With a sense of relief and dread, Thundercracker just stood there as Starscream stood on the tip of his pedes to peck a kiss to his lips and then turned to walked towards Skywarp. As he watched Starscream leave, he felt like scrap. Seeing the two seekers interact without any restraints weighed heavy in his spark.
Starscream didn't hesitate one bit as he ran his hands over the purple seeker's cockpit. Returning the affection, Skywarp bent down to kiss at the now trine leader's helm. The pair whispered to each other, and much to Starscream's chagrin, Skywarp picked up the smaller seeker, ignoring his shouts and flailing arms, and walked him to the berth.
Upon placing the seeker down like a sack of dry goods, Skywarp sat on the berth, ran his servo's over the red seeker's body, then laid back. After a few inaudible words, Starscream crawled over and laid on top of the other, purring as Skywarp racked his fingers over his cockpit, then up to his wings. Upon kissing a trail down the submissive's cockpit, Skywarp hastily opened his spark chamber; he took no time in exposing himself, and Starscream chuckled and gave a cheeky grin.
Thundercracker watched in awe. One of the most beautiful sights in the world was seeing someone else's exposed spark, and Skywarp was just gorgeous as he readily submitted himself. A wave of guilt popped within himself at his glitched up attempted, but he still couldn't take his optics off the display before him. Feeling his body start to heat up, he watched as Starscream spread the purple seeker's legs and positioned himself between them. The pair of fliers continued to whisper things to each other, but Thundercracker had no clue what. What went on between them was private, but whatever was said made Skywarp laugh? Starscream smiled as he ran his hand down Skywarp's belly, then slid down his hips, and pressed against the interface paneling. Messaging his fingers in slow, rhythmic circles, Starscream coaxed the panel to slide open to reveal an already leaking valve. Skywarp gave out a purr while his exposed spark rotated faster and canted his hips up, silently begging for the touch.
The blue flier longed for the kind of intimacy displayed before him: however, he was jealous that it was Starscream that got to claim them both. He was jealous that Skywarp had no qualms about giving himself over like he did. Letting out a sigh, Thundercracker grabbed a chair and had to sit himself down. He felt his body warming up, and it took too much concentration to stand as he lustily watched on as the pair of seekers go from heavy petting to much more intense actions of the bonding process.
A flash of a quick smirk on Starscream's face and a hint of blush appeared on Skywarp's face. The purple seeker's arms were quickly grasped and forcefully pinned down on the berth while Starscream playfully straddled the other. This was clearly in jest for Skywarp shown no resistance: he arched his back up and spread his legs further apart.
Starscream released one servo and ran his hand over the other's warming body until his fingers reached the wetness leaking from the more than ready port. The rim was traced a few times before the digit slowly pushed itself inside. With a gasp, Skywarp voiced his demands as well as thrust his hips down. Apparently, he wanted more. And who was Starscream to deny him?
Thundercracker bit his lip in an attempt to hold back a groan-not because he didn't want the pair of seekers to know he got off on this, but rather so he would not distract them. Seeing his beloved purple mech getting his valve stuffed full of Starscream's fingers was truly a sight to see. And when those fingers were replaced with the tip of a spike, Thundercracker couldn't help but stare wide-eyed in anticipation. It was as if he could feel his spike sliding into the wet valve at an ever so slow pace. Caught in his daydream, Thundercracker's optics drifted shut only to spring wide open again upon hearing a berth-mate scream out.
At first, Thundercracker thought Starscream took no mercy on his subordinate and slammed his spike deep within for his own good. However, upon closer inspection, that was quite the opposite. Skywarp had wrapped his legs around his smaller partner's hips and had pulled him deep inside. The red and white seeker growled, appearing angry at first with his lover's demands, but how could he stay angry when it had to feel so good?
"You'll pay for that," Starscream playfully hissed but gave into the hard and fast pace. Skywarp was not regretting his actions: his back was arched as his helm was thrown back, and his face bore the expression of pure bliss. His fingers gripped at the berth sheets as his valve was pounded. Given the amount of grunts and moans, the pair wouldn't last much longer. Only then did Starscream arch his back and open his spark chamber. With optics half closed and a needy moan escaping his lips, Starscream lowered his chest down to Skywarp's. Their sparks swirled fast inside their chests and sparked the second before they had merged.
Guilt. That is what was filling Thundercracker's spark. Sure, it was hot watching the two merge and seeing their sparks release their charge into each other. However, it all boiled down to his failed attempt. Just why did he have to glitch out? Why did he have to be haunted by his past? For once in his life, he understood why none of his previous partners lasted. He understood why that all refused him. With a heavy sigh, Thundercracker sat there stuck in his thoughts, feeling like a failure.
"TC," a voice called out snapping the blue seeker out of his daze.
He looked up and saw only Skywarp laying in the berth resetting his systems. Looking to his left, he saw Starscream standing with his arms relaxed at his sides. His spark chamber was closed, but his body was smeared with trans fluid. The blue flier gave a lazy smile, the kind you gave when you mind was still troubled.
"You OK?" Starscream casually said.
"Yeah, fine," Thundercracker replied and Starscream just gave him a look.
"You know that I know that's not the truth," The red and white mech said as he walked to grab a hand towel and started cleaning himself up.
Thundercracker could only huff out a sigh, crouch over and idly look at the ground. How could he explain the truth to Starscream? Suddenly his past relationships flooded his mind, and he feared Starscream would end up doing the same thing: leave.
Starscream poured some energon- one for himself and one for Skywarp. The seeker walked over to place the second glass on the nightstand for when Skywarp woke up. Then, Starscream returned his focus on Thundercracker. He walked over and gently cupped the worried mech's face in his servo.
"I want to bond with you, TC," Starscream said. "I want you to be happy- I want us to be happy. But I need you to tell me what's going on so we can work through this." Upon hearing no answer, Starscream set his drink down and gently coaxed Thundercracker to sit back. He sat himself down on the now available lap. "I am trying to understand TC, but you need to let me in."
How worthless was he? Why couldn't he do this right? Deep down, he knew the answer. But how in the pit's was he supposed to explain this to Starscream? After all these years of thinking he would never be in the position of submitting to someone, Thundercracker had not prepared to face the demon that had haunted him. And now that he had to, he didn't know if he could.
"Thundercracker," Starscream said firmly, but a look of sadness shown on his face. "This cannot be any other way. Either you tell me what is wrong so I can help you or Skywarp and I will have to look for a third...not something either of us want to do..."
Thundercracker could keep the coolant running from his optics. Of all the things he was unsure of, he knew he didn't want to lose Starscream. "Stars..." He muttered out. "I want to be with you...it's just ...hard to explain."
"Open up," Starscream said, and Thundercracker's optics opened wide. "Your spark chamber. If you can't tell me, show me then."
The blue Seeker nodded. He didn't-no-wouldn't loose Starscream. Venting out a puff of air, Thundercracker sat upright and triggered the coding to release his spark chamber. He sat there with his spark exposed, watching the was the yellow light reflected upon the other. Starscream bore his spark, and for a second, Thundercracker was mesmerized by its beauty. He felt a hand on his cheek, lifting his gaze as the other mech moved in closer. Their lips met a second sooner than their sparks.
At the first contact of their sparks, it felt like a jolt of electricity was flowing through his body. And that shock traveled to every limb of his body causing him to tense up at first: it felt like something was intruding his body. He could feel Starscream inside of him as if he had become energon and flowed through his cables. At first, it felt very invasive, but the feeling subsided and turned to the feeling of love. And desire. No doubt, Starscream was pushing his emotions in through their shared connection.
And that wasn't all that he felt. He felt unease flow from his lover as well as a sense of loss and fear. A twinge of guilt popped up from Thundercracker ::It's not you:: Starscream spoke through the merge. ::Let me open up to you first, then you can open up to me, okay?::
::Okay.:: A wave of mixed emotions flooded Thundercracker's body, and he just gave into it. He wrapped his arms around his smaller lover and just listened and felt to what Starscream had to say.
... ... ... ...
Thundercracker made out a small camp laid out in a small grove in a strange alien forest. A fire was burning in the center and two figures laid out beside the burning pile in an attempt to recharge in comfort. While he knew he was experiencing a memory from Starscream, he could feel the cold- it chilled him to the core as if he was right there. It was the kind of chill that made your joints ache and moving was hard due to sockets freezing over.
But, strangely enough, what he was feeling from Starscream was not just the intense cold, but the feeling of longing. Something in this memory meant something strong to his partner. And as he watched the scene play out in front of him, he started to realize why.
He saw the larger figure scoot over to the smaller one. The smaller figure being Starscream, making the much larger flier Skyfire. The large jet boldly scooped up the seeker, wrapping not only his blanket around the shivering frame but his arms as well. Thundercracker couldn't help but to chuckle as Starscream squirmed against the closeness. But deep down, he felt that Starscream was secretly screaming shouts of joy like a sparkling at an amusement park.
He felt Starscream grow excited over feeling the strong arms around him. He watched as the seeker rolled over and fake anger, but loved feeling the larger mech's chest press firmly against his. His own spark pulsed as he felt Starscream's giddiness when Skyfire leaned in and place a soft kiss upon his lips. Their first kiss.
Part of Thundercracker felt jealous, but he felt Starscream pulse through him soothingly as if to quell that feeling from him. The scene spun, taking the sight of the two mech's away, and replacing it with the sight of another alien world zooming by. Starscream was in full flight.
And Skyfire was full speed behind him. Thundercracker watched as the seeker weaved and dipped within the rocky landscape. Starscream was playing with the larger jet, knowing full well Skyfire stood no chance in ever catching him. Starscream would slow down just enough to fool the other into thinking he had a chance at catching him-
Thundercracker jolted as he realized what he was watching: it was the same thing that happened earlier. Starscream had actually allowed Skyfire to perform in the seeker's bonding ritual. A part of his stomach knotted up as he felt the glee and love the other seeker shown towards the jet.
::You knew I loved him:: Starscream spoke through the bond.
::I didn't know you bonded with him!:: Thundercracker retorted, a bit harsher than he meant, but he felt as if someone was taking his precious belonging from him. He watched as Starscream toyed with Skyfire just a bit longer, and then transformed and quickly landed upon the larger shuttle's back. Thundercracker sneered at how Skyfire didn't even resist- just simply gave in to defeat so easily.
And that kinda stung. Is this what Starscream wanted? Someone who would give in without a fight?
Starscream chuckled. ::No TC, that is not what I want. Skyfire never had that desire to ever overpower me in any way.::
Thundercracker was about to reply, when the scene cut to a barren planet. It's surface was gray and lacked any sign of civilization. The only thing the blue seeker saw was the two fliers- Skyfire on his back with Starscream on top with their sparks exposed and joined. In the distance, another planet was seen. It was much more colorful: splashes of green was seen between blues with what appeared to be white painted over its surface.
The scene cut to another cold place, and what he felt from his partner's spark merged with his own was spark breaking. The sorrow that washed over his body was unbearable. He watched as Skyfire wobbled in the air as smoke billowed from one wing: something glitched out. He felt the terror pulse in Starscream's spark as the smaller flier couldn't do anything to save him. Starscream had tried: he raced to catch up with the jet, but the strong winds made it impossible. All that could be done was to watch the shuttle tumble to the ground.
Thundercracker felt the panic swell as Starscream had spent the next few days searching for his downed lover. The snow storm had cleared up, but there were no signs of Skyfire. No sign of a large shuttle crashing anywhere. He felt the desperation of the seeker as he searched for as long as he could. Starscream was spark broken when he had to quit searching to ensure he had enough fuel to be able to return to Cybertron.
::That happened the day after we bonded:: Starscream meekly said. :: I felt as if I were cursed...to loose a lover...our time was so short. And when I did make it back to Cybertron...::
Thundercracker winced as the burning intensity of anger swelled through his frame. He saw the council and saw his beloved seeker standing before them with a look of pure shock. Starscream spat harsh words at the council, but they might as well have fallen upon deaf audials. They weren't listening. Once again, he felt the dread coming from his lover as the council explained they couldn't waste the resources to assemble a search party. In fact, they couldn't even send him out on any more expeditions.
... ... ... ...
::Not like I would have gone anyways,:: Starscream jeered and Thundercracker was brought back to reality. The image faded, all he felt now was Starscream in his present state. ::How could I have gone when... When I lost not only my bonded partner... But my expedition partner as well?::
::I...I'm sorry...:: Thundercracker said.
:For what? You did nothing.:: Starscream spoke reassuringly. ::I know you wanted to know what happened... So, I told you mine...tell me yours.::
Thundercracker closed his optics, sucked in a deep breath of cold air and exhaled. This was hard. And it hurt. It hurt to bare the most painful memory he had. It hurt to expose himself to someone else. But in the end, if he wanted to change, he had to do it. Taking a moment to compose himself, Thundercracker felt the feeling of Starscream swimming inside him.
::You can trust me TC:: Starscream soothed. ::I won't judge you, no matter what you show me.::
Thundercracker nodded and exposed his fear to his lover.
... ... ...
The sight of his home came into view. He knew the other seeker saw it like how he seen Starscream and Skyfire. His creators were there with him sitting at the dining room table eating supper in silence. Thundercracker could feel the shame hot across his face. His creators didn't believe him, and it stung.
'Stop sulking around,' his one creator said without an upward glance. 'Stop being so weak if you do not wish to be bullied around.'
'But-'
'No buts. If you want to be weak, then this is what you have to suffer through. If you don't want to feel this way, don't every loose.'
'But I told him to stop,' Thundercracker had whined and meekly looked up from his plate of untouched food.
'I don't believe that for a second.' The dark blue seeker growled. 'If you didn't want it, you would have told him to stop!'
'I couldn't! He was too strong-.'
'No. You were too weak.' His creator corrected with a fist slamming into the table. 'You young seekers just don't know how to control yourselves during your first few heat cycles with all those hormones going crazy. And yous end up being a tease, and can't take the consequences.'
'But-'
'No buts! Just drop it!' His creator shouted. 'Just forget about your slip up. You already caused us enough humiliation. Caused me enough shame!' He rolled his optics in disgust as the younger Thundercracker began to cry. 'You want some advice? Here, try this on. If you never want to feel like the pathetic piece of scrap that you are, don't be so weak!'
... ... ...
Thundercracker tried his best to control his now shaking body. Through the shared connection, he felt a wave of compassion swarm inside as Starscream tried to comfort him.
::What happened?:: Starscream asked as his hands gently rubbed at the blue seekers back. ::Show me.::
There was no turning back now. Thundercracker let out a sigh, and thought back on the day and showed them to Starscream.
... ... ...
He was at the solstice ball that was held every year. Seekers socialized here and there, some drinking their high grade while others danced or sat at the tables and talked. Thundercracker leaned over the balcony looking at the night time sky fanning his wings.
A funny sensation tickled inside his body. When he first felt it, it had alarmed him slightly, but he soon realized after talks with other seekers that it was his coming of age. Normally, he was proud of the fact he was officially mature. However, it seemed his cycles always picked up at the worst time. Feeling the cool wind on his fanning wings usually helped cool his systems and calm him down. He would return to the party once it passed.
::Primus! That must have sucked!:: Starscream chuckled.
::It wasn't funny!:: Thundercracker replied.
::You're right, sorry,:: Starscream spoke. :You should have went home. Or out for a flight. It helped with me.::
::I wished I had known that then,:: Thundercracker said and continued on with the evening in his mind.
He stood there looking at the stars when he felt a pair of servo's on his wings. At first, he jolted in surprise, but as the servo's rubbed soothingly over his wings, he melted into the touch. His wings twitched, fanning in a jerking manner before they dropped down. The other Seeker behind him took that as a chance to advance, and soon those servo's wrapped around the blue seeker's frame and groped at his front.
Thundercracker winced as the feeling of disgust rolled over his body, but his body was reacting in a different way. As the hands wandered over his sensitive frame, his wings twitched even more and his body began to heat up despite his mind telling it otherwise. As much as he wanted the hands to stop- his body was begging for more. The blue Seeker squirmed, but feeling his body rub against the mech behind him just egged his heat cycle on more. Looking up at the sky, Thundercracker did the first thing he could think of to escape: fly away. Only that was a mistake.
::He took that as a sign...:: Starscream began, but didn't have to be told an answer to know it was the truth.
Thundercracker raced through the sky with the other seeker hot on his tail. Thundercracker had always been a great flyer, but the older seeker had many more years of experience. No matter how many quick turns he did or how hard Thundercracker tried to shake him, The other seeker kept up, and soon captured him, overpowered him, and pushed him to the ground.
He could feel the warm body over him as if it was that night. In an empty alleyway, the older seeker raked his fingers over the twitching wings and nipped at his neck cables. Thundercracker wanted him to stop: but couldn't cry out. He could only clench his optics closed and grit his teeth as his interface panel was rubbed. Upon not opening it for the demanding seeker, it was ripped open. Servos that were not gentle rubbed around his valve before one pushed its way in. It hurt. His valve wasn't ready for how rough the other seeker was. And shortly after the fingers were added, he heard the other's spike panel retract and felt the tip of the spike rubbing against him.
The older seeker muttered some words, but all Thundercracker could think about was feeling the spike slide in his too dry valve. Pain riddled his body that made him shout out in agony. Each thrust caused a burning sensation that made it feel as if his valve was being ripped apart. The other seeker either didn't notice the pain he was causing or didn't care. In the end, the only thing Thundercracker could do was lay there and take it. Once the older seeker was finished, he went away and left the younger flier there, sobbing in pain.
The worst part of it all was when Thundercracker looked around to catch a glimpse of who took advantage of him. It turned out to be his father's best friend, who was a rather high ranking seeker.
... ... ... ...
::Does it feel the same way when I do it?:: Starscream asked, and Thundercracker was confused. :: When I was fingering your valve, did you feel that pain?::
With his voice filled with shame, Thundercracker answered. ::Yes. I never could...never could take it in the valve after that. Every time, it hurt.::
::So, because of this-::
::That's what my problem is. I don't want to feel that pain again.::
::But you knew there was that chance of you not winning, right?:: Starscream asked.
::I never imagined losing.:: Thundercracker admitted. ::Not that losing to you is bad... I just...::
::It's ok TC,:: Starscream said. ::We'll take it nice and slow ok?::
::Ok...:: Thundercracker mumbled, but not very convincing.
:Look, do you trust me?:: Starscream asked.
::Yes...::
::It won't be like that time, I promise,:: Starscream said. ::Just trust me.::
Thundercracker felt the bond break away, and he instantly felt lonely. Opening his optics, he watched as Starscream stood up. He held a hand out, and the blue Seeker took it.
"Lay down on the berth," Starscream said. "Let me get some things, and I will be right back."
Thundercracker nodded and shuffled his way to the berth. Skywarp was no longer laying down but rather sitting on the edge. When Thundercracker approached, the purple flier stood up and walked towards him.
"It'll be great TC, you'll see," Skywarp chirped and placed a quick kiss on the other's cheek.
Thundercracker sat on the berth and awaited Starscream. He fidgeted with his fingers until his lover returned. When Starscream came back, he carried a bottle in his hand and sat next to the other seeker. Starscream mentioned him to sit on his lap, and the blue flier obeyed.
"Kiss me," Starscream demanded, and upon their lips meeting, he boldly slipped his tongue in. Thundercracker moaned at the intrusion and sucked on the invading tongue. When Starscream finally broke the kiss, he opened his spark chamber once again and Thundercracker immediately mirrored the action. The pair of seekers leaned in and merged their sparks again.
::Just relax:: Starscream spoke through their bond. ::Remember that I love you, and would never take advantage of you, right?::
::I know:: Thundercracker replied. He felt the other seeker's hand travel over his body. The touch moved across his chest, over his shoulders and made their way to his wings. Pressing his wings towards the touch, Thundercracker welcomed the tickling sensations over the sensitive appendages. Fingers started with tracing the seems, then moved to rubbing down to the base where they pinched and massaged. All while, the smaller seeker made out with him and sent feelings of love through the bond.
::Touch me:: Starscream said and Thundercracker moved his servo's to Starscream's cockpit, where he traced along where the glass met with the metal.
Rubbing his hands back to the blue mech's chest, Starscream gently rubbed down the other's body, slowly making his way to the hips. He felt his lover tense up. ::It's ok.:: He rubbed his fingers in slow, soothing circles. Eventually, his hand dipped past the spike cover and to the valve interface panel. The fingers gently caressed the panel, but never in a rushed, demanding way. The fingers just played there for a while, that is, until he realized his partner was still tense. ::Breathe, TC:: Starscream spoke.
Thundercracker hadn't noticed how tense he became! It has been so long since he even allowed anyone to attempt to touch him there, and all he could remember was that one night in the alleyway. He sucked in a deep breath and exhaled. ::S-Sorry...::
::Can you open for me?:: Starscream said.
Nightmares flooded his processor at the sound of the demand. Closing his optics, Thundercracker did his best to calm himself down and retract his panel. He flinched upon feeling the cold air hit his now exposed valve, but Starscream soothingly cooed at him and placed a quick but gentle kiss to his lips.
::Tell me if it hurts,:: Starscream said as he gently touched the outer folds of the valve. He could feel his partner tense up but did nothing to stop the contact. The hand started out with only laying over the valve, then slowly progressed to a slow message. Once the blue flier seemed to relax slightly, Starscream gently traced a digit over the soft rubber lips of the port. When a finger brushed across the valve's outer node, Thundercracker flinched and hissed.
::Hurt?:: Starscream asked as he stilled his hand.
Thundercracker though about it, and the answer was no, it didn't hurt. At least not physically. Mentally? Yeah... The guilt returned as he felt Starscream's hand pull away. ::Sorry...it's ok...::
Starscream grabbed for the bottle that he had brought with him. Flicking open the top, the red seeker squeezed the contents out on his fingers. ::This'll help:: His servo once again returned to the valve, this time, working to rub the gel substance over the sensitive area.
::What... What is that?:: Thundercracker asked.
:: Desensitizing lube:: Starscream responded. ::First, the gel will help ease away any friction from being dry...Second, it will dull some of the sensations for you.::
::Oh...:: Thundercracker responded with his cheeks turning a shade of red.
::It'll make you feel...more comfortable:: Starscream said as he pressed one digit to the external node and gently swirled a finger around it. He stopped upon the blue flier hissing a breath inward. His other servo grasped a thigh and gently squeezed. ::Don't fight it...:: Starscream ever so slightly pressed on the node and Thundercracker once again squirmed. ::Open your optics.:: Thundercracker did as he was told. ::Remember, it is me here with you, ok?:: Thundercracker nodded. ::This time, you have a choice about what is being done with your body.:: Starscream applied some pressure with his finger. ::I hope you realize that I would never hurt you...::
::I know Stars...:: Thundercracker said. ::I want to do this...::
::Then relax and trust me::
Thundercracker nodded and did his best to relax. He loved Starscream. He may not be the trine leader, but he knew Starscream would be with him forever. All he had to do was get over his fear. He took a deep breath in and exhaled. He trusted Starscream. And he may have ruined previous courtships over this, but he was not willing to lose Starscream. ::Go on Stars:: Thundercracker spoke. ::I want this...::
::I want you to lay on your back:: Starscream said as he removed his hands from his partner and gestured to the berth. Thundercracker reluctantly slid off the lap, which required breaking the spark bond to do so. With a shaky frame, the blue flier laid himself down on his back on the berth.
"Spread your legs," Starscream spoke, and Thundercracker obeyed. Starscream layed his chest over the other seekers to resume the bond, and after squirting some more lube out, his other hand returned to play with the valve. With gentle touches, the fingers traced the soft folds before slowly pressing the tip of his finger inside.
Thundercracker bit his lip in an attempt to not flinch. He wanted this: he really did. And upon asking himself if this really hurt- the answer was still no. Had he been expecting pain? Yes, because that is what he received before. But Starscream was gentle, and upon looking into his optics, Thundercracker knew the circumstances were different. Finally, he felt his body relax.
::There you go:: Starscream cooed as he gently slide a digit in the valve. He took it nice and slow, taking his time to gently swirl the solo finger around to give his partner time to adjust. Upon hearing a pleasured gasp, Starscream introduced a second finger, gently working to stretch the valve. As he slipped the digit in, the valve hugged the intruding fingers tightly. ::Primus TC, you're so tight!:: By slowly moving his fingers, first by just wiggling, then by spreading them out, the valve was slowly stretched out to be able to slip a third one in.
Starscream let out a chuckle and withdrew his fingers. ::Oh my, what is this?:: Starscream joked as he looked at the pink fluid on his fingers. ::So, you can produce your own lubricant after all.:: Starscream smirked.
Thundercracker felt his cheeks blush, but deep down, he felt better. He wasn't so scared now and actually felt good. He welcomed the fingers when they returned to his valve and actually felt himself getting worked up. The way the fingers slid across and played with internal nodes no longer caused pain, but rather felt as if electric charges were being shot from them through his body. :Stars...::
::Ready?:: Starscream had asked and smiled upon seeing Thundercracker nod his head yes. ::Ok,:: Thundercracker looked confused when Starscream once again broke the bond and laid on his back. "Hop on," Starscream spoke.
"Um... But-"
"Yes, am taking you, but you are going to at least be in control of it," Starscream replied as he. "This way, you can go at your pace."
Thundercracker nodded and nervously straddled his lover's hips. He appreciated what Starscream was doing, the only downside was he wasn't too sure what to do. Starscream must have sensed this for he helped guide the blue mech onto his lap and lined his spike up to his valve. After rubbing the tip around the entrance, it was slowly pressed in. Thundercracker let out a gasp: the spike was so much more than the fingers.
"Go at your own pace, TC" Starscream huskily said.
The blue flier let out a sigh, closed his optics, and pushed himself down slowly on the spike. He winced as he remembered the last time his valve was used and how hot pain shot up his body. He had expected to feel that pain again, but it never came- at least not the way he had expected it. He could feel his valve stretch to accommodate his lover's spike, and while the tightness was a little bothersome, the pain from before never came back.
In fact, opening his optics and seeing the look of bliss on Starscream's face was so pleasing. He slid himself down on the spike a bit further, this time paying attention to the way his nodes were caressed. He moaned when he felt himself sitting on his lover's lap, fully sheathed. He just sat there, taking a moment for himself to get used to the new sensation. He felt hands gently rubbing at his thighs and discovered his lover smiling up at him.
"You're so tight," Starscream whispered.
Thundercracker answered by slowly rocking himself forward. He felt the tingling of his nodes but never felt any pain. He slightly quickened the pace and realized that this could feel good. He felt shame for never trying it before, but then again, every previous lover went about it the wrong way.
He felt Starscream shift underneath him, felt the smaller seeker bring his knees up to rest his pedes on the berth. When Thundercracker would rock back, he could feel Starscream pushing up ever so slightly. Primus, it felt so good. Pulling forward, Thundercracker slowly brought his valve to the tip of the spike and pushed back quicker on the spike.
Feeling is valve's nodes get rubbed and hearing his partner moan felt unreal. Being caught in the moment, as well as feeling no pain but rather pleasure, Thundercracker didn't hold himself back. He squirmed on his lover's lap, discovering which ways felt the best and what actions earned him a gasp.
Starscream placed his servo's on his partner's hips and gave a loving smile. "Let me know... If this is too much..." He gasped out between breaths. Guiding Thundercracker's hips up, Starscream positioned himself, the pulled down on the hips at the same time he thrust himself upwards. Thundercracker cried out, and Starscream bit his lip in concern. However, hearing his partner's engines rev and the look of pure bliss on his face revealed that it wasn't pain that was felt but rather pure joy. The next thrust in was met with the same reaction, and the third, Starscream actually felt Thundercracker pushing himself down onto the spike.
"Stars..." Thundercracker moaned. Primus he didn't know how much longer he could hold out. Not just from the pleasure of his lover spiking him, but also from knowing that he was now bonded with Starscream. Along with the pleasure, he was feeling, he now felt content. He felt safe and wanted. He felt complete.
Thundercracker gasped as he felt a wave of pleasure flow through him. He felt his valve clench upon his over's spike as it felt like his body was being consumed with electric current. He screamed out when he came, clenching his optics closed as he felt fluids drip down his thighs. He felt a final thrust inside him and hear his lover cry out as he released his charge as well.
He felt lightheaded. He didn't know where he was, but liked it none the less. He could feel himself panting as his systems worked to reboot themselves. Slowly, the view of the ceiling came into focus, and he felt a warm presence to his left. Glancing sideways, he saw Starscream looking back at him.
"How you feeling?" Starscream casually asked.
"Amazing," Thundercracker replied as he shifted onto his side so he could hold his new bonded mate.
::See, told you it would be alright:: Starscream spoke through the bond.
::You don't have to rub it in.:: Thundercracker replied as he sighed.
::Don't get too comfortable TC,:: Starscream continued on. ::You still gotta claim Skywarp.::
Thundercracker gave a lewd smile, placed a quick peck on Starscream's cheek, and got up from the berth. Looking around the room, he spotted the purple and black seeker, and not so quietly stalked up to him, and grabbed him from behind. He let out a playful growl as he nipped at the other seeker's neck cables and carried him back to the berth.
... ... The end ... ... ...
A/N
Well, I hope you liked the first story of 3!
Things I learned: need to plan out long stories better. This story can really use a rewrite- tho, don't know if it will ever get there. I know things could have been handled better, but bein gmy first really long story- didn't know any better when I started writing.
Dont get me wrong- i like the story- but now i know how it can be handled better for the next one. I know I am going to write sections at a time before posting, so it may be awhile until the next part comes out. I am working on an outline right now to better plan the story.
Thanks fo rreading!