It had been over a week since I kissed Peeta and he hadn't even looked at me. I have tried to talk to him a million times but he keeps ignoring me. Starting conversations with other people or just pretending that I'm not even there.
"You coming in Katniss?" I was standing outside social studies class. I had stuck my head in and saw Peeta sitting at his desk and I died a little inside.
"Yeah," I looked at Mr. Cinna he was carrying a stuck of different colored envelopes in one hand and a coffee cup in the other.
"How is it going between you and Peeta?" he asked.
"It was going good before I ruined it."
"Peeta is a nice guy I am sure if you apologies he will forgive you," he smiled.
"Yeah I guess," a simple apology was not going to work.
"Mind getting the door for me?" he asked. Slowly opened the door and for just a second my eyes met Peeta's before he quickly looked away.
"Okay how are we all today?" Mr. Cinna moved to the front of the class when I made my way to the empty seat next to Peeta.
"Hi Peeta," I said when I sat down but he just kept his eyes straight in front of him.
"So today is the day we start our projects which is exciting," Mr. Cinna said waiting for a reaction.
"Well I am excited," he said sitting on his desk.
"Now hands up how many of you have been to another district?" he asked and watched people put their hands up. Peeta put his hand up; I wonder where he had been.
"Nice a lot more than I though," he said smiling.
"Now your projects," he said grabbing the envelopes.
"Now each group is going to randomly get one green envelope and one yellow one. In the Green envelope is a district and in the yellow one is an amount of money. Now in past year students in this class have only looked at district 12; but the world we live in today is becoming more connected, travel between different districts is available to everyone and I know that some of you are thinking about going to collage in other districts. Delly where were you thinking of going?"
"I was thinking three, I wanna work with computers and stuff," she stuttered.
"You?" Mr Cinna pointed at someone.
"I was looking four or two," they said.
"Katniss what about you?" It took me a while to realize that he was talking to me.
"I..I was..I haven't even thought about it I will probably just stay here," I had never even think about what will happen after high school I just assumed that I would keep working and looking after Prim.
"That's cool. So each week you are going to get a sort of challenge you get to work through your going to get jobs, budget money, getting to know what it is like living in different districts. So this week your challenge is finding a way of getting from 12 to your chosen district and finding a place to live. Depending on how much money you could buy a plane ticket or a house, rent a house or take a train, move into a share house, hitchhike or sleep in a crack den. I want pictures, a one-page essay saying why you have chosen buy rent, sleep, crash or forcibly take wherever you have chosen and then a run down of your expenses."
The project sounded cool but doing this with Peeta is going to kill me. Every time I looked at him I want to kiss him again.
"Okay one person will pick the district and the other will pick the amount of money. Now this project is meant to be a fun learning experience we are learning about Panem what life is like for people in different districts and how it is different from our own. Now who wants to go first?"
I watched as pairs of people got up and pick different envelopes revealing districts 11, 5, 7 and different amounts of money; All while trying to sneak a glimpse of Peeta out of the corner of my eye.
"We should go," Peeta said putting his hand up. "I don't want to be last.
"Peeta and Katniss," Mr. Cinna said.
"Come on," Peeta said getting up and making his way to the front of the class with me following.
"District first," Mr. Cinna said.
"You can do it," Peeta said.
"Thanks," I reached out and took an envelope.
"Where you going?" Mr. Cinna questioned.
" District 4," I opened the envelope and read it out loud.
"Now you Peeta," he help out the yellow envelops.
"$250,000," Peeta picked and envelope and read out the content.
"Think you can work with that?" Mr. Cinna questioned.
"Yeah think we can," he said smiling. However his smile disappeared as soon as he looked at me.
For the next ten minutes I watched other groups pick their districts and Mr. Cinna explain things further; but all I could think about was what I was going to say when we could start working.
"Okay get to work my little people," Mr. Cinna said.
I just sat there alternating from staring in front of me and staring at the envelope that I was still holding.
"Where do you want to start?" Peeta said. I still didn't want to look at him. "Katniss?"
"I'm sorry Peeta," I basically screamed.
"Katniss I am not going through this," I finally turned to face Peeta to see him with head in his hands.
"I just wanted you to know that I was sorry and I never wanted to make you do anything you didn't want to."
"I wanted to kiss you Katniss, I just didn't want you to tell me you had a boyfriend when we were done," he snapped.
"I'm sorry," was all I could say and I knew it wasn't enough.
"God stop apologizing Katniss it is not helping," he said collecting his things and storming out of the classroom.
I sat at the kitchen table just staring at the cupcake; the flower wasn't a normal orange colour it was like the deep burnt orange you only get to see once a day before the sun disappears for the day. It looked so real different shades made it look like that the petals were moving in a light and it smelt amazing. All I wanted to do was eat it but it was the only thing I had from Peeta and he still wasn't talking to me.
"What are you thinking about?" Prim said sitting across from me.
"Isn't it amazing," I said showing her the cupcake.
"Yes Katniss it is amazing but you have been staring at it for a week. I think you need to go and talk to Peeta," she said taking the cupcake off me.
"He won't talk to me," I sighed. I had ruined everything. Gale was being an asshole and we hardly ever talk without fighting anymore and Peeta wouldn't even look at me.
"Go to his house he is to nice not to talk to you if you went all that way," she said peeling the paper off the cupcake and biting into it.
"What the hell Prim!" I snatched it off her and I crumbled in my hands. "What did you do that for," I screamed as I watched her spit it out.
"As long as you had that cupcake you were going to sit her and just be miserable," she said sternly.
"Now you are going to go up stairs and put something amazing on and you are going to go over there and tell him how you feel and that your going to break up with Gale; Because as much as I love him he has been a massive ass since you two have been together," she said getting me up out of the chair and pushing me up stairs to my room.
"Your going to tell him that you were the happiest I had ever seen you when you were just friends," she said pushing me on the bed and walking to the closet staring to throw clothes at me. "And that if you two started dating you may actually smile," she laughed.
"I smile all the time," I said getting defensive.
"You use to smile," Prim corrected me. "For the past couple of weeks you have been nothing but sad."
"Really?" I asked. I never thought that I would be one of those girls that broke down because she didn't have a man.
"Yeah," Prim said nodding.
"But we are not going to do that anymore we are going to go out there and do something about it right," she said.
"Right, I'm going to go and tell Peeta that…that ," I have no idea.
"That you love him and the only reason you are dating Gale is because you didn't want to hurt him," Prim said.
"Yes, yes I am going to tell him that!"
"Your going to sound more confident than you did then," Prim laughed and went back to looking at my clothes.
"Right Peeta I love you and the only reason I am dating Gale is because I didn't want to hurt him. Even if in the process I hurt you and became a miserable person that never smiled." I instantly lost my confidence.
"The first part was good now put this on and forget the second part," she said handing me a blue dress that I am sure use to be my mums.
"I can do this," I said while putting the dress on.
"You're the strongest person I know this is nothing it will be easy," Prim said smiling.
"I'm strong," I said reassuring myself.
"You're strong and you're going to do this," Prim laughed.
"How do I look?" I asked Prim.
"Take your hair down and you will be perfect," she said. I let down my hair and looked in the mirror I looked hideous.
"You look amazing," Prim said smiling. "Now leave cause I have to go and wash my mouth out because that cupcake was really rotten."
I had almost made it to my car when I lost all confidence and started to head towards the house.
"Get your ass in that car Katniss," Prim yelled from the up stairs window.
"Peeta I love you," I had to say out loud to remind myself what I was going to say. Did I love him? I know what I feel something for him that I don't feel for Gale, but is it love?
"Peeta I love you," I should stop questioning myself and just go with it.
What was I going to do about Gale? No matter what I feel for Peeta he has been my best friend for longer than I even knew Peeta. I don't want to hurt Gale. How am I going to do this without hurting Gale?
Maybe I should go and try and work it out with Gale and see if it gets better, instead of just calling it off and running to Peeta.
Do I love Peeta?
I know I love Gale but do I love him as just a friend?
Before I could think about it anymore I found myself pulling into Peeta drive way. God I hope his mother doesn't open the door.
"Who are you?" it had taken me ten minutes to get out of the car and knock on the door.
"I'm Katniss. I was just wondering if Peeta is here," the tall blonde man that stood in front of me looked like a slightly older version of Peeta; although his features were harder and it made him look mean less approachable almost mean.
"I'm Alto," he said looking me up and down.
"Hey, is Peeta here?" I asked.
"Why do you want to talk to him? I am so much better," he said smiling. His smile was nothing compared to Peeta's.
"I would much rather talk to Peeta please," he thought he was so good but he was nothing compared to Peeta.
"He has gone out," Alto spat apparently he didn't like being rejected.
"Do you know where he is?" I asked. All he did was point down the street to a house whose front yard was covered with cars and if now that I listen I could hear music.
"Thank you!" I said starting towards the house.
"You sure you don't want me instead," Alto yelled after me "I'm so much better than Peeta."
"No your not," I yelled back laughing.
I took me about two minutes to get from Peeta's house to the party. As soon as I walked through the front door I knew that finding anyone in here wasn't going to be easy. I had no idea who any of these people where.
"Hey Katniss," I was half way up the stairs when I heard my name.
"Ummm," I tried to place the face. "Delly right?"
"Yeah I've never seen you at a party before," she said laughing.
"I work a lot," and I have no desire to be here.
"That must suck," she said smiling.
"Hey have you seen…"
"I saw him going into a room up stairs," she said interrupting me.
"The second one on the left," she pointed.
"Thanks." Making my way up stairs and going to the second door on the left. Peeta I'm going to break up with Gale because I have feelings for you and I kissed you because I think I love you but I am not sure.
So I am going to leave out the second part.
"Peeta?" I whispered as I opened the door. A single lamp on the bedside table lighted the room but it was what was happening on the bed that I was focused on.
"Gale?" he was sitting against the bed head with a very naked girl grinding up against him.
"Katniss! I can explain," Gale pushed the girl off him revealing more of Gale than I ever wanted to see.
"Seriously," I screamed grabbing the first thing I could and throwing it at him.
Peeta
"Really?" I laughed he was being ridicules. "Even if their entire midfield was injured they could still wipe the floor with them."
"Your dreaming you have one, two good players at most," Tyler laughed.
"We might have two good players because the rest of the team is amazing," I said finishing off my drink.
"Your crazy Mellark," Tyler said laughing.
"Yeah talk to me again when your team is on the bottom of the ladder again, I'm going to get another drink want on?" I said moving towards the kitchen.
"Hey Peeta," someone said running their hand up my arm.
"Hey Robyn," I smiled at her.
"You having fun?" she said lifting herself up and sitting on the bench in front of me.
"Yeah its alright, you want a drink."
"Sure," she said playing with my hair.
"Are you having fun?" I said handing her a drink so that she would stop touching me.
"Better now that I'm talking to you," she said.
"I'm really not that interesting," I said laughing.
"We could go up stairs and do something more interesting," she said putting her arms around my neck.
"I'm sorry," I said working my way out of his arms. I would give a million dollars for this to be Katniss.
"Come on Peeta you know you want to," she said grabbing my shirt and pulling me closer to her.
"Hey Peet that Katniss chick your obsessed with is outside destroying someone's car," Tyler said running into the kitchen.
"Who's car?" What the hell I didn't give a shit whos car it was?
"Tyler this is Robyn, Robyn this is Tyler. Tyler Robyn wants to go up stairs and make this party more interesting," I said before running out the front.
The front yard of the house was covered in cars but I spotted Katniss just as she threw a bottle through the windshield of a car. By the time I had navigated my way over to her she was sitting in the curb drinking from another bottle.
"Hey Katniss," I said sitting down next to her. I had seen Katniss leave school a million times in the passenger seat of that car, and I was sure that the car that she had been destroying belonged to Gale.
"Peeta," she said looking over at me shocked. "I came here to talk to you."
"What did you want to talk about?" I wanted to take the fact that she just threw a wine bottle at Gales car as a sign that they had broken up.
"It doesn't matter now," she said taking a sip from the bottle.
"Can I have some of that?" I said pointing to the bottle.
"Okay but it is really bad," she said passing me the bottle.
"Sure you don't want to tell me what you came here for," I said taking a sip from the bottle. It was awful!
"Gale is an asshole that ruined everything and your still mad at me," she said trying to take the bottle off me.
"I think you have had enough," I said moving the bottle out of her reach.
"Give me the bottle Peeta," she snapped.
"How many of these have you drunk?" I asked noticing the amount of empty bottle scattered around.
"None of your business Peeta," she said making another grab for the bottle.
"Tell me Katniss," I said.
"God I am so sick of everyone expecting so much. Oh Katniss your father just died but I am just going to shut down and leave you to look after us all. Oh Katniss I can't work anymore so you're going to have to go to school and work 40 hours a week. Oh Katniss I am totally in love with you but I'm going to ruin our friendship and then go and sleep with someone else. Tell me why your drinking Katniss. I'm drinking because I want to Peeta," she screamed.
"Katniss come and sit down. Here have this," I took my jacket off putting it around her shoulders and guiding her back to the curb.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't mean any of that," she said sobbing.
"Its okay I know," I put my arm around her and pulled her closer.
"I love Prim and I know that my mother couldn't help shutting down," she sobbed into my chest.
"I know its okay," I said rubbing her back.
"Ahh why am I crying?" she said getting up moving over to the car and started kicking it.
"Katniss," I said trying to stop her from destroy the car further.
"NO!" she screamed. " I hate him, I hate him."
"What the hell are you doing Catnip?" Gale said pulling her away from the car.
"Don't touch me and don't call me Catnip I hate it," she screamed pushing him away.
"What the hell have you done to my car?" he said finally said seeing his car.
"What took you so long had to finish fucking her before you came to find me," she said starting to hit him again.
"Come on stop Katniss," I said putting my arm around her waist and pulling her away.
"No I want to hurt him," she said struggling against me.
"This is all your fault," Gale start he started at me. "I though we talked about you staying away from her."
"What the hell you don't get to tell people to stay away from me. You are nothing to me anymore. I hate you," she screamed.
"Katniss I think we should leave before you say something your going to regret," I said trying to get her to come with me.
"She is not leaving with you she is my girlfriend," Gale said grabbing her arm.
"Let go of me! I'm not your girlfriend," she said struggling against his grip.
"Hey she said let go," I said.
"This is none of your business, bread boy" he said trying to push me away with his free hand.
"Let her go," I said one last time before I closed my fist and swung it connecting with Gale's face.
"Ahh shit," that fucking hurt.
"Peeta are you okay?" Katniss said taking my hand in hers then bring it to her lips and kissing my sore knuckles.
"Is he okay! I'm the one he hit bitch," Gale spat.
"Don't call her a bitch," I said hitting him again.
"Fucking bastard," he exclaimed holding his nose.
"Come on Katniss let's go," I said taking her hand.
I hope you like this one. I didn't want Katniss to sound like too much of a whiny bitch because she is such a strong character but we all break down a little when we drink.
Please tell me what you think and there will be more Katniss and Peeta goodness coming soon.