A/N: Hello! So I think this story is dwindling down to an end. Then again, I said that about my first story, and it ended up having 12 chapters and I wanted to add more. Haha let's see what happens in this chapter…
Katniss POV
It's been two days since Rue and Beck died, and Jade and I aren't taking it well at all.
We've been pretty much depressed. Neither of us has spoken much. I've only talked to Peeta and Jade. Other than that I've not said a word to anyone else.
So that's why we all sat silently in Peeta's and my cave, eating the last of our food.
As we finished it all off, I felt I needed to be alone with Jade. She's the only one who understood what I was going through.
"I'm going hunting," I said. I looked and Jade, and she sort of got it.
"Coming too," she muttered. Those were the first words either of us had said to Cat or Robbie.
I stood up and grabbed my arrows and then my bow. Jade grabbed a sword which lay next to my bow and we set out into the woods, not really caring what any of the others had to say about it.
We were silent for the first minute or two, then finally I spoke up.
"How ya holding up?" I asked, sounding nothing like myself.
Jade just turned to me and shook her head.
I sighed and looked down.
"I never in a million years thought I would ever get attached to anyone else in my life," Jade began. I could tell this was going to be a story. We kept walking. I shot a groosling and retrieved it. Then, Jade continued her story.
"My little brother was killed last year in the Hunger Games. Eli West…do you remember seeing him? He was only twelve," Jade asked me.
In fact, I did remember. I remembered quite clearly. It scared me, to see him die as just a 12 year old, because I wondered if Prim would get called this year. I remember my mother, Prim, and I had been rooting for him. And you wouldn't believe how hard Prim cried as that spear went through his body.
"Prim and I were rooting for him last year. She cried so hard when he died…" I said, recalling the memory for Jade.
"Ah I see…I miss him so much. He was the only reason I liked life. My dad has always hated me, and my mom died a long time ago from a sickness," Jade continued. I shot a squirrel and picked it up. Jade took the groosling and squirrel from me as we continued through the woods.
"After he was killed…I had nothing to stay here for. That's why I was going to volunteer for this year's games. Didn't need to though, they called me anyhow," Jade said bitterly. I continued to listen.
"I never thought I would get so attached to someone else again. I never thought I could love someone as much as I loved Beck again," Jade said, fighting to keep her voice steady.
"To have him torn away from me…from us…it's too much," Jade said, her voice breaking. "It felt like I was losing Eli again."
I put an arm around her to comfort her.
"I know it's hard right now. believe me, I actually know what it feels like. But I think it's time that both of us stop pushing away the support and comfort that Cat, Robbie, and Peeta are offering us," I said, my throat tightening as I remembered how I always pushed away my mother.
Jade sighed and rubbed viciously at her eyes.
"Alright. Now, your turn to tell your life's story," Jade said, managing a small smile.
"Before I do, can we head back? Or do you wanna keep moving?" I asked.
"Let's keep moving, just for a little while longer," said Jade. I nodded.
Well, here goes nothing, I said, taking a breath to begin my story.
"When I was younger, my father was killed in a mine accident. He was blown to bits…there was nothing left to bury," I began. Jade just listened as we walked.
"No words could describe how much it hurt. Prim was so tiny when that happened, so I don't know if she remembers it. She knows about it though, and sometimes she gets sad about it," I continued.
"After that happened…my mother tuned out. She was so depressed that I had to take care of her and Prim, with the help of Gale, Beck's old best friend," I said, tears pricking at my eyes as I remembered Gale and Prim and Mother back at home. How I wished to see them all.
"For years I have pushed my mother away. I regret that so much. I would give anything to tell her that," I said, hoping that the cameras were focused on me and Jade.
"So all those years that I pushed my mom away, my main focuses and reasons to live were Prim and Gale. Still are, that hasn't changed. Gale…god, how do I even begin to explain how much he means to me, how thankful I am for him," I said.
"And Prim…I love my sister more than anything in the world. Ever since I have had to basically raise her, she has been the thought in the back of my mind that told me that all the things I have to do just to keep us alive were to worth it," I said. I was kind of surprised to see tears in Jade's eyes. This must have really gotten to her.
"And you know what the last thing I said to her was?" I asked, now full-out crying again.
"What?" asked Jade, rubbing my back soothingly.
"I promised her that I would win. I promised that I would win for her. And now, I am doing that for both her and Rue," I said, my voice breaking as I said Rue's name.
Jade hugged me close to her as we cried into each other's shoulders for a minute.
When she let go, she looked me in the eyes so deeply and intensely that I was practically paralyzed.
"And you are going to win. I will stop at nothing to make sure you do," said Jade.
"No," I said. "Not just me. I will not leave this arena if I don't have you by my side." I said that with so much sincerity that it shocked me.
"Then we will win together. The five of us will win. For Beck, for Rue, for Prim, for Gale, and for Eli. Ok?" said Jade, the intensity never leaving her eyes.
I nodded.
I was silent for a minute, then I spoke up.
"I know Beck, Rue, and Eli are watching over us right now. and I bet they're proud," I said, more tears coming to my eyes. Somewhat sad tears, somewhat proud, I guess you could say.
Jade nodded.
As I walked back to camp with Jade, I felt like a weight was lifted off of my chest. I think we were both finally able to let go of Rue, Eli, and Beck. Not forget them, but let go and move on.
Beck POV
I stood in my ghostly form beside a tree in the arena. Katniss and Jade were talking, staring directly into one another's eyes, with such intensity that it sent chills down my spine. If that's possible for a ghost.
"And you are going to win. I will stop at nothing to make sure you do," Jade said.
"No," Katniss said. "Not just me. I will not leave this arena if I don't have you by my side."
"Then we will win together. The five of us will win. For Beck, for Rue, for Prim, for Gale, and for Eli. Ok?" Jade said.
Katniss just simply nodded.
Then, she decided to speak up.
"I know Beck, Rue, and Eli are watching over us right now. And I bet they're proud," Katniss said.
Tears filled my eyes. I could see that they were finally letting go, and moving on.
And suddenly, there were to young children standing next to me. Rue grabbed my hand, a tear slipping down her cheek. But there was a boy who I didn't recognize.
Suddenly it hit me.
"Eli?" I asked. The little boy looked up at me and nodded.
All three of us watched with tears in our eyes as the girls walked away. The tears were happy though, because we knew they had moved on, and we wanted them to.
"That girl was right," began Eli. Rue and I turned to him.
"I am proud of Jade. I'm proud of her in a lot of ways," said Eli, his lower lip quivering. He smiled though.
A couple tears slipped from my eyes as I replied, "I'm proud of them both."
"Me too, Beck. Me too," said Rue.
And as the girls left our sight, the three of us joined hands.
Once they were gone, a light appeared. The one and only Tori Vega stepped into our view.
"Let's go," she said in a soft voice as she extended her hand.
I took one last glance at where the girls had been standing moments before and then walked to Tori.
Cat POV
After about a half an hour, Jade and Katniss came back with red eyes. I could tell they had been crying, but no one said anything about it.
Out of nowhere, Katniss put down her bow and came up and hugged me tight.
"I'm sorry for pushing you away," she said as she hugged me.
"It's ok. I love you," I said.
"I love you too," Katniss said.
She hugged Robbie too, and Jade came up to me.
"Oh, Cat," she said, throwing her arms around me. "I am so sorry…"
"It's alright, Jade. I understand," I said.
"I love you," Jade said. I replied with "I love you too."
We all sat down to eat what had been brought back to camp.
"Hey guys?" asked Katniss. We all turned to her.
"Can we…can we all sleep in the same cave now? I think Jade and I are ready," she said, and Jade nodded.
"Of course," said Robbie.
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Peeta smiling.
I think Katniss and Jade were finally going to be able to move on as the rest of us had.
Night was beginning to fall, and we decided to go ahead and go to sleep.
Peeta POV
It was probably only about 9 PM, but we were all pretty tired for some reason.
Now, we all lay in the cave that was originally Katniss, Rue, and I's. Katniss, as she has been since we moved to this cave, was curled up against my chest, and we had a sleeping bag over us as a blanket.
Jade lay right next to me. Her hand gripped mine for a sense of security. Cat and Robbie lay close nearby together.
Katniss looked so beautiful when she was asleep. She looked so peaceful. Adorable, even. I loved the feeling of her curled up next to me.
I stroked her hair softly.
"Peeta?" she asked suddenly. I guess she wasn't asleep.
"Yes?" I asked her quietly.
"Will you sing something?" she asked.
I didn't usually sing, at all, but there were two songs that I had heard somehow. Both came from before Panem existed, when it was called North America.
"Yeah. Ok. There's two songs I know…" I said. Katniss nodded.
The first one I knew I could easily remix to fit Katniss's situation. So I did.
"One day shy of 8 years old
When her daddy passed away
She was a broken hearted little girl
Blowin' out that birthday cake," I began. In the dim moonlight, I could see Katniss's eyes glaze over as she looked up at me.
"How she cried when they sky let go
With a cold an lonesome rain
And her momma said, now don't you cry child
Daddy's watching you today," I said, letting myself really sing out loud.
"Cause there's holes in the floor of heaven and his tears are pourin down
that's how you know he's watchin, wishing he could be here now.
and sometimes if your lonely, just remember he can see,
there's holes in the floor of heaven, and he's watchin over you and me," I continued. Katniss smiled the most dazzling smile at me even though tears were streaming down her face. She grabbed my other hand and waited for me to continue.
"8 years later, his daughter cried, for a girl she lost that day
She stayed there by her side, until her soul the Lord did take
She promised Rue, like she did Prim, that for her, she would win
And though Rue's dead, Katniss knows
Rue is watching her today," I said, quickly improvising the second verse.
"'Cause there's holes in the floor of heaven and her tears are pourin down
that's how you know she's watchin, wishing she could be here now.
and sometimes if your lonely, just remember she can see,
there's holes in the floor of heaven, and she's watchin over you and me," I sang, finishing off the song.
By now, Jade, Cat, and Robbie had woken up as well. All of them, even Robbie, had tears in their eyes as they looked up at me.
Katniss POV
I had never heard Peeta sing before, but his voice sure was beautiful. And that song he sang…no words could describe the good feeling it gave me.
"Want me to sing the other song?" asked Peeta.
I nodded.
Everyone laid back down and closed their eyes.
Peeta cleared his throat and began.
"Come with me
And you'll be
In a world of
Pure imagination
Take a look
And you'll see
Into your imagination," I began. Katniss smiled. I could tell she liked how this song was sounding.
"We'll begin
With a spin
Traveling in
The world of my creation
What we'll see
Will defy
Explanation," I continued. Robbie, Cat, and Jade were almost asleep now.
"If you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Wanna change the world?
There's nothing
To it."
By the time I had finished singing, everyone but Katniss was asleep.
She leaned up and kissed me.
"I love you Peeta. And it's not an act," Katniss said, lowering her voice so the audience doesn't hear that it was an act at first.
I smiled.
"I love you too," I said.
And with that, we both fell fast asleep.
A/N: I am so proud of this chapter. I think I like this one the best of all of them…
I was legit crying when writing the Beck, Rue, and Eli scene. Don't know if I'm supposed to say that since I wrote it lol….anyhow, hope you liked it! Please review!
