"Roger, what the hell are you doing?" Mark asked as Roger came out of his old room at the loft carrying a bottle of stoli.
"I need to sort some stuff out." he slurred stumbling to the couch.
"Roger, is it Mandy?" Collins asked as he plopped down.
"I called Charlie Mandy last night." he told them starting to cry.
"Roger, why would you do that? You've come so far." Collins asked as Mark got up.
"I don't know. She said it wasn't the first time I called her Mandy either." he said crying into his hands.
"Getting Michelle made him think about her. She resembles her so much." Mark said walking around.
"It's not Michelle's fault. She's just an innocent girl. It's just seeing them together brings back all this stuff. I mean, Charlie looks like Mandy and seeing her with Michelle make me think about the girl we could have had." he told him wiping his eyes.
"Roger, you're not gonna go back to drinking and using, are you?" Collins asked looking over at him.
"No, I just fucked up with Charlie and Michelle, Collins." he told him crying again.
"Do you love them?" Mark asked looking down at him.
"Of course I love them. They're my girls." he yelled looking up at him.
"So what the hell is the problem? You let Mandy go, you marry Charlie and raise Michelle." Mark yelled back.
"I'm trying. And I was doing so good. I mean, things with me and Charlie were so good. Sure we were fighting, but that's just us and we were getting married. And then we got Michelle and things have been great with her. I love that girl like she was my own blood. But I had to go and fuck it up by letting Mandy in my mind." he yelled trying to get up but falling into Collins arms in tears.
"Rog, she's always gonna be in your mind. You just gotta put her in the past and go on with your future with Charlie and Michelle." Collins whispered comforting him.
"I fucked up Collins. I don't know it they'll take me back." he cried looking up at him.
"You need to sort all this out and for godsakes stop drinking. Charlie and Michelle don't deserve that." Mark yelled at him going into his room.
"He's right, you know?" Collins told him rubbing his back.
"I know. But I need to make peace with Mandy once and for all. It's the only way I can live my life with Charlie and Michelle and have my family back." he told him wiping his eyes again.
"Whatever you need to do, I'm here. I'm with you every step of the way." Collins told him as Mark stormed out of his room.
"Come on." he said grabbing Roger's arm.
"Where are we going?" he asked following him leaving the bottle of stoli behind.
"You'll see." he told him dragging him out of the loft.
"Mark, stop. Just tell me where we're going." he yelled pulling back from him.
"We're going to Scarsdale so you can say goodbye to Mandy and the baby once and for all." he said as Joanne pulled up in her car.
"I don't want to go to Scarsdale without Charlie and Michelle." he told him as Mark put him in the car.
"Not this time. This we need to do. Just you and me." he told him getting in the car as Joanne drove up to Scarsdale. Roger fell asleep.
"He's really bad again, isn't he?" Maureen asked looking back at Mark.
"No, this time he wants to forget about Mandy and live his life with Charlie and Michelle. I think he's better than he's been in a long time. He never really forgot her, he just put her in the back of his mind. Having Charlie and Michelle made him think about what he could have had with Mandy. He loves Charlie and Michelle. He really does. He thinks of them as his family. He just needs to make peace with my sister and their baby dying that night and move on once and for all." Mark explained as Roger tossed and turned in the car.
"Charlie, I'm sorry." he mumbled as Mark smiled at them.
"Sounds like we found out what Roger's hearts desire is." Joanne said looking at them through the rear view mirror.
"Turn here." Mark said looking out the window seeing the cemetery from the highway. "Roger, we're almost there." he said nudging Roger.
"Charlie." he called out as his eyes sprung open.
"No, it's not Charlie, it's Mark. We're almost at the cemetery." he told him looking up at him.
"Mandy?" he asked looking down at him.
"Yeah Roger. We're going to see Mandy." he told him as Joanne pulled up to the entrance.
"It's in section E. Number 207." Mark told her pointing to the left.
"Why are you bringing me here Mark?" he asked rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
"Because you need closure in order to be a family with Charlie and Michelle. Which is what you really want." he told him as Joanne stopped the car in front of the section where Amanda was buried. "Come on Roger." he said opening the door for Roger to climb out.
"I don't know if I can do this." Roger said frozen with fear.
"You just tell her all the things you have wanted to tell her these last 11 years and say goodbye. Tell her about Charlie and Michelle. You need to do this for yourself Roger." Mark told him dragging him up the hill to Amanda's grave.
"OK, Hey Mandy. I missed you so much. I'm sorry we couldn't have the life we always talked about. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you died. I'm sorry about all the things I did after I lost you and our little baby. I met someone. Her name is Charlie and you would really love her Baby. She's funny, she's smart and she doesn't put up with my shit, which I know is you. And we have this beautiful little girl. Her name is Michelle and she's gonna be 14 in May. She is one incredible kid. Her spirit reminds me of you. She looks like she could be our little girl. Baby, I wanna marry Charlie. I asked her last year, but we've been getting used to having Michelle and we've been looking for a place and stuff. And I've been thinking about you a lot lately. Baby, you know I'll always love you. I will never forget you, but my life is with Charlie and Michelle now. Baby, I need you to say it's OK for me to move on with them. Please. I need you to understand that I have to say goodbye to you here so I can live my life with my family." he told her crying against the headstone that read: Amanda Lee Cohen Beloved Daughter, Sister and Fiance. Just then a blue bird landed on the headstone and churped at him.
"I think that was your sign Roger." Mark whispered leaning down to him.
"OK Baby. I hear you. I love you." Roger whispered kissing his hand and touching the headstone before Mark helped him up and they went back to the car. "OK, I need to go home to my girls." he told Joanne as she started the car and they started back home.