOP PLEASE!"

Everyone looked at her. "I can't say good-bye to her I can't and I won't" Bella said. She broke fee and ran to the edge of the grass clawing at it screaming on top of her lungs.

"NO! NO! NO! SHE HATES BEING ALONE! SHE HATES BEING ALONE! DON'T PUT HER DOWN THERE PLEASE DON'T PUT HER DOWN THERE PLEASE, PLEASE! I'LL DO ANYTHING! ANYTHING!"

Edward and Jacob went over and pulled her away, she struggled to break free. She knew deep down it was useless, it was a vampire and a werewolf, she'd never break free but she had to try and stop them.

"NO! NO! NO! LET ME GO! NO! NO! NO!"

"Bella, calm down. It's ok." Jacob said.

"NO! NO! NO! LET ME GO, LET ME GO!" she screamed.

"Jacob let her go." Edward said.

Knowing better than to argue Jacob let her go. Edward turned her around and she buried her face in his chest as he rubbed her back. He lifted her up and she wrapped her legs around his waist and her arms around his neck. She moved her face and buried it in his shoulder. Edward went under her shirt and gently scratched her back softly humming into her ear. She started to slowly calm down. She went to look up but Edward put his hand up blocking her view so she didn't have to see the casket being lowered into the ground. After it was finally lowered everyone stood there for a moment of silence. All that could be heard was Bella's hysterical cries.

"I'm going to take her back to the hotel." Edward said softly to his family.

They all nodded and Edward took off. Jacob followed behind him. It had been a difficult day but Edward knew Jacob showing up made things just a little bit easier.

A/N will Edward and Jacob be able to be aside their difference in order to help Bella heal, or will Bella lose another person she loves? Find out in the next chapter. Leave me your thoughts in a review.