A/N: I am so sorry that I haven't been able to update. School has gooten really busy and I have to captain three teams in TSA, so I have alot of stuff to do bit I promise to update more.

recap:

"Lily," I said "the only reason I wanted to do this was because it meant you would be thinking about me. Don't say a thing yet let me finish," I said cutting her off "You might not realize this but I really like you, I have liked you since second year when you first yelled at me."
I turned around and looked her straight into her eyes and walked real close until I was less than a foot away. She just stood there silent "One day Lily," I said leaning down so that there was only an inch between our mouths. "one day you will realize that you love me too and I will be there I will always wait for you." I leaned down a little more until I heard her breath catch then I delicately kissed her cheek and walked away,leaving her there breathless. 'Please let her come to her senses and realize what she has been missing.'

Lily, Britia, and Jess
After James left I just sort of stood there... very confused.

'Why did James Potter just kiss you?' I thought to myself.

You know you liked it,

I did not

yes you did

Hey you are supposed to be on my side, you are my thoughts right...? I shook myself trying to think properly. What should I do? Did I really like James Potter? All my life I have always pushed people away afraid of what they thought of me. Ever since my sister called me a freak.

I went over and sat where James had, I felt like I couldn't breath, Potter really liked me. I sat there for an hour thinking over my life. The only people I had ever let in were the flowers, should I let James in? I sighed and stood up more confused than ever and walked back up to the castle. I walked through the hallways not caring if I got caught, I walked through the common room ignoring the looks I was getting from everyone, I walked up to my dormitory and got down under the covers and softly cried myself to sleep.

The next morning

"Lils?" I heard Britia call "breakfast will be over soon. You should probably wake up now."

I sighed pulling the covers off of me. I walked into the bathroom took a shower and through on some sweatpants and a baggy sweatshirt. I didn't bother with any makeup and just pulled my hair into an easy bun. Britia and Jess both looked at me concerned but didn't ask knowing I wouldn't want to talk yet. We all walked down to the great hall together with me in the middle of them. Today they would be my protesters. Merlin I was glad it was a Sunday. Once we got to the great hall we went and sat in our usual spot I noticed all the confused looks we were getting from our supporters.

'I'm sorry' I thought to them 'But I can't seem to find the strength to be strong today'

I looked over and saw the Marauders smiling at us. I looked blankly at them and drank a sip of orange juice. I couldn't bear to look at them. It was then I felt it before I saw it, a spell was coming right at us. I quickly pushed Brit and Jess out of the way and took the spell straight on. I looked at the Marauders and James as the spell lifted me up and made me look like the slytherins we made them look like yesterday. I just stood there not fighting it and looking blankly ahead as the whole school looked on. I noticed no one was laughing. Why was no one laughing? They thought it was funny when the flowers did it the day before. I sighed again.

"If you hadn't noticed boys, I am not in a very good mood today, so if you could please put me down?" I snagged a quick look at James and noticed he looked confused. 'maybe he didn't want to talk about yesterday night. Was I making to big a deal about it?'

"Just one question first?" Sirius asked looking at me confused "ok maybe two questions"

"Yea..." I said looking at him

"Ok why did you push the other flowers out of the way and take the spell instead of blocking it? And why are you in a bad mood?" he asked

"I took the spell because that is what friends do for each other, I didn't have time to block it because I felt it at the last minute so instead of letting all of us be hit I pushed them out of the way so that only I would be hit. And I am in a bad mood today because I didn't sleep well last night and I have used too much powerful magic this week without resting well." I said making up the last part so that I wouldn't have to face James.

In the end the Marauders let me down and the girls and I left breakfast and went outside. They didn't see past my lie. We decided to go to the lake figuring it would be quite enough for us to talk there. What I didn't see coming was that we went to the exact same spot that James and I were at last night.

"Alright Lily," Jess said cutting to the chase "what has got you so worn out?"

I quickly muttered a spell so that no one could ease drop on us. "well," I said looking at my two best friends expectant eyes, "last night when I left the dorm room I came down to the lake and was surprised to find Potter out here. I was just going to ignore him but we started talking I think he was actually hurt by our pranks."

"WHAT?!?" Britia called out anger flaring in her eyes, "They were the ones pranking us in the first place."

"I know I haven't even said the most surprising thing yet. He kissed me on the cheek and said he really did really like me,"

They both stared at me blankly for a few seconds when they suddenly burst out laughing "Did you believe him?" Jess asked still laughing "Everyone knows James is the best lier in the school."

"So I shouldn't believe him?" I asked keeping all of my emotions in.

"He didn't seem to be dwelling on it this morning, so I wouldn't if I were you," Britia said thinking logically.

I smiled and hugged them, "Thanks guys your the best friends a girl could ask for.