Authors Note: Sorry It's taken so long to update! Anyways, here's another chapter! Enjoy! Please don't flame! Review are appreciated!

Warnings: none

Disclaimer: I don't own Criminal Minds, but the plot is mine! I don't own the song either.

Song: Beside You by Marianas Trench

When your tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.
When it's in your spine like you've walked for miles
And the only thing you want is just to be still for a while

JJ was taken away from us. Of all the things to happen, they had to take her away. They didn't understand how much this team, no this family needed her. Or maybe they did, and they just didn't care. I was so angry I could barely speak. I looked over to my Pretty Boy and saw him holding back tears as she gave him one last hug.

"They can't just take you away," he whimpered.

"I'll see you soon Spence. I promise. This isn't goodbye," JJ swore. Spencer nodded and finally let her go. I gave him a look that told him how sorry I was. I would have taken him in my arms right there, but Strauss was still here and we couldn't risk getting caught.

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you

We arrived back at my house around the same time. He had been staying there so much that he was almost moved in. It happened gradually but it felt right. I grabbed his hand as soon as he was out of the car. I felt his hand tighten around mine, as though I was going to leave too.

I could see the lines of tiredness in his face. He looked so emotionally drained, but I knew he wouldn't sleep. He never could when he was so upset.

When we got into the house he immediately latched on to me. I pulled him into a hug and let him sob. He hid his face in the crook of my neck and I could feel his tears run down to my chest.

"Sh, I got you Pretty Boy. I got you. I'm right here," I told him.

When you're overwhelmed and you've lost your breath
When the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless.
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud

Spencer's breath speed up and he seemed to have trouble breathing normally. He was working himself into panic.

"Baby Boy calm down. It's okay, everything will be alright," I promised. My genius seemed to listen to my words seeing as his breathing evened out.

"Derek they took her away. They, how could they, don't they understand? This wasn't supposed to happen. We aren't supposed to lose family members. No one else was supposed to go," he sobbed. I held him closer and wanted to punch every person that had left my little genius. His father, Gideon, Elle, the list goes on and on. I set my chin on top of his head.

"I, Derek I-"

He couldn't finish. I rubbed his back. I felt him grip the back of my shirt desperately.

"I know baby. I know it's hard and I know this wasn't supposed to happen. I know you don't want this and I know JJ doesn't either. Baby Boy none of us want this. You know JJ loves you, and she would never leave us willingly. She isn't abandoning you love. She's being forced," I reassured him gently.

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you
I will stay.
Nobody will break you,
Yeah.

I felt his sobs grow stronger and his knees started to collapse. I caught him before he could fall and brought him to the couch. I pulled him to my lap and put a hand to his head, holding him to my chest. He buried his head into my chest, as though hiding from all the painful things around him.

"I'll be right here baby. I promise you" I chanted

"Promise?" he whispered.

"I promise baby. I won't leave you and I will not let anything get you. I will be here for you. I won't let you fall in on yourself. I swear to you love. Nothing will break you while I'm here," I committed. I felt him kiss the side of my neck in a loving way. He started to pull back and he put his head down as though ashamed.

Trust in me, trust in me.
Don't pull away
Trust in me, trust in me.
I'm just trying to keep this together,
Because I could do worse and you could do better

"No baby. Look at me. Don't you dare look ashamed for crying love. JJ is your best friend and like a sister to you, it's okay to cry," I reassured.

"No it's not. I know better than this. I know how to shut off my emotions and I know how to keep myself safe. I know how to keep people out and how to survive. I've broken every rule I've ever lived by and now I'm hurt again," he spoke quietly.

"Spencer Reid look at me. I am not going to let you do this to yourself. Don't shut off. Don't stop feeling, and don't close me out. Don't push me away love. I'm only trying to keep you together. I won't leave you. Even if everyone else has walked away, I won't leave. I will be here," I confirmed.

"Why? I'm not worth that," he argued. I felt my heart break at his insecurities. We had finally gotten past them and now they were back because of the damn Bureaucrats sending JJ away.

"Baby Boy I could do so much worse than you, and I could find no one better than you. You on the other hand could find someone better. You deserve the best Pretty Boy," I reasoned. He looked shocked then angry.

"How can you say that? There isn't anyone better for me than you!" he protested outraged.

"Exactly baby, and there is no one better for me than you. You don't know how much it kills me that you don't see yourself the way I do," I admitted. He looked down bashfully. I pulled his head up and gave him a kiss. It was short and reassuring. He put his head back on my chest and continued his sobbing. I sat there and held him.

Tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense.

The last of his tears fell and he finally looked up at me with bloodshot eyes. I kissed his forehead. I would have asked him if he wanted go to bed, but I knew his answer. His mind wouldn't shut off to let him fall asleep. I had to distract him so that he would finally give into his exhaustion.

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you
If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you

"Derek, do you think that JJ will still stay in touch?" he asked.

"Of course she will. JJ loves you like the little brother she never had. Not to mention, Henry wouldn't take to kindly to never seeing his favorite God Father again. The kid adores you," I told him, trying to quiet his fears. A small smile graced his beautiful face.

"Derek no matter what happens I'll always be here. I won't leave you either. You always reassure me that you aren't going to leave me, and that you won't let me go. Well I want to make sure you know that no matter how hard things get, I won't leave you either," Spencer promised.

My heart swelled that he said it. No matter how much pain he was feeling he made sure to comfort me as well.

"I know baby, but thank you for reminding me," I answered.

"I love you Derek," he proclaimed.

"I love you too Spencer", I replied. I held my Baby Boy in my arms and after a few minutes he was asleep. I silently made the promise that I would spend everyday of my life making sure that nothing could get him. No pain, emotional or physical was going to break him down. Nothing would break him while I was around.

Nobody will break you.