Disclaimer: I do NOT own Buffy the vampire slayer or its characters. I make no money from this.
Warnings: General spoilers for seasons one through seven Spoilers: Season eight.
She always did this. Found someone to fill her, awaken her to the point of feeling.
To erase the deadness she felt inside. It wasn't fair to them or herself.
[You make me feel...alive]
Afterwards, it wasn't enough. They left her feeling emptier than before.
[Were you there with me?]
It started with Spike, and that almost thing with Xander. Now this thing with Satsu. She used their love for her own selfish desires.
[Because I'm not ready for you to not be here.]
It wasn't fair to her or them.
[I'm using you. I can't love you.]
But she couldn't let them go.