THERE WAS A MIX UP IN CHAPTERS! PLEASE READ THE REAL CHAPTER 9! THIS IS CHAPTER 10! SORRY!
Jim could only define what followed as the most hazily defined moment of his life.
Every touch was a searing flash of heat and each kiss a brand on his soul. Every inch of movement felt so unbearably fast and agonizingly slow. Jim felt like he was consuming and being consumed. Taking everything Spock had to offer and giving back of himself tenfold. Nothing mattered but Spock's touch on his skin, Spock's whispers in his ears, and Spock's warmth engulfing him.
Time became meaningless and the only moments that it seemed to exist were the few times Spock rested or they shared quick calorie filled meals.
Spock dropped in and out of lucidity throughout the whole experience, but his loving endearing gaze never wavered as his body was overwhelmed by it's primal urge to mate.
Jim looked at him with the same endearing look and whispered back his own words of comfort and love as he claimed and was claimed.
Just for a little while he forgot everything. His world was completely made up of the man at his side and he wouldn't have changed it for the universe.
"Jim."
Jim awoke slowly and smiled at the Vulcan lying atop his chest.
"Good Morning T'hy'la." He whispered back as he kissed the back of Spock's hand.
Spock leaned forward to place a lingering kiss on his lips before replying.
"It is 11:47 PM T'hy'la, but thank you."
Jim laughed lightly and pulled Spock closer.
"You know what I mean Love. What's got you up and about at this hour?"
Spock's smiled faltered into one that was tiny and sad. Jim could feel the mood change as if it were his own and held Spock tighter as he answered.
"Tomorrow will be the last day I am who I am. Our last day together."
Spock whimpered at the mere thought of leaving Jim and buried his face into his neck.
"I know." Jim admitted. Even though he had tried his hardest to forget the invisible looming countdown that had lingered in the back of both their minds, he had never lost track of the precious seconds he had left.
"There are things I need to do and some will involve leaving this room." Spock informed him reluctantly.
Jim nodded, but was filled with dread.
He and Spock had been locked up in their quarters for the entire week and hadn't had any contact with the outside except a quick message to Bones to prove they were both alive. He didn't want to face the world outside, especially not when it would take time away from his mate.
Spock claimed Jim's lips in a searing kiss as he sensed his mate's distress and tried to will the pain away.
"But for now all I want is to enjoy the time we have left. I want to kiss every inch of you, to know ever part of you like I know the back of my hand, and be with you in every way I can possibly be."
Jim understood his urgency and returned it tenfold.
"Anything you want Spock. Anything you need."
Spock's eyes watered but did not spill as he looked down on his mate.
"I need to be with you always." He admitted.
Jim brushed back a stray of loose hair from Spock's face and cupped his cheek with his hand.
"You will be. After all: "We are apart yet never parted, never and always touching and touched."
Jim spoke the last bit in Vulcan and the sound of his mate speaking his native tongue made Spock's heart ache with love and longing.
"But tomorrow….."
Jim pulled him into a bruising kiss that silenced his mate.
"Tomorrow what I feel for you will not change. Or the day after that or the day after that. What I feel for you will never change, not even if what I feel isn't returned."
"It will always be returned Jim. As long as this heart beats it will know who it belongs to, even if its mind does not."
Jim just smiled slightly at him and ran his fingers through Spock's hair even as his eyes watered.
"I know."
The pair held each other long into the night, sharing the occasional tender kiss and whispered word.
They had so little time left.
The morning came far too soon for either of them and with it came a mounting sense of dread.
With one last desperate kiss the pair parted ways to where they needed to be, even though the only place they truly wanted to be was with each other.
Jim was on his way to the bridge and Spock to sickbay and neither needed to speak to know it.
I really was going to do a sex scene, but my heart wasn't into it. I want everyone to feel the love more than the sex. Hope you all got what I was going for!
PS: For my Noex fans. Bramblerose4 and I posted a co-authored story called the Unexpected Path! Be sure to read and review!
PSS: Please read the real chapter 9! There was a chapter mix up!
Yours truly,
Jessica499499