Well, this is the second chapter. Same story, different song.

Hope you guys like it.

This chapter is mainly Ethan's emotions on their breakup. There might be some other peoples thoughts too, don't know yet.

Pairing: Mainly Benny/Ethan … you'll see why I say mainly. (established B/E)

Song(s):

1) Sorry – Buckcherry

2) What Hurts The Most – Rascal Flatts

3)Gotta Be Somebody – Nickelback

Bold italics are lyrics, as usual. Regular italics are memories/thoughts

Still don't own MBAV or the song.

Begin reading now

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I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out

Benny … he broke up with me. Why? I love him. So much more than anything or anyone. Why would he do this? Ethan fell back on his bed, silent tears streaming down his face. He curled up on side and closed his eyes, never wanting to wake up.

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though

Goin' on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay

But that's not what gets me

"Ethan?" Sarah asked, opening his bedroom door. "You okay?"

"Why are you here?" he mumbled out, sniffling and wiping his eyes as he sat up to look at her.

"Your mom was worried. She called me. She said she tried calling Benny but he didn't answer. Did you guys have a fight?" Ethan nodded, not looking at her.

"H-he b-broke u-up w-with me," he stuttered out, sobbing and hugging his pillow (he's heartbroken, that's why he's acting this way)

"I'm sorry to hear that. But Ethan, sitting in your room all day and moping over him won't do you any good. Come on, get up," she said, tugging on his arm gently.

"I don't wanna. I wanna mope."

"Nope. Come on, come spend the day with me. You'll feel better," she said, smiling at him kindly. He frowned but nodded.

"Fine."

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And havin' so much to say

And watchin' you walk away

"Ethan… I know you just got out of a relationship with Benny … but wanna go out? It'll help get your mind off of him," she said, smiling at the shocked dark haired boy.

"S-Sarah… I don't know."

"Come on Ethan. You'll feel better being with someone."

I do have all this love and no one to give it to… he thought, looking at her.

"Okay," he said, nodding. She smiled happily and wrapped her arms around him.

"I'll be a good girlfriend Ethan. Or I'll try at least. The only boyfriend I've had was Jesse… and we both know how that turned out," she said, making a face. He couldn't help the quiet laugh that came out, causing her to smile. "See? Working already."

And never knowin'

What could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was tryin' to do

Ethan frowned as he looked at the school. I can't go in. I'll see him.

"Hey you," Sarah said, walking up to him and wrapping her hand in his. "Let's get going. Class starts soon." He just nodded and let her drag him in. He felt his eyes tear up as he saw Benny standing against the wall, eyes on his spell book. As Benny looked up, Ethan saw the emotions that ran through them as he watched them walk together, holding hands. They made their way to Ethan's locker when he felt eyes on his back. It took all his strength not to look at the tall boy who was burning his back with his eyes.

Ethan sniffled and realized he was crying.

"Baby, what's wrong?" Sarah asked, wiping his tears away. He looked over her shoulder and saw Benny biting his lip, eyes filled with worry.

"I'm sorry," he mouthed to Ethan, frowning again.

"I know," he mouthed back. "I love you," he mouthed to Benny, who smiled slightly and pointed to his chest quickly before practically running down the hallway, not looking back.

Does that mean he still cares about me?

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go

But I'm doin it

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

"Benny, I don't love Sarah. I don't even like her like that. I love you. I love that you're taller than me, that you usually have a smile on your face, and that you are just so adorable that it makes my heart melt," Oh how I want to say that, Ethan thought as he watched the taller boy converse with Rory at lunch why he built something with his French fries.

"Ethan? You okay?" Sarah asked, grabbing his hand. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong Sarah. Just thinking."

"About Benny? How can I help you get over him?" she asked, concern in her voice.

"Just being here is helping," he said, although it was a lie. I'd rather him be here than her. I'd rather be holding hands with him. "Benny, you are my everything. Everything I want and everything I need." I wish I could tell him. But he won't believe me.

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And havin' so much to say (much to say)

And watchin' you walk away

Ethan sat in his room, staring blankly at the wall. I'm with Sarah. He's the one that ended it. I just need to accept that and accept that Sarah wants to be with me, no matter how broken up I am about him. But … I love him so much. He sighed and looked at his clock. 3:40 AM. No sleep for me. He glanced as his phone and frowned as he looked at it.

I miss you, he typed out to Benny, finger hovering over the send button. He closed his eyes and pressed it, waiting.

I miss you too, his phone chimed. Ethan couldn't stop the hopeful smile that came onto his face. Don't get your hopes up, he told himself, calming himself down.

Why are you up?

Can't sleep. You?

Same… I was thinking about you. Ethan bit his lip, hoping he hadn't gone too far.

I was thinking about you too.

Can we talk tomorrow? I'm tired now :(, Ethan sent, hating himself for getting tired now.

Maybe. Goodnight.

Goodnight … I love you.

I know… Ethan looked at that message and sighed, closing his eyes.

I love you Benny. Not Sarah. You, he thought, letting sleep finally claim him.

And never knowin'

What could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was tryin' to do, oh

Oh yeah

Ethan was standing with Sarah by his locker, eyes scanning everyone who passed by for the tall boy. I need him back. I miss him too much.

"Ethan? Can I ask something?" Sarah asked, breaking him out of his thoughts.

"You just did," he said, looking at her.

"Whatever," she said, rolling her eyes and smiling at him. "I was gonna ask… don't be mad at me okay?" Ethan looked at her.

"Mad about what?"

"This," she said, pulling him towards her and kissing him. His eyes widened in surprise before he closed them and kissed her back. Not the same as with Benny. Benny's a much better kisser than her. But she's not bad I guess. As they pulled away, Sarah had a huge smile on her face. Ethan had a smaller version of the smile on his face, glad that he made her happy, until he caught site of a familiar messenger bag walking away from him.

Benny, I hope you didn't see that…

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And havin' so much to say (to say)

And watchin' you walk away

He saw. Why else would he walk away from this direction? His locker and class is over here… Ethan shook his head and looked at Sarah, who was watching him.

"Did you not like kissing me?" she asked, eyes filled with worry. He shook his head and plastered on a fake smile.

"Not at all. It was … nice. I enjoyed it." I'm not fully lying. I did enjoy it, but only because I thought of Benny the whole time.

"Good. Ethan … I think I love you."

"… Wow. Sarah … we've only been dating a few days. I'm not ready to say that yet I don't think…"

"I understand. I just wanted you to know," she said, holding his hand, still smiling. He smiled back, until his eyes fell on a pair of clasped hands that shouldn't be together.

And never knowin'

What could've been

And not seein' that lovin' you

Is what I was tryin' to do

"Wow… Benny and Rory are together? Didn't see that happening," Sarah said, watching the new couple walk towards class. Benny had a thoughtful look on his face while Rory had a big smile on his.

"Y-yeah," Ethan said, watching them. His eyes first met apologetic blue ones, then sad green ones.

"I'm sorry," Benny mouthed to Ethan, tilting his head in the direction of him and Rory's hands. Ethan nodded and did the same to his and Sarah's hands.

"I'm sorry."

Not seein' that lovin' you

That's what I was trying to do, ooo

Benny… I still love you. I guess … I guess it's time to let go though, Ethan thought, watching them walk together. Rory better treat him well.

…

Aww, a little sad don't you think?

Well, things will be better in the next chapter :)

I hope you guys liked it.

Love to you all. Please and thank you in advance for the reviews!

-JustMe133