Here is a sad(ish) chapter, where Regina tells everything to Robin and he soothes her + a little cute OQ scene at the end.
Enjoy
During the missing year Regina had found comfort in the thief. He understood her, most of the times, when it was about Henry and about loosing him. She usually didn't open up to anyone, not even Snow who had been in her life quite some time already.
This night was one of those nights when she was in a bad place. Crying and no one there to hold her. Despite what she had discussed with the thief today, he hadn't showed up. Not to talk or trying to soothe her back to sleep. He hadn't come.
Regina was crying on her bed. She had been searching for a way to defeat the wicked witch but instead she had found letters. Letters from Henry, her mother, Snow ever possible letter where the text broke her heart. She didn't even notice when the thief had knocked and cracked the door open and called her name. She was too 'busy' crying.
Robin stepped into the huge room carefully and closed the door making no sound. Once the door was shut he turned around and saw her laying on her bed in the smallest way possible, her shoulders shaking. She was crying. Crying hard. He sighed and started to walk over the bed calling her name softly.
Regina snapped a bit as she heard his voice and looked over her shoulder making sure he really was here and dropped her head down and started crying again. She could hear his soft voice calling her name again and the steps getting closer. She only turned around to him as she felt the mattress go down. She pulled her knees up to her chest and clutched into his legs.
He laid his one hand on her back and the other to her side trying to get her up to sit at least. She let out a broken cry and got up to sit with his help and rested her head on his shoulder. He wrapped his arms around her giving her comfort but also letting her know he was here to listen.
She took a few shaky breaths before opening her mouth, "I'm sorry.."
"What are you sorry for? I came her myself, I'm here to listen remember?"
Somehow his presence and voice made her cake down a bit and relax her. She wonders why on earth would he be here voluntary, but she didn't want to think those options.
"I-.. I was going trough some stuff today when I.. I found letters.. From Henry, and my mother.." She said quietly. He nodded and she felt it, which gave her the courage to continue.
"All my life I wasn't like this.. The Evil Queen.. When I was young.. I was young and in love. I planned to run away with him but my mother didn't understand love. She only understood power and weakness. She had ripped her heart out so she wouldn't fall in love and wouldn't have any weaknesses, but after I was born and grew, all she wanted for me to become the queen. She destroyed my love my happiness.. My whole life..". She took a shaky breath before she continued.
"I never wanted this live, none of it. After she killed my fiancé I wanted to bring him back.. With magic and that's how I learned magic. I never ever wanted to become like my mother, but there was no progress in bringing my fiancé back, I just started to blame Snow for it, and wanted to kill her for what she did to me, because she told my secret that caused all of this.."
"But you learned that she really didn't mean for any of that to happen, and that she regrets it too.."
"Yes.." She loved how he understood her, he saw deep into her where still was the once loving young and bright girl. "But if she never would have told it, we would never be here. I wouldn't be the person I am now.."
"But then you wouldn't have your son." He said. She chuckled a bit against his chest and shook her head. She wouldn't have had Henry, but she would have had Daniel and a life with him.
"That's the other thing I'm crying about.. Henry. He is the most precious thing in my life. I don't even want to life with out him- but here I still am, because he would never give up. He would say, "Don't give up on me mom, you can't loose faith. I will see you again." He would say that.." She said with a sad smile.
"He seems a good kid.." The thief said softly rubbing his hand on her back a little.
"He is.. But he has hurt me the most, but also made me a better person.. When he learned he was adopted and I wasn't his real mother, Snow gave him the book of the fairytales and he some how got in his head that I was the Evil Queen, which I was.." She swallowed thickly before continuing, "So he took distance to me, ran away many times and one time he went all by himself to get Emma, his real- biological mother. She got him back home but sticked into the town and everything changed after that.." She shook her head but so did he.
"I don't follow.." He started but she knew already what to say next.
"Heny convinsed Emma that I was the Evil Queen and they started to do this Operation Cobra, against me... Me.. I- my own son hated me.. For years he hated me for real and now he doesn't even know who I am.. He doesn't even know I exist.." She got barely said before she bursted into tears again..
"Hey shh.. Shh, you are not that person anymore.. I'm sure he loved you too."
"I know he had loved me.. But.. He has no idea how much he has hurt me.. He has called me the Evil Queen for years.. He's screamed to my face how he hates me and that I'm not his mother.. He believed in me, or he wanted to but I've always failed him."
"Regina you have failed him-"
"Yes I have!" She said sharply pulling back from his chest looking now him in the eye. "I've tried to be the better person and tried to change for him, but I always fail him using magic or wanting to kill someone.." She took a deep breath before looking down.
"When Emma came back she.. She took Henry away from me. She just came into town and told me he wasn't my son anymore.. That she was his."
He shook his head.. "How could she do that? So she came into town taking away your son and telling he wasn't yours anymore. That's crap!" He said, clearly annoyed, which surprised her a little. He understood her, he knew how she felt.
"She isn't his mother.. You are. You've been his mother his entire life, taking care of him since a baby, soothing his fevers and changing his diapers.. And one day she just comes into town and tells you she is her son? That's ridiculous."
She took a deep breathe and looked him in the eye, seeing his sympathy for her. She nodded looking down now. "I tried to get Henry back but each time I got more and more hurt.. I've lost him countless times but now.. Now I may never see him again. Now he's lost to me forever.." She said swallowing her tears back.
A sad smile creeped to his face. "But you can't loose hope Regina.. You can't give up on him. You need to believe you will see him again.."
She looked up seeing his sad smile but his eyes took most of her attention. Those soft blue eyes staring at her brown ones. He understood her, he knew just the right words to say when she needed to hear them. She smiled back at him placing his hand on his.
"How can you know just the right words to tell me, when I need them?" She asked softly looking into his eyes.
He couldn't help but smile a little. "Well let's just say I like to look inside people, what they really feel and who they really are.."
She smiled cause she needed those words too. She looked quickly down to his lips before she looked down at his chest and to her sheets.. She moved her legs to the bed and played herself down on her side, not letting go of his hand.
"Can you stay.. Until I fall asleep?" She asked carefully.
"Only if you make room for me.." He replied with a small chuckle.
She smiled and blushed slightly but it was okay because she felt like she could let him close. So she scooted over and let him lay down and after he was comfortable there she tucked to his side and rested her head on his chest.
They didn't need words to communicate with each other.. They just needed each other.
She felt safe with him even thought she shouldn't but she did.. And as his arm wrapped around her back she blushed but didn't mind his touch because she knew he was here for he.
To soothe her, to make her feel safe and to make her believe she could be happy maybe without Henry, but mainly, he gave her hope.
The hope she needed and was happy to take from him.
