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I DO NOT OWN ICARLY!

Chapter 8:

Sam's POV:

The next morning, I woke up and couldn't find Lilly in her room. I panicked, thinking that Freddie had taken her. Then I found Cat with her in the kitchen.

"Cat! You scared me to death! I thought Freddie had taken her!", I say rushing over to Lilly and pulling her into my arms.

"Sorry. So you talked to Freddie then?", she asks.

"Yeah.", I say.

I then explain to her everything that happened last night.

"Thanks for telling him. I'm glad he at least got to meet Lilly, even though he won't be in her life.", I reply.

She nods slowly.

"Maybe you guys can work things out now that he knows.", Cat says.

"I mean he wasn't mad at you much.", she adds.

"It's not that simple Cat. I wish it was but it's not. He still loves Carly. He doesn't love me.", I say.

"Did he tell you that? Or did you tell yourself that?", Cat asks.

"He didn't have to tell me. I know that's how he feels.", I reply.

"Sam, you need to talk to him. Ask him how he feels at least. Don't just assume. You'd probably feel surprised on how he actually feels.", she replies.

"Yeah bu-"

"I just don't want you to miss out on something that could be Sam.", she adds.

"Yeah but I don't even know where he is. I asked him to leave for Lilly's and my sake, and I might never see him now.", I say.

"He called me and told me that he isn't getting the apartment here. He didn't think you'd want him to, and he wants to make you happy. He said he's going back to Seattle to finish up the year at Seattle University and he's looking for apartments in LA from there.", Cat tells me.

"Really? Do you know if he still lives in Bushwell with his mom?", I ask.

"Uh yeah I think he said something like that.", she answers.

"So what should I do? Should I go there?", I ask.

"Yes Sam. I think this is fate! I mean Freddie gets into the same exact school as us and he was looking for an apartment at our complex.", Cat states.

"Okay. Well I guess I'll fly out there as soon as I can then.", I say quietly.

"Good.", she says walking over to me and squeezing my hand.

She almost immediately books my flight out there. I'm set to leave the next day.

I grab my purse and Lilly's diaper bag from Cat as she unstraps Lilly from her car seat.

"Call me when you're coming back okay?", she asks.

"Of course.", I reply.

"I really hope everything works out Sam.", she adds.

"Me too Cat."

We hug and I take Lilly from her, placing her in her stroller and carrying my purse and Lilly's diaper bag on my right arm.

I head into the airport, get my boarding pass, go through security, and wait for my flight. During that time, I bottle feed Lilly and play games on my phone.

When we finally boarded, Lilly was restless the whole flight, but I quietly played with her on my lap as the people around me were all asleep.

We finally landed, and when we got back to the terminal I put Lilly in her stroller and headed to the waiting area outside the terminal to find Spencer.

"Hey Spence!", I call embracing him in a tight hug.

"Sam! It's been so long!", he says hugging back.

"Is this little Lilly?", he asks looking down in Lilly's stroller after we had let go.

"Yep she is.", I say smiling.

"Wow she's adorable!", he coos at her.

"You wanna hold her? I'm sure she's excited to finally meet her Uncle Spencer.", I say.

"Of course I do!", he exclaims like an excited little kid on Christmas.

I chuckle and carefully hand Lilly to him.

"Hey Lilly. You're so cute! You're an adorable little princess. Hi Lilly. I'm your Uncle Spencer.", Spencer coos to Lilly. She giggles excitedly.

"You ready to go?", I ask him.

"Yeah, let's go.", Spencer says carrying Lilly out of the airport as I push her stroller out behind him.

We get to Spencer's car and he puts my bags inside and I strap Lilly's car seat to his car, putting Lilly inside and strapping her in as well.

He takes her stroller and puts it in the trunk and we both get in the front.

As Lilly settles down & we drive off, I thank Spencer.

"Hey Spence?", I ask.

"Yeah Sam?", he says not taking his eyes off of the road.

"I just wanna thank you. You know for picking us up at the last minute. I'm sorry I didn't tell you where I was or about Lilly sooner. I really did wanna tell you but I didn't want it getting back to Freddie, you know?", I say.

"Yeah. I just can't believe you and Freddie have a kid. I really do hope everything works out between you two by the way. I've always loved you guys together, mostly because I love you like a little sister and I knew that Freddie would take good care of you.", he says. "Yeah, me too.", I say.

Soon afterwards, we arrive at Bushwell. It's been over a year now since I've been here.

We get out and head up to the 8th floor. Spencer takes Lilly over to his place to watch/bond with her for awhile.

Knowing it's time to do what I came here for, I nervously knock on Freddie's door, awaiting our fate.

To my surprise, Mrs. Benson answers the door instead.

"Sam! How are you sweetheart?!", Mrs. Benson exclaims hugging me.

"I'm fine thanks. How are you?", I ask her, surprised at her cheerful tone towards me.

"I'm alright. Freddie told me about Lilly last night.", she answers.

"Oh. What do you think about everything?", I ask her quietly, not wanting to hear her response.

"I'm so proud of you sweetie! The way you took responsibility for Lilly and how close you've gotten to her.", she responds.

"Really?", I ask.

"Of course!", she says.

"Why don't you come in Sam? I should have invited you to already. I'm just so glad to see you!", she says inviting me in.

I don't know what's gotten into that woman, normally she would HATE to see me.

I sit down on the couch as she directs me to, and we continue to talk, her inviting me to call her "Marissa".

"You know I was in a similar position as you. Freddie's father and I were married, but he didn't want kids and when I found out about Freddie, he left me.", she says.

"Wow. Freddie had told me about that. I just can't believe that anyone could leave their kid like that.", I say.

"Yeah, I know.", she whispers.

"I mean I love Lilly to death. I don't know what I would do without her. She's just the sweetest baby. She reminds me a lot of Freddie.", I add.

"Aww. She sounds really special. I would love to meet her sometime.", she says.

"Well she's staying over with Spencer right now. If you wanna see her when we're done, you can go meet her. I'm sure she's gonna love you.", I say.

"Sure.", Mrs. B responds.

"I'm so sorry, about your husband by the way. I'm just so glad you kept Freddie. I may never have even met him if you hadn't.", I say.

"Thanks. I had to keep Freddie you know? I'm guessing you felt the same exact way with Lilly. It's a little part of you that you just don't want to have to give up.", she says.

"Exactly.", I say.

Then I realized that the reason I came here was to get closure on everything. Spencer got to meet Lilly, and I talked to Mrs. Benson about everything.

So in the long run, I should be done here.

I thank Mrs. Benson for everything and tell her that Lilly and I have to catch a flight back to LA in less than an hour and promise to allow her to come to LA to visit her whenever she wants to.

I give her my number and promise to arrange her flight out to see us. As I leave, I tell her:

"Marissa, I just wanted to tell you that I will always love Freddie more than anything. I just thought that things would be much easier in his life if I weren't in it. So, goodbye I guess. Lilly and I'll see you soon." I close the door and go over to Spencer's to get Lilly and her stuff and with a quick hug, say goodbye to Spencer.