Mark's P.O.V

One month later.

This past month has been absolute shit. Mimi was nowhere to be found and I'm not sure where Collins is now. I hardly see him anymore. Roger has completely disappeared of the face of the planet. I'll see Mo and Jo every now and then, but there still trying to fix their relationship. And Daisy I haven't seen here since Halloween night. I still remember her face when I told her I couldn't get past the pain. It looked like her heart was crushed into a million pieces. I couldn't get her face out of my head and Angel's voice continued to ring in my ear.

Buzzline was a soul sucking place. Yet I continued to go there so I could have money. Yet I never spent it. I couldn't bring myself to eat unless I was about to pass out. Everything felt wrong in the world. Nothing was right. Everything was right when my family was together. I had to keep going I had to keep going out the job so I would have something to do.

I was sitting at the desk as I watched the teleprompter rolled by. "Back to you Alexi coming up next vampire welfare queens who are compulsive bowlers." I stopped for a minute realizing what I had just read. This was insane this was crazy. "Oh my god." I said with the camera still running. "What am I doing?" I ran out of my chair grabbing my jacket. Alexi followed me as I raced out of the building.

"Mark what are you doing?"

"Alexi call me a hypocrite but I need to finish my own film first. I QUIT!" Then running out of the door I cheered finally realizing what I had to do. I had to finish my film for Angel. I had to find Daisy so I could show to her and tell her how I really feel about her. I raced to my apartment excited as could be, knowing what to do now when I bumped into someone. I fell onto the ground rubbing my head. "Hey watch were you're…." Could it be…The man I bumped into had shaggy blonde hair and a leather jacket on and he was holding a guitar case.

"Roger?"

"Mark?" I got up and gave a huge hug. He held onto me tight dropping his case. I couldn't believe it he was back. I couldn't help but cry. "Mark I'm sorry about everything I said I didn't mean it. I just…"

"It's okay Rog I know words spoken in anger mean nothing at all." Roger took a step back and said.

"Since when did you get all philosophical?"

"Since two seconds ago, when I realized something important in my life. Wait when did you get back?"

"Just now actually." Roger said half laughing. "I just bought my guitar back and was going back to the apartment hoping to catch you. He gave me another hug and managed to lift me up which he has never been able to do before. He put me down. His eyes focused in on my looking at me worryingly. "Mark?" He asked. "Since when did you get so light?"

I looked down at my shoes avoiding eye contact. God how could I tell him.

"Mark?" He asked. "What's wrong? Have you not been eating?" Roger held onto my hand tight. "Mark please tell me." His eyes shone with worry. How could I not tell him? He's my best friend.

"No I…I haven't been able to eat. I just can't bring myself to eat. Every time I do eat though my stomach turns and I throw it back up."

"Oh god Mark. You have to eat. If you don't you could get really sick. You could die." Mark then grabbed both of my hands. "Let's get you back to the apartment. You can rest and I can buy us some groceries with what money I have left."

"Roger I can't rest now. I know what I need to do now. I need to finish my film I need to find…." All of a sudden I felt my knees give out. I would have hit the sidewalk if Roger wasn't there to catch me.

"What you need to do." Roger said to me. "Take it easy." With one hand he held onto his guitar case and with his free arm he wrapped it around me supporting me. "I am taking you home. Now. And you have to eat something. I don't want to lose you. Not when I just got back." I couldn't say anything after all the times I have been there for Roger. Helping him deal with April's death. Helping him getting clean. Helping him with life in general. He was now returning the favor.

Roger helped me all the one home and got me to lay down on our couch. "Now please tell me you have something to eat in the house."

"There might be some cheese in fridge." I said softly. My head was spinning and I saw black dots across my eyes.

"Oh god that is not fresh cheese." Roger looked over at me and saw me leaning back. He raced towards me and said, "Hey stay awake Markie. Stay with me." He raced back to the kitchen and dug some cereal out of the cupboards. He poured a bowl and handed it to me. "Okay listen to me Mark I want you to eat this slowly. I need to go out and buy some real food. Just promise me you'll stay awake. Okay just stay awake and eat. Please?"

"I will Rog." He gave me a hug and I could see the tears going down his eyes. He grabbed his wallet and raced out of the apartment. When he was gone I set the cereal down and managed to grab my camera. I couldn't eat not knowing that somewhere Daisy is out there. I have to tell her how I feel. How I was such an idiot for telling her sooner. That from now on I would never hide my true feelings from her. And until I made things right I would not eat. Not until I felt like everything was right in the world again. Until the guilt was gone of what I did to her and everyone I love.