Taking charge

Chapter ten

Sara attempted to busy herself as best as she could but it was useless. Catherine's remark was unnerving her.

This was a bad idea, Sara reached for the phone to tell Greg not to come round but the knocking at the door stopped her. Cursing she straightened her shirt and headed to the door. She could do this… she had to do this.

Opening the door she found Greg grinning "hey… brought you something" Greg offered as he held up a bag holding a tube of ice cream.

"Thanks… um Greg I hate to do this" she saw the fear and disappointment spread across his face and Sara felt her heart sink.

"I forgot Lotte was going out with Catherine. It's just me… if you don't want to stay" Sara trailed off, Greg studied for a moment and she feared that he was still mad at her for her behaviour the other night. However after a minute he shrugged and held the ice cream out to her "I'll drop this off… when she coming back" Greg asked as Sara stared at him. He hadn't forgiven her but he wasn't completely mad at her.

"Sara… your staring" he stated with a chuckle that made her cheeks flush, she stepped aside allowing him in, he hesitated before walking in and placed the ice cream on the side "um… tomorrow, Lindsey's going to drop her off at school" Sara told him closing the door. She didn't look at him, she couldn't her stomach was fluttering and she wondered when it had gotten so hot in her apartment. Greg looked at her and tilted his head, no doubt wondering what was wrong with her now.

"oh right… how comes you didn't go with them" Greg asked innocently as Sara turned and walked to the freezer grabbing the ice cream from the bag as she did "oh you know… things to do" Sara muttered wondering why the cool air from the freezer didn't stop her from feeling hot.

"Oh… I better go then" Greg offered but Sara spun round and shook her head "no" she blushed when Greg raised his eyebrows at her a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips "sorry but I was going to have some lunch… if you wanted to you can stay" Sara stated as Greg shrugged then removed his jacket laying it across the back of the couch turning back to Sara who look away "beside…" she couldn't finish as she avoided his gaze "what" he asked folding his arms and Sara found the floor so interesting… and her hands couldn't help but pull at each other "I think we need to talk" Sara whispered and she noticed that Greg stepped forward not hearing her "what" he asked as Sara lifted her head and looked at him "I think we need to talk" she said again and Greg lost his smile. He shifted his feet and ran a hand through his hair. Resting his hand against his neck "right" he mumbled before he turned and walked over to the couch and slunk down.

"Look about the other night… I shouldn't have pushed, it isn't my place. In fact I probably shouldn't spend so much time around here with Lotte and everything" Greg offered but Sara gripped the counter tightly "no… I mean I don't mind" Sara admitted as Greg look to her "just with Lotte" Greg dared but Sara didn't look at him.

"Look I just wanted to say sorry… I didn't mean to bite your head off. It was just… I was tired" Sara declared but was surprised when Greg snorted and she looked at him. he sat shaking his head before looking over at her "is that it… you were tired… what about the other times when you… when you act like you did" Greg asked in a low tone slowly bringing his eyes up to her. Sara adverted her gaze and looked down "I know Greg… that I push people away… but it's just… how I deal" Sara offered but Greg snorted once more and stood "well that's not good enough anymore… you have Lotte to think about and I can't…" Greg broke off and Sara finally stared at him.

"Greg I just…admitted that I don't let people close… it's, what I do" "and I'm not disagreeing Sara but… how long will this last before you close up again" Greg demanded. Sara turned away from him and gripped onto the counter, keeping her temper in check. She knew what he was saying was the truth but she didn't want to hear it. In fact she just wanted to say what she wanted and have everything be ok… she didn't think that he would say anything back… would point out the truth.

"Greg… I'm sorry" she whispered but then shook her head "you know what forget it" Sara declared firmly before she turned and glared at him "I'm sorry that I…" Sara shook her head and walked towards the bedroom but Greg's hand wrapped around her arm and spun her around to face him. She didn't even notice that he had moved towards her.

"Don't… don't start and then walk away… I want" Greg let go of her arm and ran a hand through his hair. He looked down and Sara couldn't help but feel rooted to the spot.

Her voice was hushed "what do you want" Sara asked feeling hot tears forcing their way forward. Greg still didn't look at her, his hand falling to his side "I want to be apart of your life… yours and Lotte's" Greg stated and Sara frowned "you are" she offered feeling ashamed at how she acted once more.

"Sara…" he looked at her and Sara could see unshed tears glistening in his eyes "I want to be apart of it fully… everything, because… because I…" his voice trailed off and he looked down. She needed him to say it, she didn't want to be the first one… she had to allow him to break through her wall.

"Why Greg… I need to know why" Sara demanded and Greg stared at her "because I love you" he declared in a low tone. Sara swallowed hard, she wanted to run… it was an instinct but looking at Greg, staring into his hazel eyes she didn't want to anymore. She was tired, tired of running and building walls. Reaching out Sara placed a hand against Greg's cheek and gave him a small smile, he watched her unsure before swallowing hard.

"Greg… I'm tired, I just… I don't want to be like this anymore" Sara admitted before Greg studied her before he wrapped his arms around her. She buried her head against his neck and sighed. It was time to move on, to pull the wall down for good. With Greg she would make a new wall, this time not to keep the people she loved but keep them safe.

"Greg" the sound startled him, he glanced down at the brunette engulfed in his arms and a small smile flickered across his face. He kissed the top of her head and nestled back against the pillow "yeah Sara" he asked in the darkness. Sara's arms tighten around his waist and he grinned openly "I'm sorry" Sara started but Greg kissed her head against "don't worry" Greg assured closing his eyes once more "Greg… listen to me… I am sorry I never meant to push you away and I promise I never will" she assured but Greg said nothing more. He snuggled down into the bed and smiled when Sara slowly feel asleep beside him… wrapped in his arms. Maybe everything was going to be ok now.

I know it's short but I had to get this part out before the real action begins. Greg and Sara agnst then fluffly