This week would be more difficult because we weren't just choosing one song. We would each be singing two songs: one ballad and one One-Hit Wonder. I wasn't entirely sure what to pick. There wouldn't be a mentor this week, so we would be stuck with whatever songs we chose.
Sam and I were currently in the middle of a makeout session. We still hadn't had sex yet and we weren't going to right now. I was a little bit afraid of it to be honest. I'd never been with a guy long enough to say that I loved him and I had never had sex with a guy that I could say that I loved. I was scared that it would be really awkward, or worse really bad. At that moment, I pulled apart from him as he touched me below my waist.
"Sorry." He apologized.
"I just can't do this right now." I stated. "I want to, but I'm terrified of all of the things that can go wrong."
"Well it's never going to be perfect." He responded. "I can wait as long as you want. If you want to wait until you're married to have sex again, I can respect that."
"I don't know how long I want to wait." I declared. "I really would like to do this before the competition is over, but I don't when. Speaking of which, we need to talk about that as we get closer to the finale, it's becoming a very real possibility that we could be the final two. The point is we can't put the competition above our relationship. I want to win but not if it costs me you and those rumors about me using you to win before I would dump you after the finale aren't true. I would never do that."
"I know that you wouldn't." He replied. "So have thought about any songs that you wanted to sing?"
"I was considering this song called "Who I Am" by Jessica Andrews." I explained. "I used to love that song back in middle school."
"Yeah, I've heard it and I think that you would sound great on it." He declared. "So I don't want anything to come between us either. Nothing is more important than my love for you. If you win, I will support you because I'd know that you had earned it and deserved it."
"You know it's a good thing that they wouldn't make us star in a movie." I quipped. "Justin Guarini can't act, or at least he couldn't back then."
"I also Kelly Clarkson on Reba a few years ago and she was pretty funny." He told me.
"I've never seen it." I stated.
"Well she can be a real motormouth." He declared.
I then headed back to my room. We all had our own rooms now that there were just five of us and Quinn was staying with Beth. It was better since we didn't have to conform to each others' sleep schedules anymore.
On Monday night, I was coming home from the studio. I was a bit exhausted from recording two songs. I couldn't help but wonder what it would be like when I had to record a full album. It was probably impossible to do in one day, even if I was up for the entire 24 hours.
Anyway, I found Sam in the foyer. I really wanted to get something to eat. We headed to the kitchen and cooked up some leftover slices of pizza. I drank it with a glass V8 V-Fusion. It was the closest that I could do to eating healthy.
I couldn't help but realize how much I wanted Sam after I was done eating. I immediately began to kiss him and we began to make out in the hallway as we headed back to his room. Once we were inside, I took his shirt over and he took my top off and I didn't want to stop.
"So do you have any condoms by any chance?" I asked him.
"Mike actually left some for me." He stated. "He said that it was good to have some just in case the moment ever came."
"Mike has good ideas." I replied before he kissed me some more. He took off my skirt and I took off his jeans and soon enough we were doing it. It wasn't perfect, but it still did feel pretty amazing. I really liked it. Maybe it was because I was with the person that I was meant to be with. I'd never prescribed to the theory before, but it was starting to make sense to me that there was one person for everyone while both of those people were still alive. Whether it was or not, it was still the best that I had ever felt.
On Tuesday, we headed to the show. I knew the songs that I was going to sing. I would be 3rd and 8th. I wore a black dress with black and red roses on it and a leather jacket and a smile.
"Welcome back to American Idol." Jesse said. "Tonight the contestants will each be singing two songs: one ballad and one song from a One-Hit Wonder. Let's meet our contestants: Quinn Fabray, Kurt Hummel, Faith Hudson, Rachel Berry, and Sam Evans."
Quinn was up first and sang "Let It Be" by The Beatles. While it was a pretty easy song, it was such a good song that anyone who sang it sounded great on it. I really enjoyed the performance.
Kurt was after her and sang "Wind Beneath My Wings" by Bette Midler and it was dreary. I thought the song sounded pretty dated and it was definitely a mistake for him to sing it. If his second song wasn't any better, he probably had bought a ticket home.
I headed out to the stage and began to sing.
There was a time when I was so brokenhearted.
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned, cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killing kind
All I want is someone that I can't resist
I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' cause I let you
Do what you do down on me
Cause what you got inside aint where your love should stay
Yeah our love, sweet love aint love till you give your heart away
I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' to I let you
Do what you do down on me
"You know a lot of people say that Aerosmith was best in the 70s, but I think the 90s was when they really hit their stride." Will replied. "I love that song and I loved the way you sang it."
"Well I know that you're not going to be crying this week because you're not going home." Emma told me.
"It got a bit screechy at some points, but that can be expected when you do an Aerosmith voice." Sue commented. "Overall, it was pretty good."
Rachel followed me and sang "Open Arms" by Journey, except it sounded more like the Mariah Carey version, which I didn't like. One thing that I had noted was people didn't seem to have a lot of luck singing Journey songs. I hoped it meant that she would go home, but I didn't think that she would.
Sam then headed to the stage to close out the ballads.
What would you do if I sang out of tune
Would you stand up and walk out on me
Lend me your eyes and I'll sing you a song
I will try not to sing out of key
I get by with a little help from my friends
I get high with a little help from my friends
I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends
I get high with a little help from my friends
Do you need anybody I need someone to love
Could it be anybody All I need is someone to love
Baby, I get by with a little help from my friends
I get high with a help from my friends
I'm gonna try with a help from my friends
I get high with a little from my friends
Would you believe in a love at first sight, I'm certain it happens all the time
What do you see when you turn out the light, I can't tell you but it sure feels like mine
I get by with a little help from my friends
I get high with a help from my friends
I'm gonna try with a help from my friends
I get high with a little from my friends
It wasn't that surprising that he sang the Joe Cocker version, because that tended to be the version that everyone preferred. Of course the original couldn't be considered a ballad even.
Quinn then went out again.
Small town homecoming queen
She's the star of the scene there's no way to deny she's lovely
Perfect skin, perfect hair, perfumes hearts everywhere
Tell myself that inside she's ugly
Maybe I'm just jealous I can't help but hate her
Secretly I wonder if my boyfriend wants to date her
She's the prom queen, I'm in the marching band
She's the cheerleader, I'm sitting in the stands
She gets the top bunk, I'm sleeping on the floor
She's Miss America and I'm just the girl next door
Oh I'm just the girl next door
I don't know why I'm feeling sorry for myself
I spend all time wishing that I was someone else
She's the prom queen, I'm in the marching band
She's the cheerleader, I'm sitting in the stands
I get a little bit, she gets a little more
She's Miss America
She's Miss America
And I'm the just the girl next door
I'm just the girl, I'm just the girl next door
I'm just the girl, I'm just the girl next door
I'm just the girl next door
It was definitely one of my favorite one-hit wonder songs because it was a fun song to dance to. She sounded like she was having fun with it.
Kurt then sang "I Don't Want to Miss A Thing". Apparently some guy named Mark Chesnutt released a version not long after Aerosmith did. It sounded more like Aerosmith, but his voice didn't really fit the song. By now, I was pretty sure that he would be going home.
I then headed back out.
If I live to be a hundred And never see the seven wonders
That'll be alright
If I don't make it to the big leagues, if I never win a Grammy
I'm gonna be just fine
Cause I know exactly who I am
I am Rosemary's granddaughter, spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy but I've got friends who love me
And they know just where I stand
It's all a part of me
That's who I am
I'm a saint and I'm a sinner
I'm a loser, I'm a winner
I'm steady and unstable
I'm young but I am able
I am Rosemary's granddaughter spitting image of my father
And when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan
Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy but I've got friends who love me
And they know just where I stand
It's all a part of me
That's who I am
"I'm so glad that America's getting to see who you are." Emma replied. "You are great and you're great at picking songs to show who you are."
"If you want to vote for Faith dial 1-866-IDOLS03 or 1-866-IDOLS08." Jesse stated.
Rachel then sang "Walking in Memphis" by Marc Cohn, and it was probably my favorite performance that she had ever done. I still hated her, though.
Sam then closed the show by singing "Bad Day" by Daniel Powter, who was a one-hit wonder because of the show. It really sounded good with Sam's acoustic guitar.
On Wednesday, we were singing a ballad that was also by a One-Hit Wonder.
So lately been wondering who will take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love to light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall, and fall upon us all
In between the sand and stone, could you make it on your own
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love
I know now just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go
The Bottom Two ended up being Quinn and Kurt. It was who I would have put there, but I would be upset if Kurt managed to stay, but he didn't and we were down to four.
So Kurt went home and Faith and Sam finally had sex. There are only three more chapters left of this story. Will she and Sam make it to the finals? The songs are "Cryin" by Aerosmith, "With a Little from My Friends" by Joe Cocker, "Girl Next Door" by Saving Jane, and "Wherever You Will Go" by The Calling. Please don't forget to review.