The letter part 2
My dearest Chloe,
What you did by writing this letter was one of the bravest things I ever witnessed someone doing.
But that's so you, you in all your wonderful and lovable nature. In your way of giving so unconditionally, so unselfconsciously. It's what I saw in you the moment you busted into the shower, and it's what drags me towards you, every day a bit more.
But I'm also getting afraid on this way that you so involuntary led me on, which I was willing to go without questioning it. Afraid of what lies ahead, afraid of what a love like you offer could bring me, what it would make me.
I'm so unsure of what I'm feeling, because never in my whole life was there someone caring for me so deeply and loving me with all my scars and insecurities like you do. When I look at you, I see myself like I truly am.
And that scares me. Because a love so pure and unclouded, could also be a great danger. Danger that you love someone so fuckin' much, that you fall even harder.
I never learned it any other way, people only came into my life at one point to left me at another. And it hurt every damn time. And I'm scared to death that your love as much as I crave for it, could break me.
But as much as I'm scared, I'm in love with you too. I need you, I long for you and I feel safe and worth in your presence. You didn't put the world to my feet, but you held out your hand to walk it with me.
Give me time, Chlo. And don't leave me on this way, which sometimes is rocky and hard.
Yours forever,
Beca