What Comes Next?
By: TracyCook
Disclaimer: I own nothing. These characters belong to the creator of Glee.
Couple: Brittany/Rachel
Rating: M
Authors Note: I apologize for my last chapter, I accidently kept part of my outline in it… :/ Which probably completely ruined the reading experience for everyone. I also had a few grammatical errors; I wrote it after being up for nearly 27 hours straight and was not thinking properly. I have fixed it if people prefer to reread it then feel free. Hopefully you will not hold it over my head and this next chapter, albeit short, will be more enjoyable.
Chapter 3
Sexy Times
Brittany smiled contently as she rested her head on Santana's bare sweat-coated stomach, allowing her body to come down from the natural high that she only ever got when with the other girl. It seemed no guy she slept with ever caused her as much pleasure as the Latina. Still, there was something missing. Something that had made things better with Artie, something she was too terrified to bring up at the moment, that being 'feelings'.
It wasn't that she did not feel anything toward the other woman. She loved her more than life itself, it was that she was not allowed to show it that made making love more difficult each time.
"Mmm god B I love that thing you do with your tongue." Santana groaned out stretching her limbs with a smile on her face.
"I love you." The blonde let out before thinking about it. Immediately she regretted the words that came so naturally to her because she felt her lover's naked body tense beneath her own and brown eyes focused angrily on the top of her head. She did not dare look up to meet them.
"Britts?" She questioned with a wavering voice.
Turning her head blue eyes met upset brown and she chewed on her bottom lip trying to figure out a way to remedy the situation. Before she had a chance to say anything else the Latina continued trying to control her anger. "We've talked about not saying those words after our sexy times."
"I meant to say I love blue." She tried absentmindedly.
Santana let out a laugh as she raised a curious eyebrow at the woman lying on top of her; gently she stroked her fingers through blonde locks and smiled. She loved Brittany, she had since the day they met four years ago, but she was not ready to admit that to the world. "B, I know you didn't say you love blue, you don't even like blue."
The blonde shrugged her shoulders before stating in a serious monotone voice. "I love all colors equally, I'm not racist."
Shaking her head amusedly the Latina smiled, watching as blue eyes drifted shut as she stroked the beautiful girl's cheek gently with her fingers. "Still, I know that isn't what you said Britts."
"Are you mad at me?" She asked softly. Feeling slightly dizzy from the contact to her face. She loved when Santana touched her like this. More than their sexy times even, because this is when she felt cared for. 'I wish it happened more…'
"Nah, I'm not mad." She watched as the blonde cheerleader let out a soft sigh of relief before biting down on her bottom-lip thinking of how to best phrase her next sentence. "I love you too, you know that. I just wish you would understand that just 'cause I love you don't mean I am ready to let the world know."
"I don't understand." She mumbled. "I want people to know that I love you. That you're my girl."
"See that's where you're off B, I'm not your girl. I mean sure we love each other but I'm not ready to be tied down to you. I don't want to deal with the entire school hating us and getting slushied every day 'cause were different." She let out a breath trying to calm her voice, not trying to sound too angry but it seemed she was telling Brittany this every day now. "High school is cruel B, people will hate us both if they find out this is more than just sex. I'm not just doing this to protect me, but to protect you too." Finishing her rant she smiled a little hoping that it had finally gotten through to her friend.
Brittany sat up a little putting distance between herself and Santana on the bed, looking into those beautiful brown eyes. "San, I don't care if people hate me. As long as I have you, I'd take a slushy to the face every single day." Her heart broke as she watched a scowl form on the Latina's lips.
"I won't let that happen."
"Then maybe we should just be friends." She whispered out, her voice cracking and heart pounding in her chest. It felt as if she could throw up all over the bed because of the pain in her stomach at the words she had somehow managed to say. That was the last thing she wanted, but she could not let Santana use her or hurt her anymore. The duet with Rachel had truly opened her eyes to what was going on and given her confidence.
"What? What the hell do you mean just be friends?" She growled out sitting up on the bed, her muscles visibly tensing.
"I just mean until you are ready to be more than this, maybe we should stop having sexy times." Brittany mumbled out looking down at her fidgeting hands.
"You don't want that B, you love sexy times." She stated trying to calm herself as she reached out to touch the blonde, surprised when she flinched away from her touch. 'What the fuck has gotten into her? She never denies me sexy times…' "Where the fuck is this coming from?"
The blonde froze at the harsh tone of voice Santana was using on her. She had heard it on multiple occasions, but never directed toward herself and it really hurt her feelings. She hesitated, nearly saying that they could just forget the whole conversation and make up with sweet lady kisses, but then her mind filled with images of Rachel with that encouraging almost creepy smile, and the duet they had performed and she stood her ground. "Someone told me that—"
"Someone told you what? Someone who? I swear I will kill—"
"—No, you won't kill her San. Please listen to me."
Santana was shaking but she forced her lips closed, clenching her jaw she stared at the woman of her affections. Her heart was racing and she had some idea of who had told Brittany to end things with her, it had to have been Rachel. 'That sneaky little bitch…'
"Rachel actually told me to try San. But the song we sang made me realize that this isn't enough for me…" She stated more confidently as she looked up into brown eyes. The blonde could see that she was hurting the Latina and although it hurt her to do so, she knew that she had to get this off of her chest. It had been weighing down on her for far too long. "I love you. I love our sexy times. I just realized that unless I take them away you're just getting what you want so why should you change?"
Santana watched as blue eyes filled with tears and the only thing that she could think was 'I am going to kill Rachel… I will shank that bitch tomorrow…' "B, I promise if you just give me time then we can go public with this—"
"—I can't." She mumbled in her monotone voice, smiling a little when she felt the Latina brush away her tears.
"She's just using you Britts." She said, keeping her voice soft as she stared into blue eyes.
"I don't think so." Brittany responded looking away for a moment and chewing on her cheek. She knew that there was a possibility that Rachel was only using her to further her own career, a great possibility actually, but she had to give her the benefit of the doubt.
"After every slushie we have thrown at her? After every name we have called her, why else would she suddenly care about your feelings and helping you with your relationship? She's trying to break us apart and she's just using you for your voice. Why can't you see that?"
"I'll talk to her about it tomorrow San, but even if she is using me I stand by my decision."
Throwing her hands up in the air the Latina mumbled something undoubtedly unpleasant in Spanish before saying in an upset voice. "Oh yeah, like she's just going to tell you she's using you if you ask! Why do you have to be so gullible? Why do you have to be so—" As she realized she was about to say the word 'stupid' her mouth sealed shut. She knew that if she said that word it would be the straw that broke the camel's back and she could not bear to hurt or lose Brittany completely.
"Stupid…?" The blonde asked in a shaky voice as tears started to fill her eyes once more and she felt her own anger boiling up. She hated when Santana or anyone else called her stupid, she knew that she was not the most intelligent girl, but she was not stupid. "I am not stupid for standing up for myself. I can't believe you of all people would call me that, you know how much it hurts me." Standing up from the bed she started to put back on her clothing.
"I didn't say you were stupid, I didn't." She pleaded as she rushed to the blonde's side. "Please don't leave Britts."
"I still want to be friends San. But I love you too much to stay."
"That makes no sense. Just stay, we can hold each other and talk. Anything you want." Santana tried, but she could tell that Brittany had already made up her mind and she could only watch in agony as the blonde slipped on her shoes and headed toward the door.
Placing her hand on the door knob Brittany stopped to look over her shoulder at the other girl barely finding the confidence to stand her ground as she witnessed the other turn into a sobbing mess as she fell onto the bed. "I'll see you at school tomorrow."
With that she was gone.
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"Don't you think that Brittany and I performed stupendously today? I mean truthfully I had been worried due to her blatant obsession with sexual icons in the music industry, but she pulled through and only missed a few notes. I am actually rather proud of her. I certainly hope that things went well between her and Santana, she seemed beyond upset with our song choice, and I witnessed Brittany crying afterward while talking with her. Hopefully they—"
"—Rach?" Finn asked, interrupting one of the rants that she was famous for. Or infamous for in most cases. Now being one of those cases. The young man was simply trying to make out with his girlfriend, maybe even get further than making out with her and yet all she could talk about was her duet.
"Yes?" She asked looking to him with large confused brown eyes.
"I love listening to you talk, but I would prefer you be doing something else with those lips."
Now she looked even more confused. "What ever do you mean by that?"
"We were kissing." He laughed a little at her naivety, sometimes she could get so wrapped up in her own world. It was cute but also a bit agitating when he was trying to be intimate with her. Occasionally he would wonder if it was worth it, knowing that he would have to wait until she was twenty-five to have sex with her, he only hoped he could be charming enough to change her mind about that. 'It seems not though…'
"Oh right, carry on." She said with a bright smile as he leant back down to capture his girlfriend's full lips with his own.
As they started to kiss, both started to get more into it and Finn took this as his opportunity to try and push his boundaries. Gently he moved his hand to the hem of Rachel's shirt pressing his fingers just barely underneath them so that they were resting against her toned abdomen. Just the simple contact with the previously unclaimed skin was enough to turn him on and urge him to want more. Selfishly he pushed his hand further under the shirt moving over her ribs toward his destination.
Rachel's eyes snapped open as she felt her boyfriend's hand graze just below her bra, she suddenly felt sick to her stomach. This wasn't how it was supposed to feel, this wasn't romantic at all. There should be beautiful music playing, the kisses should leave her feeling breathless, there should be rose petals and candles. Reaching out she placed her hand over his, halting the actions.
"F-Finn. I'm not ready to go that far."
She watched as his eyes filled with a mix of emotions, the most dominating being anger. Swallowing she looked to the side in order to catch a peek of her clock. "I think it is time for me to do my nightly routine and get some sleep, it is a school night after all and I have to be in tip-top—"
"—Why do you always send me home just as things are getting good?" Finn interrupted her, trying not to sound as angry as he was.
"I thought it was all good. I mean the movie was not that amazing I agree but—"
"—you know what I mean!" He shouted out a little louder than he had meant, as he sat up in the bed, trying to ignore his arousal. It was something he had gotten used to, he would take care of it later when away from Rachel. "I just wish you would trust me enough to let me touch you."
"I do trust you Finn, but I already told you my plan." Rachel said sitting up and wrapping her arms around him from behind, resting her head on his shoulder as she leant over and kissed his cheek.
"I don't know if I can wait that long Rachel. Why does everything have to be planned with you? Doesn't it take away from the romance if you plan it for a specific day?" He asked, for once actually making a lot of sense to the brunette.
"That is true."
"Then can't we just give in to our feelings and just have sex already?" He practically pleaded.
For once it appeared that Rachel was contemplating his proposal to make love. Chewing on her bottom lip she thought it through. 'Perhaps he is right… but if it should be based on our instincts and just happen when you are passionately in love with someone, then why do I not feel that need to have sex with him. He is my boyfriend after all and I do love him, so why do I not want to be intimate with him…?' "I will consider it."
"You will?" He asked hopefully.
Again she chewed on her bottom lip as she tried to make sense of the situation, before forcing a smile. "I will, but it will not be happening tonight. I am already behind on my routine, but I will talk with you about it tomorrow Finn."
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Authors Note: If y'all give me some lovin's I promise to try and update fast!
I'm not one to usually bribe people, sooo don't think of this as a bribe, because I will update even if I get no reviews and I feel all guilty for doing this… but I have a lot of multi-chaps up right now and I decided that if I get TEN reviews on this chapter I will update again before midnight tonight! If not I will probably update sometime this weekend so no worries either way. :) But yeah ten and I will update before midnight.
I just hope that y'all love it! I love you guys!
Anyhow you guys ROCK!
Ps. I apologize immensely for the shortness of this chapter, but it was for the most part a filler chapter to keep the story a-moving. Also I did not include the Brittana sex scene because I am not a "Britanna-fanna." And have difficulty writing sex scene's for couples I do not like much.
-Tracy Cook