Chapter FOUR!

Kate POV

My eyelids fluttered open as the pain from my head overwhelmed me. I aggressively pulled the duvet over my head and rolled over blocking out all light sources. My eyelids snapped shut but my concentration was else where as my head pounded. Moaning and sitting up I glanced at the clock 9:18 it read, internally moaning I forced my legs to shift from underneath the bed spread placing them firmly on the floor ready to stand up. My head felt heavy as the thumping pain pirouetted around my brain, Nurofen was what I needed.

It was the day after I'd fainted in the crowded street, I had woken up to everyone's worried face, I was taken to hospital much to my dismay but they discharged me and just said I had a panic attack, when I came home I went straight to bed and no one raised the subject not even Harry, I also smacked my head on the concrete when I fell hence the headache.

I dizzily made my way to the other side of the room and peered into the gold rimmed mirror which held my reflection, my hair was knotted and I had dark circles under my eyes apart from that everything was normal but a sigh fell from my lips anyway because I hated my normal. Ever since the attack I've felt ugly and fat, like I am worthless or like it's my fault. I felt as if I deserved it for going out on my own that late and going back to a guy's apartment who I barely even knew. I've never shared these feeling with anyone, I don't want them to take pity on me or suggest going to see physiatrists again, and I was content on dealing with my own problems and not putting the burden onto anyone else.

I shook my hands through my hair and yanked the hairbrush through the tangled mess, pulling out a makeup wipe from the packet I swiped the cloth across my face focusing on the dark circles under my eyes and then realising that it's not just makeup, tiredness too. Giving up with my hair, I picked up my towel from the back of the door and walked to the bathroom for a shower hoping the warm water will decrease the throbbing in my skull.

I emerged from the bedroom an hour later, fully dressed in my Hollister joggers, a plain t-shirt and a cardigan, my feet nice and toasty in my thick padded slipper socks knowing I wasn't going out today and thankfully the pulse in my head had decreased rapidly but I still knew there was something important about today though but I couldn't quite put my finger onto it, it was a niggling feeling in the back of mind, I decided to keep it there until I remembered what it was.

I hadn't seen Harry yet but the smells that wafted up the stairs from the kitchen signalled to me that someone was up.

My hand glided down the smooth hand rail as I slumped down the stairs. The familiar feeling striking in my stomach: Hunger. No one was in the kitchen, I was confused, stained plates where stacked up by the sink and the counter was in dire need of a good clean as I inspected the dried puddle of black current usually by now cloth in hand I would be scrubbing but I wasn't in the mood. I flung open the cupboard door and pulled myself a bowl out from the back, slamming the door shut again. The cornflakes scattered into the bowl as I shook the box above the bowl, filling it to about halfway. Sloshing into the bowl the white liquid drowned the cornflakes; I always liked lots of milk on my cereal. I opened the drawer and picked the spoon which looked the most clean and slammed the drawer shut, the cutlery clattered as the drawer met the worktop. I sat down at the table alone munching on my cornflakes, swirling my spoon around and around in the bowl watching the curves of the ripples it made into the milk.

The click of the door closing caused my head to shoot up seeing the face I wanted to see smiling down at me, his curls sitting perfectly, I had a strong urge to run my hands through them but I stayed seated as he sauntered towards me in a good mood shame that I couldn't mimic it but my mood had lifted slightly since he'd entered the room. He sat across from me at the table; he looked awkward for a second must have been wondering whether to bring up yesterday or not but his face returned to the cheeriness that it had before.

"Kate, we need to talk about yesterday?" His face turned serious again, his smile vanishing being replaced with wariness and concern. I shook my head and looked down, he would think I was being over dramatic; I just didn't want to get into it now. He nodded understandably his chocolaty curls bouncing along with the movement.

"Okay well we'll talk about it some other time but on a lighter note, we're going out tonight" He informed me sounding excited about the last bit as he beamed at me but I didn't beam back I didn't want to go anywhere I just wanted to wallow in self pity with Ben & Jerries.

"Harry I don't really want to go out" I muttered, I pulled my poker face not wanting to invite questions. His face fell slightly but I knew he wouldn't give up.

"Oh come on Kate, it's a surprise you'll love it!" He exclaimed, smiling at me his eyes soft and humble. I was short tempered today and Harry trying to pressure me into going out when I was like this wasn't helping. I knew that I would loose my temper soon but I tried my hardest to compose myself.

"Harry we can do it another night okay?" I replied a little sterner this time but I added a genuine smile this time hoping that he would give up and leave it alone.

"Kate please? It will be awesome, I promise" He begged determined. I shook my head filling my mouth with my forgotten cornflakes.

"Oh Kate please?" He begged again with puppy dog eyes. I shook my head sterner getting angrier. My chest tightened as I felt my self starting to loose it. He couldn't just leave it, he could be a bit more sensitive but no going out was more important and what was so special about tonight anyway we can go out another night!

"Come on Kate, you know you want to" He teased, smiling at me. That was it I had lost it.

"For goodness sake Harry, no I don't want to go out alright so just shut up!" I snapped my voice full of venom, my face splashed with rage, my mouth smashed together in a line. I instantly regretted snapping once I'd done it but I knew that was the only way to get him to stop. The frustration shot like bullets from my eyes as they bored into him. Shock swept over his features at my outburst, he retrieved something from his back pocket as he stood up, and he threw two rectangular pieces of card onto the table. His eyes were full to the brim with shock, sadness and disappointment.

"Happy Valentines day" He whispered turning to leave and closing the door behind him. My stomach fell just like it did when you sped down the threateningly high slopes on rollercoaster's; I'd completely forgotten what today was. I cursed at myself for my actions. How could I have been so stupid! I felt all traces of anger retreat from my body but I was left with a worse feeling, the feeling that I knew I'd upset Harry by being selfish and completely out of line. I remembered what he'd left behind and I picked up the two rectangular pieces of card (the surprise) my hand shaking as I read it over and over again my eyes widening.

He had bought tickets to Dirty Dancing in the West End, he knew it was one of my favourite films if not my favourite and that I'd been dyeing to get tickets to the show, I'd had the tickets on email alert so I'd get an email when tickets became on sale but they weren't on sale yet, I checked my emails yesterday, he must of gone through so much trouble to get these and they were the best seats in the theatre.

My insides melted and my stomach floated and flipped as I grinned but the happiness didn't last long it was out shone by the deep gut wrenching guilt and regret that surged through my body.

Fuck!

Hii! Oooh not the lovey dovey thing you were expecting on Valentines Day there? A bit of a contrast from the soppy romances that you usually get in Valentines Day scenes and don't get me wrong im a sucker for romance but I didn't want it to be too cliché. I really hope you guys enjoyed this chapter? Who was out of line Harry or Kate? What do you guys think? But I really need to apologise as I've not been very good with updating lately but I've just been really busy but I hope to get back to posting more regularly again. Thanks for all the support and pleeeeeaaase REVIEW!: D xoxo