Taking charge

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Chapter thirteen

Four months later

Greg whistled as he raced up the steps to Sara's apartment. He grinned when he realised just how much time he was spending at his girlfriends apartment, he even thought about asking if they should find somewhere bigger… their own place but figured it wasn't a subject that should be brought up just yet.

He allowed himself into the apartment dropping the bag holding his new change of clothes on the floor and grinned when he saw Sara in the kitchen. She had her back turned to him and she held something in her hands. Greg strolled over to her and kissed her neck "hello beautiful" he drawled against her neck but wished he hadn't when she stiffened. He moved back and watched her for a second he was worried that she was pushing him away… she hadn't done that since the night they became a couple. But then he noticed how tensed she looked, she was angry and by the way she stiffened at his kiss he could only guess she was angry at him.

Racking his mind he tried to remember if there was anything he did or didn't do that would mean him being in the dog house. Finally figuring there wasn't anything he looked at her "Sara" he started but she whirled on him her eyes glistening with anger "honey" "don't- don't you dare honey me… when was you going to tell me, or was you planning on just hiding it from me for the rest of our relationship" Sara snapped causing Greg to swallow hard. He must have really messed up; she looked ready to rip him a new hole.

"What I do" Greg questioned trying to figure out how best to defend himself but the bitter laugh Sara let out caught him off guard "what did you do? How does not telling me about Lucas sound…? I was talking to David today he said it was a real shame that Warrick had to close his case without getting the guy… especially when the victim looked so much like me" Sara growled slamming the coffee cup down and edged towards him "I wondered what the hell he was talking about… turns out Warrick's DB looked just like me, so when I ask Warrick what David was talking about he said that you told him not to say… I thought that couldn't be true… Greg wouldn't hide something from me. But when I looked the case up it turns out that you were hiding more from me then just the fact that the victim looked like me" Sara was snarling now and Greg kept a safe distance between them "Sara" "Lucas killed her Greg… and you didn't tell me" Sara almost yelled at him. Greg swallowed hard and lowered his eyes "Sara" Greg looked up and trailed off… there was nothing to say she was telling the truth he had hid it from her.

"I thought that maybe this relationship would be about being equals…no secrets… guess I was wrong" Sara muttered as Greg stared at her and let out a dry laugh "that's rich coming from you" he stated before Sara got a dangerous look in her eyes "I promised you that I would never push you away again… and I haven't" Sara said in a low and threatening voice.

Greg groaned and began to paced "jeeze Sara" he moaned, he glanced at her to find she hadn't move "do we have to do this" "yes we have to do this… unless you want to leave because you know where the door is" Sara snapped and Greg glared at her "oh that would be easy wouldn't it… you wouldn't break your promise if I walked away" Greg spat and Sara shook her head then she held it. Greg thought that they might be ok but Sara snapped her head up and glared at him with anger "you know what Greg… I promised you, I'm not running in fact I wanted this to be out in the open… I thought…" Sara shook her head and glared at the floor "I thought that we could deal with this, maybe yell but we could deal with this… I would ask you and you would explain why you kept it from me" Sara continued to glare at him then shook her head "you know what screw it… if you think I would break my promise so quickly then let me prove you right" and with that Sara stormed towards the bedroom. Greg flinched when the door slammed shut and he was left in uneasy silence. He was in the doghouse big time, he glanced towards the front door and wondered for a brief moment if he should go, she was upset and wouldn't listen any way.

And as he moved towards it he stopped… he was making her push him away, he was giving her the chance…he was testing her and he groaned before turning and headed towards the bedroom door and decided that he had waited too long to let her go so easily.

He didn't knock he walked straight in to the bedroom to find Sara snatching his clothes off the small chair she had in the corner. She didn't acknowledge him, instead moved to the bed where a bag sat open as though he wasn't there.

She had promised not to push him and she wasn't, he was making her do it.

"Do you really want an answer" Greg asked and Sara stopped but still didn't look at him, she closed her eyes before she dropped the clothes into the bag and headed back. He grew angry; she had demanded an answer she couldn't expect not to hear it now.

"You're getting even if you are pissed at me or not… I didn't tell you I made Warrick and Nick not tell you because I was scared" Greg declared firmly. Sara didn't stop she grabbed more clothes from his appointed draw and moved back to the bed.

"damn it Sara I was scared because I couldn't get this guy and he was back… what do you think I would have done if it was you… or Lotte" Greg declared this time Sara stopped and looked at him.

"It was stupid I know…" he ran a hand through his hair and let it rest against his neck. Letting out a long sigh he rested against the door and watched her, he had become suddenly tired.

"You and Lotte… you've become the world to me, and Lucas was sending us a message. It cut me up because I couldn't get him the first time… and I was mad because Nick and Warrick had kept it from me" Greg stopped when Sara snorted and went back to the draw she didn't pick any clothes up this time instead she simply shifted them around. He simply watched her, amazed at how beautiful she looked even when she was mad. She now turned her dark eyes on him; she was still mad but was willing to listen to him.

"Was that all" she questioned causing Greg to lower his eyes "no… I wanted to protect you; I need to protect you and knowing Lucas was so close I kinder went cave man. I don't want anything to happen to you or Lotte and I thought by keeping it from you would protect you" Greg stated honestly, his voice low and almost defeated. Sara studied him before allowing his clothes fall back into the draw. She walked over to the bed and sighed "oh Greg" she started and slumped down, fiddling with her fingers. Greg watched and when she didn't speak straight away he took it as an invitation to sit with her. He went to sit close to her but she flinched so he sat a safe distance away from her.

"You don't have to" "what protect you" he exclaimed whirling around to look at her but she looked at him a soft smile flickering against her lips "no, you don't have to hide things from me to protect me… Greg me and you… this what ever it is we're doing we're equals in it. I'm too old to deal with that sort of relationship… at this time in my life I need a relationship that is honest and equal… do you understand?" Sara asked as Greg looked down and nodded "yeah" he muttered looking like a little boy who has just been told off. Sara sighed and lifted his head "I don't think you do… Greg I don't need you to be macho, I do like the idea that you want to protect us but I don't need a jock. I want my boyfriend to tell me what scares him… to tell me when his upset. If… if you think you have to hide things from me to protect me and not even talk to me then I don't think it can last" Sara held a hand up to stop him from objecting "but this… what ever me and you have I want it to last, I want you because you're the first person I never wanted to guarded around… I want you to see me, all of me… the cranky version, the happy version, the contempt version, the cranky version and the morning version" Sara told him watching his hazel eyes. He took swallow breaths wondering why he felt so dizzy… then guessing if he hadn't been so madly in love with her before then he was now.

"do you understand now Greg… why I got so angry at you… why I need you to talk to me" Sara asked softly and Greg thought for a moment then nodded "yes… we have to talk, like equals about OUR relationship" Greg stated causing Sara to smile at him then move closer to him and held his hands "that's good Mr Sanders, because I don't want to lose you and I don't want to break any promise I make" Sara told him causing Greg to smile back at her. He lifted his hand to her check and ran a thumb along it. She sighed then slapped him lightly in the chest causing Greg to yelp and stare at her "what was that for" he questioned rubbing his chest. Sara grinned at him and took his hands back in her own "don't think you can pull that shit with me again Gregory Sanders" she ordered as Greg grinned and nodded before he kissed her hungrily realising how much he feared losing her. He had been close.

Sara rested their foreheads against each other and looked into his "you're a jackass you know that right?" Sara joked as Greg shrugged smiling at her like an idiot "that's why you love me" Greg stated causing Sara to groan and pull back "barely" she offered and went to stand but Greg grabbed her hand "Sara… I wanted to ask you something" he said nervously, Sara smiled brightly at him "Greg I didn't mean you had to start right now" Sara said but Greg shook his head and took a deep breath "no… I… I think… I know it's so soon… but I… Sara I want you to move in with me… you and Lotte. I don't know I want to make this official, you mean so much to me" Greg rambled lowering his gaze. Sara stiffened and stared at him, he was sure she was going to pull away but when he did look at her he saw happiness and love in her expression "oh Greg" she started before she captured his lips. Greg grinned throughout the smile and looked at her feeling a little breathless by the woman "is that a yes" he asked as Sara nodded eagerly "oh course it is… but if you think we're moving into that crappy apartment you call home" she gave him a stern look and Greg grinned stupidly happily at her "no I want a house… yours and mine. Equals all the way" he declared and Sara bit her lip still nodding. He captured her lips once more and kissed her greedily.

This was a real relationship… a grown up one and Greg felt like he was going into the unknown, though it didn't scare him because he had Sara guiding him and he knew he would be caught if he fell. Just like he would catch her if she fell.

I shall admit something... before any one can moan at me. I Just realised that in the beginning I said that Greg and Sara had been together only four months in fact it's more like nine or ten months. i will fix that error, sorry if it confused and i hope it hasn't stopped you from enjoying this.

thanks for the reviews i'll try to keep up the good work.