This is a diary. Just so you guys know, and for the people who didn't know. I'm not really good at writing in past tense POV, but this is past tense. That's how I'll be writing.

May 11, 2012

Today people stared at me.

All morning, all noon, all afternoon. All day.

But this day wasn't a completely terrible day. If anything, it was the best day of my life. The beginning of something great, I feel.

Some went up to me and gave their "condolences". As if someone our breakup was a tragedy, as if I lost someone important to me. That's what they think. But I shrugged them off, I didn't care about or breakup. Or her.

Some were puzzled by nonchalance, others understood, just a few. My friends, members of the Oracion Seis, a group I'm a apart of, understood perfectly. They knew I'd be like this, they knew I wouldn't care. Midnight, my best friend and the leader of Oracion Seis, was the most understanding.

He knew of my little vow to myself.

...

I stayed after school, I decided to stroll around the school garden, lean against a tree, breathe cool, fresh air. It's a thing I do everyday. I love hanging around parks, forests. I love nature. It's very peaceful, and very quiet.

After a few minutes of strolling in the garden, I decided to go home. Shower, make dinner, read a book, write in my journal, go to bed. That's when one of Kinana's friends, Laki Olietta, walked towards me, she was accompanied by one of the school's adulterers, Jenny Realight. Laki was a petite girl, with long purple hair up in a ponytail, she was very proper, very prim, she wore glasses. She liked to wear "old-fashioned clothes", that was her opinion. She thought she dressed like a woman from the 1800's or something.

She wore a peach skirt that came to her knees, a sky blue blouse, white stockings and blue flats.

Jenny was and looked completely different. She was a huge flirt, and slept with any guy she found attractive. She wore the most appalling clothes, miniskirts, tank tops, shredded jeans, tube tops, clothing like those. She had long blonde hair, which had green highlights in it, also up in a ponytail and wore lots of makeup.

She wore a short pink dress and blue high heels. She was smiling. While Laki, looked very unhappy. I had sighed. I knew what was coming.

"Kinana's miserable right now..."

I'd probably get a lecture or something, I had thought. I just wanted to go home. But, I didn't want to be rude, so I waited for her to continue. She folded her arms, and shook her head. "She said she was sorry, cried, sobbed, pleaded for you to forgive her. She promised never to cheat on you again. She told me cheating on you with Zancrow was a mistake, she didn't mean it."

I nodded, indifferent. Laki gritted her teeth. "She's bawling her eyes out, Erik."

I nodded. "How is that my problem?"

"You're a jerk, Cobra! A heartless jerk!" She had yelled and stomped off. Jenny stayed and flirted with me. Disgusting.

"Now that you're free..." She said softly, twirling her hair on her finger. "We can hang out." I shook my head. "Thank you for the offer, but I'm not interested."

She only laughed. "Call me when you are."

I watched her walk away in disgust. I'd never be interested. Not in her kind. Ever.

...

After Laki and Jenny's whole drama scene, I decided to go to town and buy myself dinner instead of going home and making some. I was tired, my energy was drained. Why did Laki and Jenny have to invade my place of peace and quiet? I had thought. They had given me a headache.

So I entered this restaurant. A group sitting near the windows were laughing loudly. Annoying.

I sighed and picked up the menu.

Pasta Alfredo.

Roast chicken with onions and lemon juice.

Lobster with a special sauce the restaurant made.

That had sounded good, so I called over a waitress. I didn't bother looking at her, just ordered. She nodded, wrote it down then she turned around and began to leave. I closed my eyes.

"Wait I'm going to the restroom!"

I sighed and closed my eyes tight. I knew it was one of those girls from the loud group near the window. I opened my eyes and had instantly regretted it. I could only see the back of the girl as she waited for her turn to use the restroom. She looked like the flirts at my school, with long blonde hair that had pink and blue highlights in it.

She wore a short black bubble shirt and a white tank top. She wore 3-inch high heels. I shook my head, disgusted. She sighed noisily as she waited. "Damn it! What's taking her so long?"

She sighed and turned around. And my heart stopped beating. She was the most beautiful girl I'd ever laid eyes on, despite her clothing and highlights. She was petite, and had pale skin. She had huge chocolate brown eyes that seemed to shimmer, full lips, curves, a nice derriere, a full chest.

She didn't wear any makeup, just light pink lip gloss. She had small hands and amazing legs. She was... perfect.

I shook my head. What was wrong with me?, I had thought. I never noticed the body or face of flirts. But I was entranced, amazed. She was beautiful, like an angel. She smiled at me as she passed.

I slumped against my seat, confused. Amazed. Dazzled.

What was wrong with me?

...

So that was how my day went. With many people bothering me, pestering me about me and Kinana's breakup. Astonished by my "cruelty" and "nonchalance". It wasn't cruel. I simply didn't care. Was there something wrong about not caring?

At least I didn't go crazy like Ren when his girlfriend cheated on him with Hibiki. I was calm, uncaring. Because it didn't matter. She didn't matter. I explained that many times to people today.

But none of those events matter anymore.

Because I met the most beautiful girl in the world today.

I don't know what's wrong with me, why I'm dazzled, amazed. She's a flirt, I'm sure of it. With the clothes alone, anyone can tell she's a concubine. I'm not attracted to girls like that. Girls who wore short skirts and tank tops and who had highlights in their hair. But she... She was different. She's so beautiful, so angelic.

She looked so innocent. But she wore the clothes of a prostitute.

Like an angel wearing a demon's clothing.

It wasn't right. I highly doubt she's innocent, but I'm still drawn to her. I just met her, and already, I'm smitten. An immediate attraction. I'm in love. Am I in love? I'm so confused, I've never been so confused before, never had my emotions out of my control, never had my emotions "all over the place", I was never frantic.

What's wrong with me?

I'm usually calm, in control of my emotions. But she... She took all that away from me with just the sight of her, and she didn't know that...

How will this work?

Will I ever see her again?

My brain hurts... I need some rest.