A/N: Hey guys! Sorry it's been awhile since I've updated but a lot of things have been going on. Anyway read the bottom A/N if you want to know what fanfics are soon to come.

Episode 11: The One Where They All Think About The Future

"I mean c'mon guys, were not gonna be twenty-something forever. We need to start thinking about the future." Octavia reminded them causing an eerie silence from all of them. Not even Jasper or Monty dared to make a joke. "Think about it. Where do you guys see yourselves when your thirty?"

Jasper was the first to answer, "I'll probably be living with Monty. Maya would probably move into my room."

"Yeah and maybe Miller could live in mine and Jasper and I could be getting that promotion we were working hard on!" Monty agrees, the two high fiving and Octavia blinks.

"You two are still gonna live together when your thirty?"

That silences them both. Looking at each other and muttering about how Miller and Maya may not like that idea so much and then looking shamefully at the ground.

"Raven, don't you wanna be married by then? Doesn't Wick not want to get married?" Octavia leads on.

Raven's tan skin goes pale when she mentions this. Raven always wanted to get married; she didn't want to end up like her mom and just get pregnant, have your boyfriend bail and you bail on your own child. She wanted to get married and have one boy and live in a nice house. "I don't want to stress Wick about that though..."

"Yeah but he shouldn't let you be led on for so long. One day your gonna get married, minus well bring up the idea now." Octavia shrugged, sipping her mocha frappe and looking at Bellamy who seemed not too invested in the conversation they were having as he was in the conversation him and Clarke were having.

"And you two?" Octavia asked, stopping their conversation.

"What?" Clarke asked, dubiously.

"What about your future? Is it living up to your expectations? I mean, Bell, you are twenty six. Your closer to thirty than all of us. And Clarke your getting pretty close to mid-twenties." Octavia led on.

Bellamy frowns, thinking about what he's done or accomplished and the only thing he can think of is getting completely hooked on Clarke again. Nothing has changed since he was little, he was still chasing after Clarke and standing by her side when she didn't even ask. Bellamy removes his arm from around Clarke's shoulder, scratching the back of his head and frowning. He doesn't want to chase after her for his whole life. He doesn't want to see her with her beautiful fancy rich husband with her four kids like she always dreamed of. He doesn't think he could take that.

Clarke thinks of what she has accomplished and she basically just went backwards. She went back to her home town, she became a homewrecker and she's still in love with Bellamy. She just went down hill. She thinks of the future, her still working painfully hard at the hospital and looking out the window to see Bellamy with his super model wife who's pregnant and still has no belly. She frowns, holding her hand within her own.

"I'm gonna talk to Wick. I need to start living." Raven says immediately, standing on her feet and running out of the coffee shop.

Jasper and Monty look at each other, opening their mouths to say something but soon close it and head in different directions.

"I need to head to work, I'll see you guys later." Bellamy stands up, kissing Octavia on the forehead and leaning in to kiss Clarke on the cheek only to stop midway. "Um, never mind, bye." He kisses her cheek with a concerned face and leaves out the door.

Her hand twitches to come up to her cheek and hold it from where he had kissed her. His lips still linger on it even though he's already left and she wonders how many times she can take that before she turns her head a little so he can kiss her on the mouth. She wonders if that'll break their friendship but she knows she cant take it for that much longer.

Raven had set up a meeting with Wick for dinner.

He had agreed, coming to nowhere fancy just simply Starbucks. He made some conversation about this new car he repaired and he made this cool thing that he just had to show her when they go back to work tomorrow. She had nodded at all of this, giving gentle smiles and adding on her own replies.

"Hey Wick?" She asked, cutting him off from some story he was about to tell her. "I remember, like around when we first met, you were talking to these two guys and you were telling them that you never wanted to get married."

"Oh. You heard that?" He asks, not even that fazed about it.

"Yeah, I was just...never mind."

He gives her a confused look, raising his fluffy blond eyebrow at her and cocking his head to the side. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing, forget it."

So he continues with some random story. She doesn't want to lose him, not when things have been so good. She doesn't want to scare him off even if she knows she'll be led on to fall in love with him and he might even make her change her mind about marriage. She doesn't want to fight with him but being dragged too deep where she thinks she might fall in love with him would be worse.

Then again, she thinks she's already in love with him.

Raven likes the way Wick uses his hands to explain his stories, likes the banter he makes, likes how when she teases him he'll think of something immediately and tease her back, she likes the way that he likes to be the little spoon (as nerdy and weird as it is, she likes to be the big spoon), she finds it hilarious that someone so much bigger than her acts like a peaceful Yogi Bear and she loves how they can talk about their own beliefs and their own passions.

She's not ready to lose him; not yet.

She pushes herself off the table, telling him to give her a sec she has to pee and exits to the bathroom. She thinks of what to do, she wants to damp water in her face but that would ruin her makeup, she also wants to just lay down for an hour until her body knows what it wants to do. She texts Clarke a quick message:

I need your help, mom. I'm so confused...

"Octavia, please." Clarke sighs, holding the bridge of her nose together as she listens to Octavia ramble.

"What's wrong? You've been weird ever since I mentioned the future." Octavia persists.

"I know, I'm sorry. I know you just want to talk about the future and all the fun your having and all the fun you are going to have with Lincoln but I'm a little bit older and I don't know...it makes me worry."

"Well, I mean you always have us. We'll always be here for you. Maybe not physically sometimes but mentally, we'll always be there."

"What do you mean not physically?"

Octavia has a flash of guilt that comes across her mind but she thinks of Bellamy and Clarke when they were young. Bellamy cooking some eggs with an apron that says 'kiss the chef' and Clarke had laughed and took pictures until he tackled her to the couch and told her to delete them now. She had refused, printing them all out and said, "What are you gonna do about it?" Which only made him kiss her and roll his eyes.

Octavia takes in a big breath because she wants that. She wants her brother and her closest friend to be happy again. Because if there was one thing Octavia did was love to every bit of her heart and even if that meant they would be distant, she had to. So she shrugged and said with fake indifference, "Well Lincoln and I were talking about it yesterday. About how he wants to move in together with me, not anytime soon he was just bringing up the idea and I know I eventually have to get married and be all adult-ish."

Clarke now looks terrified. Octavia wants to rip up her insides because she made her best friend feel terrified but she wants her to be happy. She wants her to be when she last saw her the most happiest and that was when her and Bell were dating. She practically lived at their house back then.

"Clarke, it's not anytime soon." Octavia reminded, holding her knee to keep her grounded. To remind her that she's here. "I wouldn't kick you out like that. Not until were both happy with the people we love or you're a rich billionaire."

Clarke smiles at that, tucking a strand of Octavia's hair behind her ear and pulls her in for a hug as she laughs softly. "I know you wouldn't. I'm just thinking, that's all. I mean I have nothing going to plan, I'm no where near being an adult. I have no husband, not a boyfriend, not a girlfriend, I hate my job and am trying for another one - I just...I'm a little bit lost."

"Your gonna be fine with that art thing your doing. You'll be the best they ever saw. And with guys and girls? You could date whoever you want. But Clarke," Octavia sighs, she knows their going to get into a fight. She can just tell. "you have to start doing things. You always set up lists and although that's good because you know what you want to do with life, how about you stop listing and start doing?"

Clarke pulls away, giving her a surprised expression. It's her angry expression really. But Clarke doesn't like showing anyone her truly angry expression, anyone who isn't Bellamy anyway. "Octavia. You know full well that I'm trying."

"I know your trying but you keep focusing too much on other peoples problems, Clarke. Although I love you for it and thank you a million times, you shouldn't have stopped painting for me last night. You should have kept doing what you were doing. You paid off Jasper and Monty's rent yesterday - don't even try to deny it, Bellamy told me. You keep running to Raven anytime she has a 'Wick and her' problem. Really, Clarke. Start taking care of yourself. Your not gonna always be our mother."

"I am taking care of myself. I can handle it."

"Clarke you know I love you. You know how much I love you being our mother because I know we all need that. Raven's mom would sell her for drugs and her dad bailed, Monty and Jasper never got adopted and didn't even have a parental figure to look at, Bellamy and I had a lunatic mother who tried to kill us and a father who lives in a box. We love you. We love that we have a mother that we didn't have when we were younger but it's time for you to let us look after you."

"I don't need that, Octavia. Maybe...maybe I like being the mom, okay? Maybe I want things to stay like they are."

Octavia gives her a pleading stare, for Clarke to try and be reasonable but her phone rings. Octavia grabs it before Clarke can, sighing when she sees it's Raven saying: I need your help, mom. I'm so confused...

Octavia sighs, giving her the phone and shaking her head when Clarke immediately starts gathering her things to run over to Raven's aid. "You need to focus on yourself, Clarke."

"I am."

"Is that why your running over to help Raven?"

Clarke sighs, running her hand over her face before she turns to her. "Don't be like your brother, Octavia. I don't need two Blake's telling me how to take care of myself - one of you is stubborn enough and I don't think I can handle two." She starts to go out the door but Octavia runs beside her.

"Do you even understand why we're so worried about you?"

Clarke doesn't answer.

"It's because we love you! It's because we care for you. Know why Bellamy is always so angry when you defy him?"

"Octavia-"

"It's because he's in love with you, Clarke."

She stops in her tracks, nearly slipping on her heel and looks at her with wide-eyes before shaking her head. "Only platonically."

"Whatever helps you sleep." Octavia says, leaving Clarke standing in the cold with a sprained ankle from how hard she slammed on her feet. Clarke sighs, pulls out her phone and calls Raven to ask what's wrong.

Bellamy sighs, tucking the phone between his shoulder and his ear as he sits beside Miller in a police car. Miller is doing the same only Bellamy is talking to Jasper and Miller is talking to Monty. Both consoling the two men from having a mental break down.

"Do you think we'll still be friends if we moved out?" Jasper asks.

Bellamy nods, soon realizing he cant see him and sighs. "Jas, you and Monty have been best friends since you were put up for adoption and when was that? When you both were like, what? Four? Even when some people would adopt you, they'd send you two right back. That's because your brothers, that's because you were both meant to be with each other. You'll be fine. Maybe you should move into Maya's apartment."

He looks out of the corner of his eye to Miller who seems to have sweat running down his face as he listens to Monty. He's probably venting about how ridiculous Jasper is being and is probably soon whining about how much he'll miss him. Bellamy rolls his eyes just from the thought.

"It's too soon to move in with Maya!" Jasper retorts.

"Then you don't have to worry, you and Monty will live with each other for another few years."

"Only a few!? Oh great!" Jasper growls.

"Or a long time, I don't know man."

"No, your right. Only a few years because Monty will soon be moving in with that gross stupid boyfriend of his, leaving me all alone in this apartment."

Bellamy sighs, running a hand through his hair. He wants to tell him to call Clarke and he's at work and he cant deal with this right now but he also doesn't want to dump this on her. She probably has a lot on her plate. "Look Jasper, that's in the future. You shouldn't cry about your future, live in the present. Go enjoy Monty for how ever long you two are living together, go enjoy the beginning of dating with Maya, enjoy work because you know maybe you will get that promotion and maybe you'll miss all that goofing off and not being in charge. Have fun."

It's a long period of silence and Bellamy thinks he might have hung up. "I'm hugging the phone right now." Jasper tells him.

"Oh." Bellamy says, wondering if he should pat the phone but he decides against it and just lets the phone rest in his hand. "You done hugging the phone?"

"No...wait...okay, now I'm done." He can hear Jasper's grin. "Thanks Bellamy, you're the best dad ever."

"Don't call me that-" but he's already hung up. He's about to put his phone away when it rings again and he answers with a growl. "I told you to go fuckin' live, Jasper!"

"It's me, Bell." Clarke says from the other line.

"Oh. Hey, princess. What's up?"

"Octavia and I got in a fight." Clarke explains.

He looks over to Miller, who still seems to be talking to Monty and he's trying to explain to him that everything is gonna be alright. Bellamy sighs. "You two okay?"

"No. She was talking about her and Lincoln moving in-"

"Wait, wait, wait. What did she say?"

"Bellamy, please. I don't really want you getting mad at her and I don't really want to protect her right this instant so I just need you to listen, okay?" He sighs and she takes that as her okay. "She was talking about moving in with him and she started going off on me. About how I don't take care of myself and take care of others too much and she started saying these weird things and I don't know, Bell-"

"Hey, everything's gonna be okay. My shift is almost over, we'll talk about it then okay?"

"I cant...I'm kind of taking care of Raven."

Bellamy smirks, shaking his head. "You do realize how ironic that sounds right?"

"Shut up. I know, okay? Just wait over in my room, I'll be there hopefully by the time my shift ends."

"Should I get pizza?"

"And brownies."

He laughs. "And brownies, got it."

"Thanks Bell. I really appreciate it." He can hear her smile over the phone, hear the way she tucks a strand of her hair behind her ear and he can just feel the way she dips her head down to cover her smile even though no one is watching.

"No problem, just remember," he tells her. "to breathe, okay?"

"You too." She reminds him as well and he nods. Both of them muttering a 'love you' and hang up.

Raven is choking up in the bathroom when Clarke gets there. Clarke pulls out a chocolate bar from her purse and wraps a blanket around her shoulders, locking the bathroom door. "Tell me the problem." Clarke coos and Raven explains how she feels and how badly she doesn't want to lose him and to help and she doesn't know what to do.

"He doesn't deserve you if he tells you that he still doesn't want to get married when you confess you do."

"I cant lose him, Clarke. I know that's lame but I cant."

"Anyone who isn't blind or stupid - would pick you first in a heart beat. I think engineers have to at least have an average IQ and actually have to see to do their job. He will make the right decision and that would be to at least consider marrying you."

Raven smiles, pulling her in for a tight hug and biting onto the piece of chocolate before nodding. "You're right, I'm awesome. He'll pick me."

"Damn right." Clarke smiles.

So Clarke watches from behind a menu as Raven goes up to Wick. "You've been in there for awhile, everything okay?" Wick asks.

"Perfect. I was just thinking that I want to get married. Not right now though!" She adds hastily.

"You were thinking about all of this while on the toilet?"

"No, I just needed a pep talk. But either way - I want to get married and if you don't that's your problem. But I do. Maybe not now, but soon. And I don't want to continue this relationship knowing its heading nowhere."

Wick raises an eyebrow but she storms out of the Starbucks and Clarke looks down as she passes by Wick. "Clarke." He greets.

"Wick." She greets back.

Octavia opens Bellamy's door which is unlocked and sees him ordering some pizza and he's making sure they add brownies. He's practically growling at the man over the phone for it. He mutters a thanks when he's done and ends the call, turning to Octavia with a raised eyebrow.

"Hey," Octavia greets, sitting down on his couch.

"Why were you fighting with Clarke?" Bellamy asks harshly, folding his arms at her and clearly disappointed.

"I'm sorry about that. I just wanted Clarke to be happy."

"Clarke gets immensely depressed when you two fight, how is that making her happy?"

"I was just thinking about the future..."

"Stop thinking about it. Because of you 'thinking about the future' I wasted all my minutes on my phone consoling Jasper." Bellamy retorts, sitting down beside her and still giving her a disappointed face.

"I'm guessing Clarke told you about Lincoln and I moving in." Octavia trails on, shifting in her seat and laying the pillow on her lap.

"She told me how you wanted her to move out, yeah."

"I don't want that! Lincoln and I were just talking not that long ago about moving in together, he wanted me to think about it - that's all. I told him no and I couldn't do that to Clarke but then he made me think of when she was the most happiest and then..."

"Then what, Octavia?"

"I thought of when she was trying to make those pancakes like you always did for me. I thought of you two throwing batter at each other and laughing and...I don't know."

Bellamy sighs, leave it to the Blake's to love so intensely that it hurts the other. He grabs her hand to stop her from twiddling her fingers and smiles sadly. "Are you trying to make us date each other again, O? Because Clarke doesn't look at me that way anymore."

"No, well, not yet anyway. All I'm trying to do is make you two live together and then you guys will discuss your undying love for one another."

He laughs, rolling his eyes at his sisters gaze. He ponders about living together with Clarke, they technically had when they were dating. She had her own drawer and tooth brush and own coffee mug and plate. They got along well, she helped him out..."Clarke wouldn't be comfortable with that."

"You two are best friends what are you talking about?"

"I know but..." He sighs, running his hand through his curly hair and frowning.

"I remember the last time you were happy, like really, really happy. I woke up to laughing, like a really loud squeal and when I came out you were on top of her, both of your hands were laced together and you guys were trying to figure out who was stronger. I wanted Clarke to win so I jumped on top of you and started pulling you so you'd lose your strength a little but even so...you were still stronger than both of us. And you pretended to lose." He laughs at the thought of that, still remembering it so perfectly. Remembers how Clarke's hair was still damp from the shower, remembers her still wearing his boxers and his t-shirt, remembers the old purple couch that screeched anytime someone sat in it.

Remembers just how happy they all were.

He smiles, laughing softly only for the sadness to come into the pit of his stomach. He frowns, holding his head in his hands and concentrates on his breathing. "Are you alright, Bell?" Octavia asks. He shakes his head and she rubs his back, letting her head lay on top of his. "What's wrong?"

He takes a moment before he answers, sucking in a deep breath. "I think I still kind of like her. Sort of."

"I know."

He groans. "You do?"

"Yeah...I think she still likes you too."

He looks up, Octavia smiles at the hopefulness in his eyes that he probably doesn't even notice. She scoffs in her mind thinking about how he phrased his words, 'I think I still kind of like her' that was an understatement. He was in love with her. She didn't need to be his sister to figure that out. "You think?" He asks hopefully.

"Yeah, it's gross."

He shoves her.

Raven passed out on Clarke's couch once she was done finishing almost every wine bottle or type of liquor they had in the apartment. Clarke stared at Raven's phone, seeing all the messages from Wick and missed calls. She read one which said: You aren't at your apartment. I don't think Clarke is home either cause all the lights are off. Where are you? I'm worried.

Clarke wanted to turn on the lights, wanted to open the door to indicate that she was here but Raven had shook her head and fell back asleep. Soon after his departure, Bellamy came in with a pizza box and wings and some brownies all in his hands.

He looked exhausted and dreadful but she doubted she looked any better.

"Rough day, huh?" He asks, following Clarke into her room after he drapes a blanket over the sleeping Raven.

"I'm guessing you too, huh?"

He shrugs, folding his legs across one another as they pass around the ranch and dip their pizzas in it. "You worried about the moving-in thing?" He asks.

"Am I that easy to read?" She smiles gently, like she's trying to be playful but she looks down at the floor and he can tell she's genuinely really concerned about it. "Where will I live?" She whispers, more to herself than him.

He takes a minute, staring her in the eye and seeing the tears build up and the way she has a bit of grease on the side of her lip as she pouts. Before he answers her, "With me."

She rolls her eyes, shoving him gently on the shoulder. "I'm serious, Bellamy."

"I am too."

He can see her lips twitch, trying to smile but she soon shakes her head. "You don't want me there."

"Yeah, I do. I don't mind."

"Bell..." She trails, still smiling at him.

He grabs her shoulder, rubbing his calloused thumb over it and smiling at her. Their both staring at each other with such intensity it takes him a minute to talk, "I want you to live with me."

She smiles, shaking her head. "You're too good to me."

"You'd do the same for me and you know it. Your my best friend. And it wont be free; we'll both have our own chores, both do the rent and we'll both make breakfast for each other. You can work on those terrible smiley faces you call pancakes while your at it." He explains, resting his forehead against hers and she laughs.

"When they move in together...are you sure you want me to move into your house?"

"Yeah. I have that guest room I never use anyway."

"What happens if you have a girlfriend?"

He pursues his lips before grinning at her. "I'll kick her out."

"I'm not going to do that to you-"

"You and Octavia are the people I love most. I don't care what I have to do, if it's for you - I'll drop anything and be happy about it."

She wraps her arms around him, pulling him into her and she doesn't care that the ranch just spilled on her comforter even though Bellamy keeps tapping on her shoulder and reminding her. She focuses on him and how he smells like cologne and pine trees and something that makes her smile.

"You know anytime everyone is shit to me, your not?" At his silence, she wraps her arms more firmly around him, burying her lips into the side of his neck and continues, "Your my hero, Bell. Always. Anytime the world is falling apart around me, your just...there for me. You really are the best, huh?"

"Yeah." He shrugs which makes her laugh.

"It's movie night, your turn to pick the movie."

"My turn?"

"Yeah," she nods. "Just a hint, you probably want to pick the movie I brought."

"Is that so?"

"Yeah, I mean, I'm gonna be your roommate soon right? Should get on my good side."

He laughs.

When they all come over Octavia fears she might have pushed them too hard. Everyone is silent, no one is talking and it's movie night. They don't even tease Bellamy when he had picked Clarke's movie rather than his own. Jasper and Monty are sitting as far as possible from each other, drumming their fingers against their arm rests, Raven is drinking some more wine, Bellamy is quite with his arm around Octavia and Clarke. And Clarke, her best friend cant even look her in the eye.

"That's it!" Octavia out bursts, turning off the TV and causing everyone's attention. "All of us are gonna make up! I didn't mean to turn this group into an emo gang or something. Monty and Jasper, tell me your problem."

"What happens if we wont be as close?" Monty blurts out.

"Your brothers, if anything just do what Bellamy did to me. Move across the street where you can still see each other. Either way it wont matter, you guys are siblings; no matter how far you are, you guys will always be close. You can call each other every day over the phone, imagine the fun in visiting each other when you haven't seen each other in an hour? Plus we hang out in the coffee shop every goddamn day!"

They both smile, running at each other and pull each other in a tight hug. Octavia turns to Raven, grabbing the wine bottle from her hand and dials Wick's number as she presses speaker. "Finally!" Wick says from the other side of the phone. "You were worrying me to death! Look, I know what I said and at the time it was true. I didn't want to get married but that was only because I didn't want to marry any of the girls I dated so far.

"It was because I didn't meet you yet and I didn't think I could ever date a person like you. I'll marry you over the phone right now if you want. I know a pastor I can call right now and we can do this right through the phone." Wick continues.

Raven laughs, grabbing the phone and heading outside to go talk to him.

Octavia then looks over to Clarke, her chin wrinkles immediately and she falls to her knees as she hugs onto Clarke's waist. "Please don't be angry at me anymore. I was speaking metaphorically, I don't want you actually moving out - I don't know what I'd do if you did. It'd be an end of an era!"

Clarke laughs which makes her look up at her with her water-filled blue eyes. "I wasn't angry at you, Octavia. Only a little. But it's okay if you do move in with Lincoln. I'll move in with Bellamy. I want you to be happy, I mean it'll be weird waking up without you snoring in the other room but I want you to grow up and be happy and unfortunately so, that requires me not living in your apartment."

"I'm happy when your living in my apartment though..."

"Your not growing up though." Clarke counters.

Octavia frowns. "I'm really sorry."

Clarke shrugs. "Me too." and she pulls Octavia in for another hug. The idea of not living with Octavia hurts her, it makes her think back to college when she was going over there - how the idea of Octavia and Bellamy not being with her in the morning was just surreal. But that was growing up; getting rid of your normal routines to start another.

Octavia needed to grow up and this time Octavia wasn't asking permission to go to the middle school prom and to please convince Bellamy, this time it was serious and this time she needed to let go of her hand and let her step forward. Clarke looked forward to what would happen next; her and Bellamy like old times. Their was a feeling in the pit of her stomach that made her tingle from fear and excitement.

A/N: Okay I know I always tell you what I'm writing and don't usually post it but I'm done with that. Summer is soon to come so that means all my fanfics are going to be posted. I've been telling you all about my Harry Potter AU and although I am going to post it I'm also going to be making another way being that I'm not okay with how it was set up. Either way, I will be making a totally different Harry Potter AU for bellarke. Brooklyn 99, I might actually post today because the season finale is today but we'll see. I have a high school AU which I'm really excited for. I actually think from all of my fics that will be the best (to my surprise), I have a Teen Wolf in the works but it's not done yet, Super hero one, Camp Halfblood and many others. One I'm working on currently is my skins AU. I'm actually working on a gifset as of right now. Anyway I hoped you enjoy! Tell me in the reviews which au your looking forward too! Have a good day! - Phantom4747