div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Big...nice size" he mumbles, my jaw has dropped and in terror I look up at Mikasa. She turns away and leaves without a word. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""L-levi!" He stops staring and looks back at my eyes. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Yes?" He sounds innocent. Sure yeah okay no big deal. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Don't do that, at least not in front of Mikasa. O-or anyone for that matter!" He grins then he puts my pants on correctly. He finds my shirt and helps me with that too. He doesn't bother to add shoes. After I'm clothed he picks me up and carries me to the window. He manages to climb out with me still in his arms. Damn. Mikasa runs to the window, looking a little sadden by my leaving and worried. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""When Eren can walk bring him back please." Her voice shakes but I can barely tell. Levi however just ignores her voice and nods his head. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Bye Mikasa" I wave her goodbye as levi walks to his house. Hopefully I get to meet his family. Wait no I hope they're not home. What if they don't like me? I am a boy so that could disturb them but levi and I are lovers not engaged so that might help. It certainly did with my own family. Will they judge my clothes? Or the dirt that will always be caked on my feet? My messy brown hair isn't attractive to most people. I turn my gaze to Levi's and swallow some built up silva. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Will I be seeing your family today, levi?" He stops in his tracks and looks me in the eyes. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""No, they aren't alive. I live alone except for some maids. Don't worry it'll be just me and you." His fingers trail up my arm sending shivers down my back. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Okay um so are we just lovers or is this..." I trail off hoping he'll ignore my question or give me a half-assed answer. He starts to walk again as he thinks. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I'm old enough to continue living a lonely life if I wish. I've also never yearned for children so finding a wife seems wasteful. So I'm fine with just lovers." I bite my lip to keep from all my disappointment leaking out. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""But then there's you. You're at that age when sex is better than food. I would assume that you'd just want to also be lovers. However that seems far from the true, wouldn't you agree Eren?" My eyes widen and I look away. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I find that just having sex is boring. I want love and compassion, too." He looks away but I can see the heat rising to his cheeks. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""So it seems. I haven't married so don't except me to know everything. We can't have a normal marriage since what we are is..." I grab his face and lightly press my face against his. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Illegal. But I want you levi. Forever by my side and in my bed to keep me warm. Promise me you'll do just that." He mumbles and his blush darkens. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I came back didn't I? I'll always come back to you Eren, my innocent fiancee."/div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"When we arrive to his home, it looks more like a mansion if I may, he hesitates before opening the wooden doors. The doors squeaks as they slide open revealing a sparkly-clean inside. He walks us inside and a maid with strawberry blond hair greets us. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Hello master ack-" she begins before levi cuts her off. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""It's levi, miss Petra" he hands her his cloak and leads me through a long hallway before stopping at a door. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""This...is my room, don't dirty it up and don't," he looks me in the eye for the first time since we arrived here. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Don't touch anything. Especially without my permission." He sounds so scary, so I can't help but giggle and wrap my arms around his neck. With a roll of his eyes he opens the door and carries me to his bed. It's an actual bed not made of just feathers and a blanket. It's huge, big enough for us both to lay on it and then some. It's so soft too. I wish we had this back at home. The blankets on top or covers are red. Blood red. The walls are the same color too. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""So levi do you like the color red? Or did this room just... come in red?" Levi turns to me and raises an eyebrow. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Yes, why?" Oh no, he wasn't suppose to question me. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Um I just noticed" he leans closer to me and smirks when I look away with a slight blush. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""So you're that bored already? I guess it can't be helped for someone as young as you." Levi teases as he sits on the bed beside me and places his hand on my upper thigh. Close to my...sudden bump. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""L-levi... I..." His hand moves up, leaving a tingly sensation. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Hmm how far can I go, jaeger? I won't stop unless you say so...decide on what you want." His hand stops right before touching my groin. He's waiting for my answer but how do I tell him? /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I...can't" his grip tightens and an eyebrow is raised. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Explain" he almost growls. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I don't want you to hold back when we- do the do. My body isn't in a good condition. And I kinda..." My eyes look down to my hands that are intertwined with his. My favorite memory plays inside my head. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"My mother and me were sitting in the ally on the streets. We didn't have anywhere to go. My father had long ago left and was never coming back. We sat in the same position our hands intertwined and her head rested on mine. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Eren when you get married make sure you love them." She whispered with heartbreak lingering on her tongue. I nod my head and snuggle into her. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""And Eren?" I look up into her eyes that shine with tears. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Don't make love to them until you're married, please. I made that mistake...but I got you, my precious little boy." Her smile wipes away all the worries I had had. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I hum and squeeze his fingers tighter. "I want to wait until we're married. My mother told me to wait and I'm sure she thought you'd be a girl but I want to do as she said." His hand slips away from my fingers. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Do- did you love her?" His voice grows quiet and loses its earlier tease. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I shrug and dig my nails into the palm of my hands. "Yeah, she was a great mom. You'd like her and I bet she would've liked you too." His mouth opens but he quickly shuts it. His eyes turn distant and cold, leaving me out of his world. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Levi?" I reach out to touch his shoulder but he slaps my hand away. His face scowls but his eyes soften when I flinch. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Don't. I regret bringing you here. You're too young and this happened too soon." He snaps as he stands up abruptly and leaves without another word. Tears gather in my eyes as I reach for his leaving shadow. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I'm sorry! Please don't leave me alone! Forgive me, I'm sorry! Levi!" I scream out to him but he already left me and slammed the door before I even responded. He probably didn't even hear me. Why is levi angry? What did I do wrong? Why can't I just let people do what they want?! The tears pour down my face but I can't care less. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""C-ome ba-ck please! Le-vi!" I sob, I cover my eyes with my hands but soon roll onto my stomach and cry into his pillows. My tears and snot leak into the white feather pillow, but I didn't notice. Only half on my brain was working at the moment. And it was the part that ran on my emotions. After minutes of my cries and sobs I fall into a deep sleep, still confused on what levi really regretted. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"Okay you assholes, yeah you the reader, Eren isn't able to tell the next part well since he's an idiot and well also was asleep. So I'll be telling the rest until he wakes up. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"'Hey! It's not my fault you just suddenly told me you regretted bringing me home!'/div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"'Oi Eren, shut the fuck up k' /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"Okay here goes. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I heard him loud and clear. I may have slammed the door but I made no other move other than leaning against it to listen in on Eren's reaction. Maybe I was being a little to harsh but my mother gave me some advice, too. "-To see what a person is really like, you got to see how they react in their most difficult situation. I don't mean pushing them down or calling them stupid, I mean you have to break their heart to see if they'll come back to you. Even if its to tell you they hate you. Listen to what they say when you test them. Watch what they do. Some people you only need to hear their words and others only their actions." So I listen and what I hear breaks me. He wasn't suppose to cry or even ask me what he did wrong. He was suppose to cuss me out and tell me to take him home. No I messed up. That's what this was- no is. I won't be able to open the door and kiss him to "make it better". I fucked up and I fucked up good. With tears flowing down from my own eyes I run to get Hange. She lives with me too but I decided that Eren shouldn't know. She isn't around much and she's leaving to move in with her assistant, Mobil or Moblit whatever his name is, so I seek her out to release all my stress to. But when I stop in front of her office and find it empty I can't help but become pissed. Of all times. Now she had to be out. Oh but then there was a glorious sound. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Master levi is something wrong?" Miss Petra asked. I thank the Lord for sending me an angel. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I pull my bangs back and huff out a breath from stress. Concern covers her face as she steps forward to grab my hand. Eren's hand was holding mine exactly like this. No I can't think if that! /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Eren's upset and it's my fault." She grimaces for she knows how bad I am at with showing emotions and such. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Tell him that you're sorry. If he doesn't forgive you then it wasn't meant to be." She nods her head and bows before departing. That's some great advice, thanks. I huff out from this irritating situation. If I had just been nice and not a douchebag this wouldn't have happened. Without wasting another second, I run back to my room, hoping Eren hasn't left yet. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"And of course I'm truly an idiot. He's dead to the world asleep in my bed sheets that have become entangled with him. Even after slamming the door open, Eren only rolled over before falling back into his slumber. I exhale a deep breath as I rub my face. Why do I worry myself with this pathetic crap? His breathing stops for a moment then continues. I should wake him and apologize. Closing the door, I walk up to the right side of the bed and glare at his sleeping form. That little shit looks adorable right now. But he looks even cuter when I- oh yes, I grin darkly to myself. I know exactly how to make him blush the shade of a tomato. Leaning forward I slowly come closer to his face. His mouth is slightly open to breath which leaves me the perfect opportunity. I hold back the smile that yearns to be on my face. His hair is in his eyes, hmm I should move that. Wouldn't want him to stop being cute to be comfortable. Lightly I push his hair away and continue downward till my lips barely touch his. I linger in that position before connecting his lips with mine. He reminds still for a moment, unaware of the situation, until I deepen the kiss and claw at his arm. He seems to wake up slowly as he did this morning. My eyes are closed so if his shot open I wouldn't know. But I do know that he gasped and jumped in surprise. Taking another advantage from this, I slide my tongue into his open mouth and explore him. His tongue responds to mine and we engage in a fight. Me, to win dominance and his, to find out what the fuck is going on. After some time, I step back to give a last soft kiss and allow him to see me. Hopefully he understands what that kiss means. Please Eren for once in the short time that I've known you please don't freak out and be a dumbass. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""L-levi but I- you... You're not mad?" His cheeks are bright red as I had hoped. But his eyes were still red too. I cock my head to the side and silently cuss myself out. I made him cry and upset. Damn me. I've never been one to hold back my language or my thoughts. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Fuck me in the ass, sideways, with a screwdriver." I mutter, unaware of the horrid expression Eren has made. Apparently he heard me. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""But levi...won't that hurt, why would you want me to do that? Wait never mind I don't want to know." He shakes his hands like that'll keep me from saying something. Fool and he won't have to know why I just told myself to fuck off. I ignore the urge to destroy his mind and pull him into a hug. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I'm sorry Eren don't hate me." I plead hoping he doesn't notice it. But he does./div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""It's okay levi just don't-" He gulps "don't leave me please." He begs and barely holds his voice from breaking. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I look down at him and freeze. Tears cloud his eyes, the green eyes I once thought were so strong have been broken. By me. All it took was some overly-harsh words. But he wants me back it seems. I only had to listen to his voice to hear his desperation for my absence. I guess it was just meant to be after all. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""L-levi!" He stops staring and looks back at my eyes. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Yes?" He sounds innocent. Sure yeah okay no big deal. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Don't do that, at least not in front of Mikasa. O-or anyone for that matter!" He grins then he puts my pants on correctly. He finds my shirt and helps me with that too. He doesn't bother to add shoes. After I'm clothed he picks me up and carries me to the window. He manages to climb out with me still in his arms. Damn. Mikasa runs to the window, looking a little sadden by my leaving and worried. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""When Eren can walk bring him back please." Her voice shakes but I can barely tell. Levi however just ignores her voice and nods his head. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Bye Mikasa" I wave her goodbye as levi walks to his house. Hopefully I get to meet his family. Wait no I hope they're not home. What if they don't like me? I am a boy so that could disturb them but levi and I are lovers not engaged so that might help. It certainly did with my own family. Will they judge my clothes? Or the dirt that will always be caked on my feet? My messy brown hair isn't attractive to most people. I turn my gaze to Levi's and swallow some built up silva. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Will I be seeing your family today, levi?" He stops in his tracks and looks me in the eyes. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""No, they aren't alive. I live alone except for some maids. Don't worry it'll be just me and you." His fingers trail up my arm sending shivers down my back. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Okay um so are we just lovers or is this..." I trail off hoping he'll ignore my question or give me a half-assed answer. He starts to walk again as he thinks. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I'm old enough to continue living a lonely life if I wish. I've also never yearned for children so finding a wife seems wasteful. So I'm fine with just lovers." I bite my lip to keep from all my disappointment leaking out. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""But then there's you. You're at that age when sex is better than food. I would assume that you'd just want to also be lovers. However that seems far from the true, wouldn't you agree Eren?" My eyes widen and I look away. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I find that just having sex is boring. I want love and compassion, too." He looks away but I can see the heat rising to his cheeks. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""So it seems. I haven't married so don't except me to know everything. We can't have a normal marriage since what we are is..." I grab his face and lightly press my face against his. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Illegal. But I want you levi. Forever by my side and in my bed to keep me warm. Promise me you'll do just that." He mumbles and his blush darkens. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I came back didn't I? I'll always come back to you Eren, my innocent fiancee."/div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"When we arrive to his home, it looks more like a mansion if I may, he hesitates before opening the wooden doors. The doors squeaks as they slide open revealing a sparkly-clean inside. He walks us inside and a maid with strawberry blond hair greets us. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Hello master ack-" she begins before levi cuts her off. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""It's levi, miss Petra" he hands her his cloak and leads me through a long hallway before stopping at a door. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""This...is my room, don't dirty it up and don't," he looks me in the eye for the first time since we arrived here. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Don't touch anything. Especially without my permission." He sounds so scary, so I can't help but giggle and wrap my arms around his neck. With a roll of his eyes he opens the door and carries me to his bed. It's an actual bed not made of just feathers and a blanket. It's huge, big enough for us both to lay on it and then some. It's so soft too. I wish we had this back at home. The blankets on top or covers are red. Blood red. The walls are the same color too. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""So levi do you like the color red? Or did this room just... come in red?" Levi turns to me and raises an eyebrow. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Yes, why?" Oh no, he wasn't suppose to question me. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Um I just noticed" he leans closer to me and smirks when I look away with a slight blush. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""So you're that bored already? I guess it can't be helped for someone as young as you." Levi teases as he sits on the bed beside me and places his hand on my upper thigh. Close to my...sudden bump. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""L-levi... I..." His hand moves up, leaving a tingly sensation. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Hmm how far can I go, jaeger? I won't stop unless you say so...decide on what you want." His hand stops right before touching my groin. He's waiting for my answer but how do I tell him? /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I...can't" his grip tightens and an eyebrow is raised. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Explain" he almost growls. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I don't want you to hold back when we- do the do. My body isn't in a good condition. And I kinda..." My eyes look down to my hands that are intertwined with his. My favorite memory plays inside my head. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"My mother and me were sitting in the ally on the streets. We didn't have anywhere to go. My father had long ago left and was never coming back. We sat in the same position our hands intertwined and her head rested on mine. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Eren when you get married make sure you love them." She whispered with heartbreak lingering on her tongue. I nod my head and snuggle into her. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""And Eren?" I look up into her eyes that shine with tears. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Don't make love to them until you're married, please. I made that mistake...but I got you, my precious little boy." Her smile wipes away all the worries I had had. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I hum and squeeze his fingers tighter. "I want to wait until we're married. My mother told me to wait and I'm sure she thought you'd be a girl but I want to do as she said." His hand slips away from my fingers. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Do- did you love her?" His voice grows quiet and loses its earlier tease. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I shrug and dig my nails into the palm of my hands. "Yeah, she was a great mom. You'd like her and I bet she would've liked you too." His mouth opens but he quickly shuts it. His eyes turn distant and cold, leaving me out of his world. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Levi?" I reach out to touch his shoulder but he slaps my hand away. His face scowls but his eyes soften when I flinch. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Don't. I regret bringing you here. You're too young and this happened too soon." He snaps as he stands up abruptly and leaves without another word. Tears gather in my eyes as I reach for his leaving shadow. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I'm sorry! Please don't leave me alone! Forgive me, I'm sorry! Levi!" I scream out to him but he already left me and slammed the door before I even responded. He probably didn't even hear me. Why is levi angry? What did I do wrong? Why can't I just let people do what they want?! The tears pour down my face but I can't care less. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""C-ome ba-ck please! Le-vi!" I sob, I cover my eyes with my hands but soon roll onto my stomach and cry into his pillows. My tears and snot leak into the white feather pillow, but I didn't notice. Only half on my brain was working at the moment. And it was the part that ran on my emotions. After minutes of my cries and sobs I fall into a deep sleep, still confused on what levi really regretted. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"Okay you assholes, yeah you the reader, Eren isn't able to tell the next part well since he's an idiot and well also was asleep. So I'll be telling the rest until he wakes up. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"'Hey! It's not my fault you just suddenly told me you regretted bringing me home!'/div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"'Oi Eren, shut the fuck up k' /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"Okay here goes. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I heard him loud and clear. I may have slammed the door but I made no other move other than leaning against it to listen in on Eren's reaction. Maybe I was being a little to harsh but my mother gave me some advice, too. "-To see what a person is really like, you got to see how they react in their most difficult situation. I don't mean pushing them down or calling them stupid, I mean you have to break their heart to see if they'll come back to you. Even if its to tell you they hate you. Listen to what they say when you test them. Watch what they do. Some people you only need to hear their words and others only their actions." So I listen and what I hear breaks me. He wasn't suppose to cry or even ask me what he did wrong. He was suppose to cuss me out and tell me to take him home. No I messed up. That's what this was- no is. I won't be able to open the door and kiss him to "make it better". I fucked up and I fucked up good. With tears flowing down from my own eyes I run to get Hange. She lives with me too but I decided that Eren shouldn't know. She isn't around much and she's leaving to move in with her assistant, Mobil or Moblit whatever his name is, so I seek her out to release all my stress to. But when I stop in front of her office and find it empty I can't help but become pissed. Of all times. Now she had to be out. Oh but then there was a glorious sound. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Master levi is something wrong?" Miss Petra asked. I thank the Lord for sending me an angel. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I pull my bangs back and huff out a breath from stress. Concern covers her face as she steps forward to grab my hand. Eren's hand was holding mine exactly like this. No I can't think if that! /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Eren's upset and it's my fault." She grimaces for she knows how bad I am at with showing emotions and such. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Tell him that you're sorry. If he doesn't forgive you then it wasn't meant to be." She nods her head and bows before departing. That's some great advice, thanks. I huff out from this irritating situation. If I had just been nice and not a douchebag this wouldn't have happened. Without wasting another second, I run back to my room, hoping Eren hasn't left yet. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"And of course I'm truly an idiot. He's dead to the world asleep in my bed sheets that have become entangled with him. Even after slamming the door open, Eren only rolled over before falling back into his slumber. I exhale a deep breath as I rub my face. Why do I worry myself with this pathetic crap? His breathing stops for a moment then continues. I should wake him and apologize. Closing the door, I walk up to the right side of the bed and glare at his sleeping form. That little shit looks adorable right now. But he looks even cuter when I- oh yes, I grin darkly to myself. I know exactly how to make him blush the shade of a tomato. Leaning forward I slowly come closer to his face. His mouth is slightly open to breath which leaves me the perfect opportunity. I hold back the smile that yearns to be on my face. His hair is in his eyes, hmm I should move that. Wouldn't want him to stop being cute to be comfortable. Lightly I push his hair away and continue downward till my lips barely touch his. I linger in that position before connecting his lips with mine. He reminds still for a moment, unaware of the situation, until I deepen the kiss and claw at his arm. He seems to wake up slowly as he did this morning. My eyes are closed so if his shot open I wouldn't know. But I do know that he gasped and jumped in surprise. Taking another advantage from this, I slide my tongue into his open mouth and explore him. His tongue responds to mine and we engage in a fight. Me, to win dominance and his, to find out what the fuck is going on. After some time, I step back to give a last soft kiss and allow him to see me. Hopefully he understands what that kiss means. Please Eren for once in the short time that I've known you please don't freak out and be a dumbass. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""L-levi but I- you... You're not mad?" His cheeks are bright red as I had hoped. But his eyes were still red too. I cock my head to the side and silently cuss myself out. I made him cry and upset. Damn me. I've never been one to hold back my language or my thoughts. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""Fuck me in the ass, sideways, with a screwdriver." I mutter, unaware of the horrid expression Eren has made. Apparently he heard me. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""But levi...won't that hurt, why would you want me to do that? Wait never mind I don't want to know." He shakes his hands like that'll keep me from saying something. Fool and he won't have to know why I just told myself to fuck off. I ignore the urge to destroy his mind and pull him into a hug. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""I'm sorry Eren don't hate me." I plead hoping he doesn't notice it. But he does./div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;""It's okay levi just don't-" He gulps "don't leave me please." He begs and barely holds his voice from breaking. /div
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div style="color: #222222; font-family: Noteworthy; font-size: 18px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 24px;"I look down at him and freeze. Tears cloud his eyes, the green eyes I once thought were so strong have been broken. By me. All it took was some overly-harsh words. But he wants me back it seems. I only had to listen to his voice to hear his desperation for my absence. I guess it was just meant to be after all. /div