HHeyyyyy. I hope everyone is having a great weekend xDD so this chapt we're gonna get some nice Olicity convo and I hope u guys enjoy it. I love you all and let me know what u guys think. Reviews gimme life xDD

It had been one week since Thea had basically decided that she was going to forget about her brother's existence; that she was just going to abandon him like he had done all those years ago.

Oliver was losing or may have already lost his sister. His whole life since his parents had passed was devoted to making sure that she would live her life and be safe; away from any danger. It was a ridiculous coincidence that she happened to basically be a daughter of the Bratva and that she would almost always be in danger.

That was why he had done what he had to do. His family came first and regardless of any situation; they needed to stay safe.

His five years away were some of the hardest years of his life. He was the one who was alone. No one understood that. He had Tommy, Digg, Sara and a few of his most trusted; but that did not take away the burning hardship of being away from his family in Russia; especially Thea. His friends were burdened with tragedies but they all had family and loved ones near. He wouldn't, no he couldn't have his family in Starling, he couldn't have them in a place that was unfamiliar or well protected by his brotherhood.

So he let himself suffer and hurt to keep them safe; and he would continue to let himself suffer so that no one he loved would be hurt.

He was truly alone.

He always ran away and distanced himself from the love of others to keep them and himself safe. He couldn't fall in love. The despair and anguish of losing a beloved would break him. It would be the final blow that would topple him over the bridge. It would be his undoing.

That was why he couldn't think about Felicity. He couldn't think about how when she slept; her golden hair cascaded over her like a halo. He couldn't think about how perfect her body felt against his and how she was the spitting image of fire when she was angry or determined. He already had such a strong protective instinct when it came to her. He couldn't think about her; but he found that he did it anyway.

They had spoken to each other more since that night in Verdant. Oh they argued, but they teased as well and asked questions about one another. She was giving him a feeling of lightness that he did not think he was capable of feeling.

He knew he had to keep her strictly platonic. And he was. He was never going to fall for her.

Oliver had entered his room deciding it was time for bed after a furious workout. He had been surprised to see Felicity sitting on their bed, lost in her own world and typing furiously on her tablet. He took a moment and appreciated the sight of her sitting in his bed with the most adorable crinkle on her nose and smirked when he saw her barrier of pillows put in place.

She was yet to notice him as her eyes were glued tight to her tablet.

"Felicity," he spoke loudly causing her to jump up.

"Don't you knock," she said breathless as she glared at him while putting her tablet away. "And what are you even doing here."

He breathed out a laugh, "Felicity this is my bedroom."

She shuffled on the bed and was making her way under the blankets, "It's not your bedroom anymore mister, I own your ass and that means I get half of everything." She stuck her tongue out at him and went under the blankets.

He shook his head laughing as he went to go change mumbling in Russian about her.

When he came out he saw her fumbling with her fingers as if she was caught taking a cookie from a jar. He realized that she was also normally asleep whenever he came in.

"Why are you up so late?" He asked trying to sound casual as he removed the blankets for his side of the bed and getting in.

"Uhmm no reason." Okay there was something wrong.

He sat up on his side of the bed and leaned over her barrier giving her a stern look. "What's going on Felicity? What's wrong?" He pushed. She avoided looking at him until he held her chin with his hand and tilted her chin upwards until she looked him in the eye.

"Fe-li-city," he growled out. Eyes growing darker.

"Oliver," she mocked back.

He glared at her and if she was a regular human being she would've backed down, but she was just as stubborn as he was.

"I'm not going to tell you Oliver because you're just going to get all angry and growly. And it's really nothing."

"Felicity, tell me." He spoke softer which shocked both him and her. That was not his usual tactic to use when he wanted people to talk.

She looked back at him with these big doe eyes, "promise you won't get angry and you'll let me do this."

What hell did she wanna do? The pricking of fear entered his spine and he snapped. "Let you do what!" He gritted out, teeth clenched as he loomed over her. The hand that was on her chin was now cupping her face.

"Oliver!" She said using her loud voice. "Promise me."

They had a staring match until he finally caved. "I promise."

"Okay was not expecting that to work but...Iwastryingtofindthelocationofmyfather."

"What?"

She breathed deeply. "I was trying to find my father."

"WHAT!" He couldn't believe this. "Are you even aware of the danger you're putting yourself in!?...No...no you have to stop now." His grip on her face grew tighter as he held her.

"No!...Oliver I have to find him. I need to find any clue...just anything that can possibly lead us to him." She spoke loudly trying to address her point.

He pulled his hand away from her face and clenched his hands breathing sharply. "No you can't," he said shaking his head. "Do you know that the Triad has hackers too; that they can find out who it is that is trying to find one of their own and decide to eliminate them...Why Felicity? Why?" He spoke harshly.

"Because he's taken everything Oliver!" She sat up from her side of the bad and looked at him. "My mom is one of the most outgoing and one of the most craziest person I have ever met. She loved going out and about with me everywhere; but now, now the fear of him taking her eats her up and she doesn't even want to set foot out of this house. I can't even get a job because of him; I can't see my friends now because I'm afraid he'll get to them somehow. I can't live."

"Felicity," Oliver turned from his spot and looked at this strong beautiful woman who had tears in her eyes and it pained him to see her like this.

"It's either I try to find him first or he'll find us and take us away." Her voice cracked and quivered near the ending and he couldn't take it. Red hot fury wen through him at the thought of her father getting to them. He grasped her head with the palm of his hands, the pads of his thumb rubbing her cheeks as he looked her in the eye, foreheads touching, "I will never let him near you. Or your mother. I will never let him take you away from me." He said with so much passion. No one was to harm them. The look of fear on her face only made him want to find her father faster so he could kill him at a slow torturous pace.

"Oliver, you promised. You have to let me do this." She spoke as he pulled his hands away from her.

He looked around the room and rubbed his fingers through his hair in frustration. "I know. I know you're the best hacker for the job." He was having a hard time letting her do this. His stomach was burning with fear. "I will do my best to find this son of a bitch. We'll work together. And felicity?"

"Yeah"

"Promise me you'll come to me if you find anything. I can't even think about you going after him on your own."

She smile and nodded at him. "Of course and thank you Oliver." The pleading look that he was giving made it impossible for her to say no.

They had both turned to turn off their lamps from their bedside table and lay down almost as though they were mirroring one another.

"Goodnight Oliver,"

"Goodnight Felicity."

Oliver awoke to a the sound of Felicity shuffling around their room looking everywhere.

"What are you doing." He said groggily

"Wow, someone should not sound that hot in the morning." She replied.

He chuckled knowing that she had no clue that she said that.

"Oh god please tell me I did not say that out loud." She turned towards him blushing.

"You didn't say that I sounded hot in the morning." He said laughing.

"Kill me," she mumbled and then stuck her tongue out at him.

Why was she so adorable? She normally was always asleep when he woke up and god he would plan on sleeping in everyday if he could wake up to her every morning.

He was still lying down arm behind his head as he admired her. She was dressed in a white sundress that went to her knees, her hair down from its usual ponytail and it was like looking at light. She was a Goddess and he didn't think she knew how beautiful she was.

He needed to stop. He had to get away from her but before he could shut himself out, he found himself talking. "Wait, are you going somewhere and why are you up so early?" He asked curiously getting anxious.

"Aha I found them." She said while waving a pair of panda flats in front of him. She was walking around the room cleaning up the mess she had made from her search for her favorite pair of flats. "Uhmm me and Thea are going shopping aaaand cue the growly face."

She laughed because he did indeed have his growly face on "You are so predictable Oliver, and before you get all crazy, we are taking bodyguards with us so nothing will happen."

He glared at her. Why was she so perfect at reading him?

"Why do you need to go shopping?", he asked annoyed sitting up in the bed, back against the headboard. He didn't like them going out with so much threats around.

"Maybe because my idiot husband has dragged me along with him to attend his stupid parties and I definitely do not have the wardrobe for it." She replied while sitting on her side of the bed checking her tablet.

He couldn't help the way his heart jumped when she called him her husband.

"And just so you know I'm taking your credit card."

He laughed. He was doing that a lot around her. "Go ahead. It's my duty to spoil my beautiful wife."

She looked at him and he could see the blush on her cheeks slowly making its way down her neck. He wanted to see just how far that blush went and follow it with his tongue.

These primal urges that he was feeling for her were becoming too frequent and he knew it should stop but seeing her eyes grow darker as she looked at him knowing for a fact that his were the same made it impossible.

Her tongue darted out to wet her lips and his control was just about ready to slip away. He needed to reign it back in or else he was gonna take her hard on every flat surface in this room.

They were broken away by her phone ringing and he couldn't be more grateful.

"Hey Thea, I'll be down in like 5 minutes," he could hear Thea say something else over the line and he just realized how much he missed her.

She had not said a word to him in a whole week and he knew that was an all time record.

He didn't know how to fix this. He didn't know if he could but he was immediately grateful that she had Felicity.

He heard Felicity finish up with her call and he couldn't help but remember what Felicity said to him when they had fought about her job.

It was something that he thought about everyday. "What did you mean?" He asked.

"What are you talking about?" She replied a little nervous. He could understand after what just happened.

She wasn't making eye contact with him and she busied herself with putting her flats on.

"What did you mean when you said that you wouldn't let what I did to Thea happen to you."

"Oliver -"

"Felicity, I need to know...I...I don't want to lose her."

She turned towards and sat on her side of the bed cross legged. "Thea has told me a lot in these last few weeks and your fight at the club made her feel...uhmm like she was nothing to you."

"What! How could she think that? Everything that I've done was for her!"

"Oliver, when your parents passed she said you shut her out. She said you barely saw her but that it didn't matter because when you were around, it was when she was the happiest." He closed his eyes in pain. He knew he was selfish but he couldn't. Not after what he saw.

She felt her hands clasp his and he looked at her before closing his fingers around her. He never accepted comfort and help but from her it seemed as though he couldn't refuse.

She smiled at him before continuing. "I know how hard it must have been for you Oliver and if you need to talk about that day I'm here; but Thea, Thea lost parents that day as well and she had to somewhat suffer the loss of her brother."

He couldn't take this. How could he have done this to her. Before he could voice anything Felicity beat him too it. "It's not your fault Oliver. You were a child, a child who had seen too much. You couldn't have known better."

She looked at him with sympathy, "Anatoly and your protection stopped her from doing anything. She could do nothing that normal kids her age would do. She never even really had a real friend before. When you left for those five years it hurt her a lot. You called but you never visited once or you never let her visit. She yearns for your love and attention. You're her big brother and her only blood family left. She was so happy to come to Starling because she thought you and her would finally be able to spend sometime together," she swallowed thickly. "Oliver your intentions of protecting her is the reason you're losing her."

He could not tell Felicity the real reason he cowered away from his family. He could not tell her that it was because he was afraid. "I can't be anything for her if she's dead."

"You can tell yourself that all you want Oliver but you know you'll lose her regardless."

Felicity sighed, "if you keep going on like this Oliver you will lose her. If you keep shutting her out not bothering to spend time with her you will lose her. You can't smother her with protection Oliver, it's not worth it. She wants a life.

"How? How can I make this better?" He whispered. She wanted to hug him. This man, as much of an idiot he was, he had been through too much.

"Be there for her now. Talk to her; spend time with her. Give her the attention that she needs. Let her make choices and do your best to protect her while actually letting her live." She smiled at him squeezing his hand.

He nodded. He had to try. He had yo do whatever it took for Thea. He had already destroyed so many years with her he didn't want to lose anymore. "I'll do my best"

"Well I'm afraid your best is still not very much" she teased while getting up and grabbing her purse.

He snickered. This woman could make any situation better. "You're remarkable."

"Thank you for remarking on it," she blushed again while looking down at her feet. "I have to go before she murders me."

"Bye," she waved quickly and somewhat awkwardly as she walked out of the room.

"Bye." He replied. He got up and headed to the shower. His mind filled with too many thoughts most of them including her.