Chapter 6
Allison called to let me know that I have an appointment with Dr. Evans next week. I am greatly relieved that I have the opportunity to talk to somebody who can help me put to rest all of this unwanted baggage that I've been carrying around with me all these years. Truthfully, I should have had counseling years ago especially dealing with Damien. I thanked Allison for setting up my appointment.
It has been one week since I received Noah's email and I still haven't bothered to reply back. I'm still having a lot of hesitation as to what to say to him after all these years. I mean it isn't like we can just pick up right where we left off at 10 years ago. For God Sakes, I've changed and I would certainly hope that Noah has changed. Maybe if I ignore his email long enough that maybe Noah will get the message that I'm just not interested in rekindling our friendship. I mean, I've gone this long without Noah Mayer in my life so, what are a few more years?
I am going back to work tomorrow at the Hospital for the first time in 6 weeks. I'm not sure that I'm ready to go back to work but, it is something that I have to do get my life back in order once again. As I was doing some laundry, Natalie stopped by to see how I'm doing and, even brought dinner with her, Pizza from Al's. We got talking about Noah and I said I wasn't sure if I wanted to or for that matter how to reconnect our friendship given the time that has passed. Natalie seems to think that I should reply back because of the history that we shared. And, I knew that she was right we did share a history together. We finished dinner; Natalie went home and wished me well on my first day back to work tomorrow.
I finished deciding what to wear to work tomorrow, got myself ready for bed wearing a pair of Reid's pajamas. I still haven't been able to sleep in our bedroom since Reid has been gone. I've been sleeping in the smaller bedroom just down the hall from ours. Our bedroom is still the same way it was the night Reid died with the hospital bed being where our queen size bed was and all of the other medical devices that are still in there. I keep thinking that I should call the medical supply place and have them come and pick up this stuff but, I know that I have to make myself do this because nobody else is going to do this for me. Guess that's one more thing to put on my to-do list. Every time I walk past our room, I have to put my hand on our bedroom door to feel a sense of Reid's presence.
I'm ready to go back to work this morning. I'm both anxious and thrilled at this point to be getting on with my life although, this will be a challenge but, it's something that I have to do. Once I get to the Hospital, I'm greeted by a huge banner hanging in the lobby "Welcome Back Mr. Snyder." When I saw that banner, I remembered how Reid use to call me, "Mr. Snyder". I certainly appreciated the gesture by the employees and the board members.
My first day back to work went really well and, for that I was truly grateful. Some of the Hospital office staff was going over to The Lakeview for dinner and cocktails. I was invited to come along but, was kind of hesitant about going but, little did I know who else was invited but, Chris and Katie Hughes. I was glad to see them and also glad to be spending a little bit of time with them since, we don't get to see much of each other these days especially with their expected move to Arizona in the near future. I asked Katie when it is that they will be leaving Oakdale for Phoenix, Katie said they plan to leave in 2 months. I'm not really looking forward to them leaving but, they are both retired now and, don't want to spend another long winter in Illinois, which I can't blame them and, if I were retired, I'd certainly want to be out of Oakdale. Well, maybe not emotionally but, physically I would.
Chris and Katie did say that once they get themselves all settled on their condominium that I would be more than welcome to come out there for a visit. The thought of going out to see them for a week during the winter was really starting to sound good to me. Walking towards the patio to get some fresh air, I went to the bar to get a club soda when I heard a voice say, Hi Luke. I turned around to see who was saying hi to me and it was Kevin Davis. I was quite surprised to see him here in Oakdale after all these years. I asked Kevin what brought him back to town and, he told me he came to see his parents who aren't doing really well physically. We made some small talk and, I asked Kevin if it were possible that while he is here, if we could get together just to talk and, to my surprise he accepted. Kevin told me that he is staying at The Lakeview and gave me his phone number. Kevin told me that he had to get going and, that we will see each other again very soon.
I finally made my way to the patio to get some fresh air when Katie followed me and asked who the guy was that I was talking to at the bar. I told her that it was Kevin Davis a guy that I went to school with. She asked if that was the same guy that I had a crush on at one time and, I told her yes, the very same one. Katie asked if I will be getting together with him to talk at some point and, I told her yes we will be doing that while he is here. Katie seemed pleased that I'm starting to move on with my life, she hugged me and told how proud of me she is that I'm making a step towards moving on. The evening at The Lakeview is winding down and, I find Chris and Katie to tell them that it's time for me to go home. I thanked them for a great evening and for getting me out of the house.
On the way home I had a small smile across my face at the thought of seeing Kevin Davis for the first time in many years and, he still looks the same as he did way back in high school with his blond hair and muscular body. I was sort of wondering if perhaps Kevin would want to rekindle or friendship that we once had. I know that I would like that but, I can't speak for Kevin though. Once I got home, I made my way to the living room just to relax and to think and, the thoughts of Kevin started running through my mind all those memories that he and I once shared started coming back and ah yes, I thought, all those memories, especially the one of giving him a back rub and, even that piece of memory certainly put a smile on my face among other things too.
Thinking of Kevin's hot, muscular body, I started getting a yearning to "take care of matters" I found myself walking over to the DVD player and putting in a porn movie and started watching it all the while fantasizing about Kevin and his blond hair and muscular body I started getting a hard on and, it was very much apparent that I was in need of some attention. Half way through the movie, I dropped my pants and, started masturbating myself and, images of Reid and Kevin started dancing in my head. Those images of me making love to both Reid and Kevin over the years God, how I miss those days, I thought. Moments before shooting my cum, I felt a wild surge go through my body as if Reid had been here all this time and within a matter of moments after that strong surge went through me, I screamed out Reid's name like I've never screamed before and, came all over me.
Having finally settled down from reaching my climax, a calming feeling fell over me and, it was as if Reid had been here this whole time and knowing this made me relax even more, so much more that I fell asleep half naked on the living room floor dreaming about Reid and Kevin.