"For you."
"Couldn't live without you I guess."
"I'm tired of pretending."
"Ziva David, so you really consider me to be in your life?"
"I'm talking about the new us here Ziva, the post elevator us."
"And maybe even like tali's there with you."
"I want whatever you want, whatever you need."
"Aht lo Levad."
"Just pretend your with me."
"You know, to thank her."
"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU ZIVA."
"But I guess that doesn't mean anything."

Her mind was racing.

"How was it such a shock? Why couldn't I say anything! I know I feel the same way..."

Ziva couldn't take it anymore. There was no way she could sleep.

She made her way down the stairs leading to Gibbs basement. With each step, the smell of sawdust and bourbon got stronger and stronger, and it seems her legs got weaker and weaker. Was she really ready to talk to Gibbs about something she didn't fully understand herself? Maybe that's why she's down here? To try and get her head on straight.

"Couldn't sleep?" Asked Gibbs.

"No. I could not...
"But not because I'm in pain." Ziva quickly added.

"Emotionally or physically?"

He always did seem to be able to see right through people. Always seemed to be able to say the right words.

"I don't know what to say Gibbs"

"To me or Tony?"

Ziva scoffed at his bluntness, but immediately started to pace around the room gathering her thoughts.

"All he was doing was looking out for me. But I kept pushing him away thinking I didn't need anyone's help. H-he...I...he told me he loved me." Chocking on the last few words. and stopped pacing to look at the ground.

"And?"

"And I didn't say anything! I just stood there! I hurt him Gibbs. That is worse than any gunshot. And I know you have rules against it but... I love him."

Gibbs stopped sanding and then looked at Ziva. She was stil looking at the ground as if she thought he would be ashamed.

"Well do you know what to say now?"

"No" Ziva admitted sadly.

Gibbs was now standing In front of Ziva and Kissed her forehead.
"You will"

And with that, he left, leaving her to process everything.

So he didn't care if the broke rule 12? Did he really think she could fix this all? More importantly, did she know how to?