A/N: Hey guys, so if you follow me on twitter (krissiluvsu), then you probably read my tweet which said that I planned on updating yesterday. I'm so sorry that I didn't get to. I was out shopping all day and didn't get back home til super late. To apologize, I'm gonna update this story twice this week! Thanks to all those who are still reading and reviewing, I love you guys! Thanks so much! Enjoy the story!

Chapter 4:

The next morning, I wake up and check on Lilly. She's still fast asleep. I smile to myself and bend down, gently kissing her forehead. I head out to the kitchen to find Cat already awake and on her Peartop at the kitchen counter.

"Hey Cat.", I say grabbing a banana and a water bottle from the fridge.

"Morning.", Cat says not looking up from their computer.

"Watcha doing?", I ask sitting down next to her.

"Just checking out the UCLA website. They're having an open house for new students next Saturday on campus. Oh and I called a representative and told her that both of us are going there next year. I have all the paperwork done, I just need to mail it."

"Okay. I can take it today while you're at school.", I reply.

"Thanks.", Cat responds.

"Oh and you're babysitting 4 kids today. I put this weeks schedule on the fridge.", she adds.

"All right.", I say. "You ready for school?", I ask.

"Yeah. I just need to text Dice and wait for him to come over and then we'll go.", Cat replies.

"Kay. I'm gonna go check on Lilly.", I say. I walk over to Lilly's nursery and find that she's already awake.

"Hey princess!", I coo. "Come on, let's go see Auntie Cat before she leaves for school." I pick Lilly up and place her on my hip, walking out to the kitchen.

"Hey Lilly!", Cat exclaims running over to us. Lilly smiles and reaches her arms out to Cat. I laugh and hand Lilly over to her.

"She really missed you Cat.", I say.

"Oh well I missed my little Lilly Bear too.", she coos as she shifts Lilly in her arms.

"I'm gonna go get dressed. Do you think maybe you could watch her for a few minutes until I'm done?", I ask Cat.

"Of course! I'll start feeding her breakfast too.", Cat heads off to the fridge with Lilly to get her baby food.

I go to our room and quickly get changed and head back out to the kitchen.

"Thanks Cat. I'll finish up.", I say taking the baby spoon from her.

Then Dice comes over and him and Cat leave for school, leaving me with Lilly.

"Well Lilly, I guess it's just us.", I say as I continue to feed her.

I only trust Cat and Nona to watch Lilly, and I never leave her with them for more than a few hours at a time. I've become very overprotective over Lilly and do just about everything for her. Cat offers to get up at night when Lilly wakes up, but I insist that Lilly's my baby and therefore my responsibility. Also if Cat was the one getting up to take care of Lilly, I would probably ending up getting up as well to make sure that Cat's being careful with her.

When Lilly's done eating I carry her out of the apartment, locking the door behind me. I put her in her car seat in my car and drive us over to the post office to drop off Cat's and my acceptance letters.

When we get back home, I put Lilly on her play mat and let her play with her toys as the kids I was babysitting for the day began to arrive.

I was watching two 3-year-olds and two babies under 1, so I couldn't give Lilly all the attention I wanted to give her.

I got the little kids fed and watching tv, and by then it was lunch time, so I fed the 2 babies food their fathers had left for them as well as Lilly. After a few hours, the 3-year-old girl and boy were picked up by their mothers and soon afterwards one of the babies was picked up by his father.

I put Lilly and the other baby, Kyle down for a nap. I took the baby monitor into my room and lay down to rest for awhile myself.

After Kyle left, Cat called me to say that she was going shopping with Jade and Tori at the mall for Grad Day and that she probably wouldn't be home for dinner. I feed Lilly and quickly eat as well, then play with Lilly for awhile until she falls asleep, then I carry her back to her room, get her ready for bed and put her in her crib to sleep.

Looking down at her, I see Freddie. I see Freddie in her more and more everyday.

As I kiss her goodnight, tears fill my eyes. I go into my room and sit on my bed, trying to control the tears that are now falling.

I miss Freddie. I miss him so much it hurts. I wish I could just call him and tell him everything. But I can't. I wish he could just hold me in his arms and tell me that everything will be all right. But he can't.

Another reason that I feel so close to Lilly is because he's in her. Knowing that makes me feel safe. Having that little part of him is something that is so special to me.

Lilly is something that we created together, and even though Freddie doesn't know about her, I will forever thank him for that.

He brought so much joy and happiness into my life for many years and now, our daughter is doing the same.

I smile. I love saying that Lilly is Freddie's and my daughter. It's like the 2 words 'our daughter' will bind us together forever, no matter how far apart we are. With that, I go pay bills and wait for Cat to get home before I go to bed.