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Mark's P.O.V
Halloween
The funeral was beautiful and a nice ceremony everyone had split up and individually we were making are way to Angel's gravestone. I had already called Alexi Darling telling her I would be late but all she cared about was whether I sighed the contract and since I did it was too late. I had nothing else now, Roger is leaving for Santa Fe any second now and later today Daisy is coming by the apartment to pack up her belongings. How did this all happened, how did I get here. As I walked up against the cold autumn wind I begun to whisper to myself.
"How did we get here? How the hell, Pan left close on the steeple of the church. How did I get here? How the hell. Christmas. Christmas Eve last year. How could a night so frozen be so scalding hot? How could a morning so mild feel so raw?" I stopped for a moment pondering my questions and continued to speak to myself.
"Why are entire years strewn on the cutting room floor of memories? When single frames from magic night flicker in the close-up on the 3-D IMAX of my mind. That's poetic." I stopped realizing how silly that sounded. "That's pathetic. Why did Mimi knock on Roger's door and Collins chose that phone booth back were Angel set up his drums? Why did Maureen's equipment break down? Why am I the witness and when I capture it on film will it mean that it's the end and I'm alone?"
I looked at my camera and wiped a few tears coming down from my eyes. I found myself at Angel's gravestone where everyone else was gathered. Collins held onto Angel's drumsticks tightly as he stared down the gravestone. Roger refused to look at it and instead stared at the autumn leaves. Mimi was next to Benny his arms draped across her shoulder. Maureen and Joanne were next to each other but were not even looking at each other. And Daisy well Daisy had one hand on the gravestone tears going down her eyes. I so badly wanted to go over to her wrap an arm around and trying to comfort her.
I looked at her and she caught me. Her eyes then drifted back to the gravestone her other hand curled up in a fist. She was still angry at me. We all slowly walked away from the gravestone Collins staying by Angel's side. As we walked through the cemetery trying to find the exit Mimi softly said to Roger. "It's true you sold your guitar and bought a car?"
"It's true I'm leaving now for Santa Fe. It's true you're with this yuppie scum?" Roger said back.
"You said you'd never speak to him again." Benny said.
"Not now." Mimi said stepping away from Benny she walked up to Daisy who looked like she was going to explode with anger.
"Have you told them all about your new job?" Daisy said with bitterness in her voice.
"Not now." I said back to Daisy. Mo then got into Benny's face.
"Who says you have any right in who she says things to at all?"
Jo now pissed at Mo got right in her face "Who says you should stick your nose in other people's business."
"WHO SAYS I WAS TALKING TO YOU!"
"We used to have this fight each night she never admit I existed." Both angry Daisy got into my face and Mimi into Rogers.
Together they said "He was the same way. He was always..
"Runaway. Hit the road." Mimi said.
"Don't commit. SET ME ADRIFT" Daisy said.
"YOU'RE FULL OF SHIT!" I wanted to scream at Daisy how could she feel like this towards me. I was so pissed all of a sudden.
"She's in denial."
Together Mimi and Daisy said "He's in denial."
"Didn't give an each when I have a mile!"
"I GAVE A MILE!"
"Gave a mile to who!" Roger shouted at Mimi. I couldn't shout at Daisy not now. Not at Angels funeral.
Together Jo, Mimi and Daisy all said together. "I'd be happy to die for a taste of what Angel had. Someone to live for unafraid to say I LOVE YOU!" Daisy's eyes were full of hurt and anger. I tried to restrain myself, but I couldn't take her words anymore. I'm sorry Angel.
Roger and I both pissed at our girls shouted. "All YOUR WORDS ARE NICE. MIMI (Daisy for me.) BUT LOVES NOT A THREE WAY STREET."
Daisy interrupted Roger shouting at me giving me a push. "IT WAS A THREE WAY STREET ME MARK AND HIS LOVING CAMERA." I couldn't believe she would say that. Now I was really pissed. Shouting Roger and I said.
"YOU'LL NEVER SHARE REAL LOVE UNTIL YOU LOVE YOURSELF. I SHOULD KNOW." Daisy was about ready to come at me and no one was holding her back until Collins came in to break the argument.
"You all said you'd be cool today so please for my sake. I can't believe he's gone. I can't believe you're going. I can't believe this family must die. Angel helped us believe in love. I can't believe you disagree." It then hit me this was the end. The end of our family, the end of all our friendships and our relationships. It had all crashed and burned. This was it. This was our final goodbye.
All of us looking away from each other whispered, "I can't believe this is…goodbye." Mo looked at Jo in tears. She slowly walked up to her and wiped away Jo's tears. Jo softly smiled and held onto Mo's hands. Softy smiling at each other they walked hand in hand out of the cemetery. Daisy looked up at me anger in her eyes. I looked away still hurt by the words she said. Daisy then stormed out of the cemetery Roger close behind her.
I watched Mimi sit next to Collins handing him a cigarette. Benny walked back from the undertaker. "Must be nice to have money." I whispered.
Both Collins and Benny said "No shit." They smiled at each other and then Collins said.
"I hope you know you just paid for the funeral for the person who killed your dog."
"I know." Benny said. "I always hated that dog." We all laughed it felt calm just for a moment. "Why don't I take you guys out for a drink?"
"Oh no." I protested. "I have to…" But they all insisted so I joined them for a quick drink and rushed over to Buzzline after that. On my way home I hoped Roger hadn't left yet maybe I could talk some sense into him. It was my last chance.